Secret

i’m so in love iwth this song after SYLVESTER of Singapore Idol sang it… heeez.. think i start to like him coz of this song…. right.. wait till BH repair the FTP thingy on my comp… i’ll put this song up! :beam1

Some day, when I’m awfully low,
When the world is cold,
I will feel a glow just thinking of you
And the way you look tonight
Yes you’re lovely,
With your smile so warm and your cheeks so soft,
There is nothing for me but to love you
And the way you look tonight

With each word your tenderness grows, tearing my fear apart
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,
It touches my foolish heart.

Lovely – never, ever change
Keep that breathless charm,
Won’t you please arrange it?
‘Cause I love you just the way you look tonight

And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,
It touches my foolish heart.
Lovely – don’t you ever change
Keep that breathless charm
Won’t you please arrange it?
‘Cause I love you just the way you look tonight
Mm-mm, mm-mm,
Just the way you look tonight

hahaha.. my mp3 player!!! it was raining really heavily… BUT i still went to get my mp3 player from specialist centre!!! heeez… it’s like so nice can.. i was playing with it for the whole time juz now.. haha…. luckily i didnt spent $200 to get it during the creative sale.. :beam1 okok.. u want pic?? i’ll take a pic of it tml?? hahaha… depends on my mood lar…

usually, i’ll meet my fave shannon on the train every friday… coz i’m late… i didn’t meet her… BUT instaed…..met KAIYI, my JC classmate!! i’m so thrilled to meet her… haha… afterall, we studied econs together ard this time during our JC days… hahaha…and we both got a BIG fat D… thanks to jeeva.. hahaha… the diff between her and me is… she’s in NUS…

anyway…we were like talking… hahaha.. or am i the one who does most of the talking? heeez.. paiseh lar.. if i meet u all on the train.. then i talk so much… coz i really v excited to see my frens…. it’s not everyday tt i say u all mah.. somemore.. when i go sch.. pple all diff. frequency from me… hahaha..

oh yar.. Zhihui! Kaiyi say she don’t see much of u in school… haha… and u all noe what she’s taking?? she’s taking THEATRE STUDIES! heez.. so my 1st response was like ” u act as what? rich man’s mistress ah!” hahaha… so bad right??? the pt is…she wanted to drop at harbourfront BUT she travelled till clementi… heeez.. i’m so glad to see her! hahaha…not a lonely trip to sch…

btw… Kaiyi say tt after exams she might organise a class gathering at her place… to compensate the bbq she didn’t go that time!!! hahaha… and i gladly suggest that we shld order 10boxes of pizza!! rather than BBQ.. hahaha… anyone second this???? :wink1

so we were talking abt cute guys… wahahahaha… amanda’s fave topic… hahaha… or rather.. i was talking abt *that* cute guy… .suddenly, i wish to be single…. :zip1

in future, i hope that there’s this invention that on wld enable one to see another’s thoughts.. like… for example, when i’m talking abt a cute guy to my fren.. my fren cld see him… hahaha… of corrs… there’s a on/off button… so u can choose to show or not… hahaha… am i creative?? besides this, u can also choose to “on” ur thought bubble when u are gonna alight from a crowded bus… so those ‘kan chong’ uncle and aunties wont keep squeezing u out… argh!

think BH is still in sch.. haha… he muz be looking disgusting coz he havent had proper rest this few days… i hope he wont be so ugly tt i dun recognise him.. juz kidding lar…. BH jia you!!! and sleep well.. else don’t come and meet me.. haha….

so today is a nice nice day… heeez

adeline was thinking abt the times we spent during our myanmar trip.. she sent me some pictures taken using her camera… haha… i was thinking if i shld put it up.. coz i look so UGLY!!! hahaha.. nvm… it was good memories.. heeez.. here are the pics…

the weather was super HOT.. and we still went to the HOT SPRING in Inle… this is how the HOT SPRING looks like… haha… yeah.. we are not in the pic.. coz we didn’t buy swimming costume and was indecently attired.. haha :blush1

this is taken on our trek in Kalaw…

from left: Adeline, Ben, ME and BH with his illegitimate son!

