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weekend are soooooooooo precious…. this weekend is esp. slack for me.. didn’t do anything much…

yar.. have to learn to take things ez…. though i’m worried of work 1/2 the time… well… have to do my best and leave the rest to God :smile1

i can blog today coz tml i’ll be on course… so i can afford to slp later… below are some photos which we took and i didn’t have the time to upload till now…

BH and i went to Canele@Paragon for tea today… really like it that we cld sit down and chit chat… it juz mks me feel gd that we cld talk openly abt many stuff… i had strawberry short cake and BH had chocolate cake ( which i forget the name)… the strawberries were super sweet and the chocolate was rich! we enjoyed it so much that we brought it for my sis…. and they packaged it really nicely even if it’s juz 1 cake! wah!!! btw.. we drank organic tea… haha… first time drinking such tea….

actually, i m rather disturbed tt after so long… i still do not know what i m gd at….like… i’m not gd in sports… not gd in studies…. not very sociable… so what am i gd at??? well… i asked BH what i was gd at… thought tt he wld be the best person to give an accurate ans…. but he didn’t know what to say.. frankly… i was disapted… coz… i knew a list of things that BH was gd at…. :blank1 hmmmm…. m i gd for nothing then….

anyway, these pics are my personal faves… taken at vivo… thought we look quite nice… haha

the next 2 pics were taken on National Day… my sis, bh, ym, fel and i went to watch fireworks together… before that we had ice-cream@central

tt’s all for now…

if you r thinking why amanda isn’t blogging… there’s juz 2 reasons:

1) very busy
2) no happy stuff to blog abt

hmmm… this time it’s juz a combination of both…

school is alright…. children are playful but still controllable… collegues are so far so good…work is nv ending but manageble… next week is gonna be a terrible week as i wld need to prepare portfolio for the kids… and also adminster GEP test on a saturday….

well…it’s BH’s bz period too… so we practically don’t talk until the weekends…. and weekends are also used for meeting friends, family and work.. honestly, i find it difficult to find a balance… and i feel upset with how my r/s with BH seems to be straying away…. the no. of friends i have or are keeping contact with cld be counted with my fingers too…

then i realised that i’m happy yet sad at the same time…

evrybody knows tt i’ve juz started and i’m not an experienced teacher… putting aside the time i spent teaching children… i think i taught at least 120 pupils so far! quite happy tt i played a part in 100+ pupils’ life! haha…. somehow after teaching so many children… i envisioned how my son or daughter wld be like in future.. some examples:

1) can spell properly and join spelling bee competition
2) expert in maths and join the maths olympiad
3) to be a team player
4) to show leadership in school
5) enthu in learning and have a curious mind

i thnk the list will go on…. and my sis thinks tt my children will be nerds… haha… well….. i even noe what primary school i’ll send him/her to can!! i thnk so far right…. but to add on… i even noe what wld be the 1st thing i’ll tell my baby… “i have waited many many many years for you!!!” :beam1

i’ll stop here ..will blog more next time..

current fave:

so glad it’s Friday again! have been telling myself to tahan till friday… coz i feel so tired…. teaching is physically exhausting! mentally too :psycho1 there is juz so much to do… for example, marking, scolding, remedial, CCA, lesson planning… the list juz goes on and on… if you thnk that teaching is juz English, Maths, Science.. you r wrong… there are other “extra” stuff that takes up curriculum time… like filing, Philisophy for Child (P4C) = talk-cock-must-conduct-cum-waste-time-lesson. on top of that, since my sch is very onz bt NE, we MUST allocate 1 period to play silly game.

well… i thnk by now… i am proud to say that i am super good at giving detailed and systematic instructions… haha… something complicated, such as the games instruction, i cld explain it only ONCE and they cld understand it ! :grin1 nah… my class isn’t a super smart class… in fact, they are very mixed ability… BUT i am glad to see the faster pp helping the slower pps… no discrimination at all…. i tell you… the feeling is good….some children in class are like mini teachers… they cld juz repeat the instructions for me. when i don’t feel like telling… for example “Miss Goh say hand in tml… don’t ask already” i take that as they are being attentive…

teaching also helps me to become optimistic…. though some children are really cannot make it… i still choose to believe that they are smart and juz need guidance… maybe tt’s y i am always so tired and bz…

the boys in my class can be quite naughty.. the type tt runs round the class.. come to the front and play with the visualiser… it gets on my nerves… but they are willing to listen…. i deliberately give them responsibilities… for instance, ” i give you an important job to count the worksheets… how can you disappoint me… i trusted you so much” i tell you… it works… :beam1 besides this, i also juz started on a “learning contract” with 2 boys who have never passed English since P1… after they signed the contract, there is an improvement in their behaviour in class :wink1 maybe their behaviour wont sustain for long but i can’t help it but to feel a little bit accomplished…hehe

last week, i had lesson obs by my P and VP. i told the class to change into their proper uniform during recess and line up 5mins before the bell rings… they did it! still nvm… as i went up to class for some last minute check, i saw the 3 naughtiest boys in class sweeping the floor for me! they even cleaned the tables for the P’s and VP’s use and helped to arrange the tables neatly… i was very touched… :smile1 though these children are not so smart and very playful, they are willing to learn and help…

as for now… i feel like i have planted 40 seeds and the seeds had yet to germinate… i need to give them more water, warmth and air..

last but not least… i came up with a quote… hope it makes sense “every minute is a challenge…but everyday is fulfilling…” to me, tt’s what teaching is all about! :beam1

My sister is coming back on this coming sunday!