that’s our cannot mk it look after the trek… hahaha…

this must be the 1st time BH is seeing how ‘lang bei’ i am… heez

a review of our fave past time in Myanmar – Dai Dee!!

tt’s when adeline will keep saying “lucky cards”.. haha… sometimes when we felt richer, we’ll buy mineral water.. so tt the loser will drink the water… heez

yeah… to show tt we don’t look so horrble now…

this is adeline and me taken during ASP :wink1

haha… actually adeline sent me a very interesting videoclip she took of me… heeez…. coz i was really afraid to cross the bridge with like this dirty river below… so she took me struggling to get over the other side… hahaha… so funny!!!

tt’s memories man….. heeez.. so paiseh to think abt it now….

tt’s all… tml got lesson.. and i’m lazy to do my work… argh!!!

hiyee everyone… think i’m gonna be FREE for these few days b4 i start studying for my exams… which is like 2 papers… and it’s Maths… hahaha… are u envious?? :beam1 heeez..

anyway…let me tell u more abt my portfolio.. my fren called me last night.. she’s quite a good friend… but of corrs… not on personal level… juz good work friends.. i was really done with my reflections and she told me that i have to put some other newspaper cuttings in. i was abit pissed… coz i dunno why pple wanna spoil market… argh… nvm.. i joined in the ‘spoil market’ gang and i did some last minute work… geeez… i hope that my portfolio is in a decent shape…. i mean… i juz wanna PASS.. i detest this module… there’s far too much work to do!!! and i’m glad it’s over…

yupz.. so reflecting on the assignments tt i’ve done.. i got really paronoid… dunno if i’ll Pass not… don’t talk about doing well… coz everyone in DipEd is trying to crossover to the degree program… right… so at the rate i’m doing my work… i dun think i’m up to it.. looks like i’ve to say GOODBYE to my 2nd chance of getting degree once again…

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so Bh is really bz with his project.. i managed to meet him at Outram mrt after school today.. i was really glad to see him.. and of corrs.. he looked so tired… haha… the weird thing is… i miss talking to him can… hahaha.. and i haven’t felt this way for a long time… so i accompanied him to HabourFront MRT… we alighted and sat at the benches at the platform and we just talked… we were like TALKING only lor.. but tt bloody mrt person told us not to stay there too long… so reluctantly.. i board the train.. and BH went to school…. :pout1 it was a well-spent 20minutes…

till saturday then we’ll meet again… and i got my letter from Singnet!! i’m gonna collect my Mp3 player soon!!! :wink1
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my fren came to me today… sounding really excited…

ZL: Amnada.. ur bf very sweet leh
me: huh? y leh? *inner voice: he haven’t been sweet for so long..*
ZL: you mean u didn’t hear?
me: hear what??
ZL: on tuesday this guy dedicated a song for you on 93.3
me: haha.. really?
ZL: yar… he says ” XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX” (my full name)
me: haha… surely is other pple lar.. not me..
ZL: very hard to say… got pple jio you not…
me: no leh… *hahaha.. dun tell me it’s………….* you wishful thinking

hahaha.. interesting right??? so… anyone else heard this dedication on tuesday afternoon?? update me man! heeez.. but most prob is some other pple lar.. not me… coz BH also dun listen to 93.3 mah…

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k lar.. i’ll stop here…v hungry.. gonna eat… and there’s SINGAPORE IDOL later!!! :grin1 i can watch in peace today…

take care pple… and BH.. jia you!!! :heart1

yes.. my portfolio is not done yet… i wrote my reflections out on paper… and i’m so lazy to type it in the computer…. argh.. my typing speed is like so slow can… how i wish BH can type for me lor… hahaha… i think.. even if i talk to him or disturb him when he’s typing ..also faster than i type by myself can… hahaha… so.. BH is damn lucky… coz he’s pia-ing his project… so i give him discount lar…. i’ll be super nice to him… haha… aren’t i nice… i mean… i am always nice to him… but this week… or rather next week also.. i’ll be SUPER nice to him… :beam1

anyway… i didn’t go for maths class today… coz my frens postponed the extra lesson to dunno when *YES!!! Remember to ask your fren!!!*.. yar.. coz we all doing portfolio… argh… it’s so disgusting…

amanda.. pls go do ur work… like NOW!!! pls d/c so u won’t log online… :psycho1

came across this thread on flowerpod… haha… disgusting memories came into my head… hey.. u mean i didn’t blog it down?? hahaha… think if i do.. BH can’t lift his head up and walk liaoz… :zip1

anyway… travelling together isn’t always sweet and lovey-dovey.. you’ll discover more abt him and he’ll dscover more abt you–> character wise lar! *what you thinking!!*

something brief abt the best and worst things of travelling together…

the best thing: get to spend like the whole day together….it’s like… wanna watch movie then go watch.. wanna buy things then go buy.. wanna eat then go eat… hahaha… no need to like “what time shall we meet? at where?”

the bestest part: “my things very heavy..i cannot walk liaoz…” then he’ll tk for me…
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the worst part: *someone* gets sick… and i’ll be like “WHAT!!!! COME UNTIL HERE…CANNOT GO OUT!!”

the worstest part: huh?? where’s ur money??? in the cargo????

the worst of the worst: *someone* getting hungry easily…and i’m not hungry at all…

hahaha… hope BH won’t kill me when he reads this… heez.. think he’ll be too bz with his work to kill me… so after *that* trip.. i told myself that i will NEVER travel with him again… coz he’s such a chore… hmm.. but to think of it… think i’m a v egoistic gal… I WANT THINGS MY WAY… and I HATE TO BE CORRECTED.. haha.. maybe tt’s y lar… BH always let me have my way… :wink1

so i learn from mistakes and indeed.. we got to noe each other better…

in this coming overseas trip together.. if we are still going… coz of the earthquake.. hope the earthquake won’t ruin our plans…
i will..
1) keep all impt documents = passport and money
2) bring lots of food –> wont get hungry unnessarily

we will…
1) think b4 raising voice *especially when both are in bad mood*
2) Prepare medication = take care of each other if any falls ill..

hahaha… tt’s all..my thoughts before sleeping.. heeez…

goodnight everyone! :beam1

rem.. i told u abt tt bloody portfolio i have to do… well… let me tell u more…

i don’t feel like doing….

i don’t feel like doing….

i don’t feel like doing….

i don’t feel like doing….

i don’t feel like doing….

i don’t feel like doing….

i don’t feel like doing….

got it???

argh….

what i must FORCE myself to do:
1) Reaction to Bilingual Policy
2) Reflection of module on the whole (i HATE it!)
3) Reflection on Straits Time Journalist talk
4) Analysis of ‘Dating’ worksheet

haha.. looks like Bh heard my cries.. he just called me can!! i was like so shocked… on his handphone somemore lor!! he don’t usually do that can… heeez… i mean….like calling me for no impt reason… hahaha

anyway i’m so bored of the songs on the site.. i really wanna change the songs by MYSELF… tt stupid FTP site say i got no PERMISSION to change it!!! argh…. must be BH…..scared i more ‘li hai’ than him…so don’t give me permission… hahaha… but i am what… *shows sharp teeth*

heeez… something funny to share with u all…..BH said that i look like this smiley –> :mad1 … on the pic of me holding onto the ‘bu shuang’ drink… hahaha…. true???

have a good day….