havent blogged for a long while though i really want to… juz too tired and busy… don’t really like to use the computer too.. coz when i use the computer.. there is a big tendency for me to check emails.. and checking emails= work ? and the list goes on…

170707 marks an important day for BH and I finally made our flat booking after many failed attempts!!! :beam1 well… the flat will be ready in about 3-4yrs time.. and we are really looking forward to it… we also bought our first or rather second copy of Home & Deco mag alr!!! haha.. yes… buy to keep for future references…

i thnk everything in my life is more or less in place… it feels really good… like.. i know how life wld more or less be like in the near future… at least i know who i’ll be spending my life with… and where our future home wld be…

i also juz graduated… though i did not get honours ( the appeal failed) still i feel glad that i have completed my studies for now…. and i so wanna go study again and get honours the next time round!

special thanks to my wonderful family for being supportive all the time… especially my mum for making delicious food and nutritious soup for me… thanks to BH for tolerating my nonsense and loving me…

and BH and i also got ourselves a new digital cam… *finally* we thought long and hard… and got ourselves this:

will try to put up more pics like the past… :blush1

haha… Bh and i took our 1st studio photo together…

hope we dun look too comic… keke

juz wanna say.. good things come when u least expect it.. really… :beam1

now tt sch work is busy… i wake up everyday feeling tired.. but happy… why?

coz i’ve got a job.. a wonderful family… a loving boyfriend.. and we are gonna have our own home very soon!!! :blush1

what more can i ask for?

and i m gonna be larene’s bridesmaid on 070707.. so gonna be bz next week… :tongue1

hope to update soon… need to slp.. feeling super tired…

i miss my sister and hope she gets fired and come home asap!!! 🙁

watching tv is no fun without her… eating is boring without her .. everything is juz bad…

:pout1

on the 7 June – 13June, my mum and i went to Malaysia, Ipoh… well… BH wanted to come with us but he cant get away due to work… anyway, i juz needed a getaway and my mum suggested going there coz we havent gine there for a super long time and coach tix are ez to get at the last minute… so we packed our bags and went on the trip… Ipoh bought back lots of good memories… coz i havent been there for abt 15yrs!!! there’s lots of changes.. BUT the food still taste really good… had a great time eating BUT i gained weight.. haiz… i thought abt the last time i went to Ipoh.. it was with my grandma… a sudden saddness came over me…

my relatives were extremely nice and warm-hearted… they treated us for ALL the meals.. and we stayed at their place.. so the whole trip is like super cheap!!! did shopping there and bought 2 dresses and some tops for school wear! cheap and nice and decent… :thumbup: but thnking of the weight i had gained… i will think twice b4 going… hehe…. i think BH haf to go there… then he will return fat… hehehe… and my relative have this super cute golden retriever!!! told my sis abt it and she was like looking forward to go! haha..

so that was my short holiday :beam1

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my results are out… i am terribly disapted with the award given… i worked hard… the grades showed my effort BUT the final award didn’t….after much thought and support from Fel and BH and my mum, i went down to NIE today and submitted my appeal form. the clerk told me that though i had an average of B and i was not good enuff for honours…. i was miserable…. really…. i did my best… she also told me that i m not a borderline case… u cld imagine my disaptment… she made me feel worst when she told me that the chance of an appeal getting through is very silm… but i decided to try…. a miracle may happen… and i don’t want to live my life with a BIG regret – not fighting for my rightful away…

i felt tt i was in a drama show… it was raining heavily when i submitted the appeal… juz like how my heart was crying…

i was glad tt BH took 1/2 day today…. we had lunch then drank coffee at coudory & finch… it’s a nice place… and i love the feeling of juz drinking and talking as we read magazines together.. i hope we wld still be like this after many yrs…

yes…i haf to admit tt i was quite upset… BUT as we were at the cafe… i looked up and i saw a beautiful rainbow…. i think it was God’s way of telling me tt everything would be fine… and even if the appeal is unsucessful… at least i tried…

to end the beautiful day, i gave BH a watch which i bought at bugis street ysterday for only $5!!! it’s a cool watch!! bought 1 for myself too… and this marks our first couple watch! ah… it’s amazing that something cheap could brighten up someone’s day.

when you mk someone happy, you r happy too :heart1

BH’s watch have the words ” I am not a beaver. I am an otter.” … have u seen the clip on the otters holding hands? i thought it’s super sweet.. so i deliberately bought this watch for BH to remind him to be an otter :blush1 to continue to hold hands with me… awwww… aren’t i sweet? keke

alrighty… good day everyone…. and be happy!!

well.. BH and I had a great weekend… we went shopping on sat. and tt includes midnight shopping at Suntec… well.. i bought clothes and bag.. hehe… seems to be spending more now … but on the other hand, we also try to save more…. just to sidetrack a little… u guys may want to consider HSBC Multi Currency Saving Account… coz the interest rate is 2% :grin1 VERY HIGH!

sunday was attending wedding dinner at M Hotel… it’s our YEP’s leader wedding… really nice to see all our grpmates again!!! and some couples who juz gt married last yr were pregnant!!! wah!!! so fast right!!!! my friend, Lena is pregnant with a boy and she still looks so good!! complexion still so nice!! i wondered if i’ll be like her!

yes.. so the usual qn at the dinner wld be “when is your turn?” haha… looking at weddings and all.. juz made me realised tt i’m quite old!!! imagine.. the next gathering we may have lots of babies joining us!

Bh and i were debating if it’s better to owe a CAR or get a CARtier.. hee.. afterall, the diff. is juz ‘tier’… hehe…then when we attend weddings… we are justified that the sacrifices that we make now is worthwhile…. and we know what we are saving for…. :beam1