BUT i still dun wana do work… :err1

the most hectic week of my semester is OVER.. now i’m left with that sucky portfolio… which i still have afew more refelctions to write… so sianz man… I HATE REFLECTIONS.. in future.. i’ll TRY not to give pupils reflection task.. coz they will end up writing what the teachers wld like to read.. rather than their own thoughts… yeah man.. tt’s what i’m doing now…

well…though i was bz last week….i still managed to watch GARFIELD! *in guilt* borrowed the dvd from larene.. and i so enjoy watching the show can! haha… i feel like i am like garfield coz whatever i say now and what my inner voice tells me.. is so different… hahaha… maybe tt’s y i can express myself better through blogging.. i mean… even BH is learning more abt me from my blog… wat i mean is… i can blog more than what i tell him… :blank1 the pt is GARFIELD is so cute.. i’m gonna watch it another time b4 returning her… haha..

i’m really glad that the ASEAN STORIES PROJECT (ASP) has came to an end…coz BH have been really bz with the site… staying up late and all… luckily it has ended as for now… it’s time for him to concentrate on his schoolwork!

though BH is bz.. he still helped me with my schwork… a website.. u can tk a look here… not all cld see the animation (scene1 and scene2).. u may haf to d/l a plugin… bvut juz try.. heeez.. hard work ah! Thanks BH! *hugz*

yupz… went shopping yesterday and today… spent abt $120+.. hahaha… after so long leh… retail therapy works lar…so what i bought…
1) Teva sandals ( 50% discount!!!) –> $36
2) Exodus flip-flop ( 2 pairs for $30)
3) Fox top –> $10
4) Gio irresistable REd colour paddington bear looking trenchcoat –> $68

geeez… tt’s v little liaoz okie… and i’m not gonna spend liaoz… really…hahaha :grin1

u noe.. going shopping with BH.. i’ll not get anything…. go shoping with mum or frens.. i’ll buy like siaoz.. wanna noe why?? coz ah…. BH will ask stupid qns like ‘u really like it?’ which really mks me think again… and by the time i regret and want it.. it’s GONE!!!! conclusion: DOn’T GO SHOPPING WITH BH

so i recontract my singnet braodband.. and i’ll be getting my Creative 256MB MP3 soon.. i can’t wait!! hahaha…

and i feel so old suddenly… i received not 1 BUT 2 wedding invitations from my NIE frens!!!! geez… it’s the first time in my life man… and it’ll also be the 1st time i’m gonna give anybaos… :blush1

so.. some interesting pics to spice up ur life…. hahaha… taken on the ASP opening day… haha… i met meiyan while walking to the ASIAN Civilation Musem.. hope she didn’t see me tking such boliao pics.. hahaha…

Pics are self-explanatory.. right.. haha

“look at those cats!!”

hahaha.. so act cute!

look like him?? :wink1

My new toy!!!!

if only it is… haha… it’s my fren’s..

after dinner………….

heeez… “ni you bu man.. wo you bu shuang” the drink is nice.. v gasy though…

finally… a pic of us.. :smile1

take care pple!!! and for those rushing assignments…. hang on there!! jia you!! 🙂

argh…. i’ve met so many pple who say these words to me.. ‘amanda, u look sooo tired…’ :blank1 yes.. maybe i’m tired… but i suspect it’s the specs tt mk me look tired? and it mks me look… yucks… drop dead disgusting… yes.. and even my tutor from the previous module… she saw me and she was like.. ‘are u ok? u look so tired…’ and like… this gal.. my course mate.. i dun really talk to her… she saw me tt day .. last friday.. i was in contacts… and she said… “u look so much better w/o specs…” amanda… tt’s it man…. u look like a piece of sh*t now… maybe last time also no better this time with lots of pimples…

and i juz dun get y do pple tk sooooooooooo long to finish an assignmnet… is there something wrong with me???? argh… as in pple really like didn’t slp till 6am type lor…. and i can’t do tt…. i mean… finish liaoz slp lar… y edit till so early in the morning.. torture urself…

so…… i’ve got this pair work due…on friday.. and i’ve barely started…. yes.. it’s like PAIR work… do this website…so u r thinking… “iyah.. website sure no prob.. coz BH can help…” BULLSHIT it’s not BH… it’s juz us!! we can’t settle the content of the project.. how’s the site gonna be up… tell me!!!
and tml i’ve got another GROUP presentation… come on lor… the 2 page write-up is like cannot mk it can…. and my GROUPmates dun think so lor… so what? am i being a prefectionist or what… i’m NOT!!!

yes..above all…. i really admire those pple…. who are like…. not bz wif assignments BUT bz.. preparing for wedding!!!! and i’m like… WHAT!!! you nothing better to do is it???? geeez… i didnt say tt lar… juz silently thot in my heart… and pray hard tt i wont be invited to any…. dun wanna waste my $$ on angbao for them….geeez…

i thot i cld die b4 this day ends… BUT i met karen in the canteen today… with her nan ren! haha… hey karen.. miss me so much till come NIE ah… hahahaha…

let’s talk abt something more exciting!!!!

hahahaha… let me tell u this ‘show’ i watched on the mrt when i’m on my way home juz now… this couple board at dover mrt.. SP students i supposed.. the gal look so sad *holding onto a piece of tissue*… and tt bloody guy.. is like so horny… he was like groping her breast .. right… maybe i was exaggerating BUT… he was like putting his hand behind her back… *they were sitting btw..* and his hand landed at the side of her breast.. and he was machiam playing wif her breast.. hahaha… the funny thing is… the gal seemed to cheer up abit… hahaha… it’s a disturbing sight… BUT nice entertainment… and her breast certainly look grab-able…. hahaha… oh what did i juz say??? amanda you are SIcK!!! *grinz* if BH dares to do this…. he’ll need to say BYE to his hand…hahaha… but to think of it.. BH is well-trained… good doggy! oppz.. tt’s not what i meant… hahaha.. joking lar…

anway, talking abt BH.. i really wanna surprise him by buying this nike t-shirt for him… haha.. at my sch bazaar of course…where got time to go shopping.. this nike shirt haf this doggy print on it… and the dog has a leash! haha… i dunno if it’s new design or what.. but i thot of him immediately… i even bought $$$ but i was too bz to go get it today… paiseh man…haha… and since i’m blogging here… means…. i’m not getting for u lar… i mean…. it’s the thought tt counts right…. :wink1

i’m like still coughing…………………… pimples go away…. amanda cough no more….projects…quickly finish………….

there is no nj that visited my blog… :blank1 BH played a prank on me.. and i knew it instantly.. but still he choose to lie until the final straw.. he gave up… i feel so dispated with him… btw who’s nj? he’s this very cute NTU guy whom i happen to know and he’s like a hunk in my eyes… and probably like a prince on white horse.. only tt he drives a white car.. he’s like SINGLE… and yeah… amanda is interested…. BUT…… how can she leave BH alone… haha… he wld need to join SDU if i leave him… hahahaha…

anyway… i read ZH’s blog.. and i cld sympathise with her….u noe… when i read her entries… i so wanna cry…… and suddenly i thot of afew yrs back when BH went to Taiwan… hahaha.. maybe it’s juz the starting of a r/s..i dun really feel that attached to him… i’m sad tt he’ll be away… BUT the funny thing is…. i wasn’t like aniticipating for his phone calls.. hahaha… maybe i did… but i rem having missed calls from him and what i cld hear were the voice msg he left for me…

thinking back… these memories mks me feel so bitter sweet… and even though it may seem like 2-3wks only … it is not ONLY … some pple say ‘he very fast will come back..’ BUT it’s all BULLSHIT.. nvtheless… one need to treasure the times when u r apart from each other, in order to value how much you need each other… maybe tt’s why pple say
“absence mks the heart grows fonder..”

how true….