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well.. it was a tiring and bz day…lets’ see…

1. had to raech school at 8.30 for a test… i was late… which is bad… coz the test is only for 1hr.. and i was late for 10mins… luckily i wasn’t alone… was stranded with 3 more gals at the interchange… and wanna now what i raelised? heeez.. if i were to meet them at Boon lay interchange.. means i’m late… hahaha… so tt bloody 179 had to stop at every single stop… and i raelly wonder if tt bus-driver or the whole world is mking fun of me… coz i’m late… haha…. so i finally raeched sch… and God answered my prayers… the test was prolonged… geez… coz it’ a test whereby 1/2 of it is done on Ms Excel.. and it’s like 6qns!!!! i didn’t noe tt there’s 6 qns… coz i only saw Qn5 and 6… and by the time i knew tt i had to scroll to the front.. it was 9.30 alraedy!!! argh.. i was panic-stricken! so impossible to finish on time.. in the end.. the teacher said tt there’s no time limit for the test.. as long as you finished.. you can go… hahaha.. so we are able to refer to our excel guide in the test… so i was like checking my ans.. and thinking… HOW DO I DRAW A SCATTER PLOT?? i drew mine using the chart wizard but it looks weird… hmmm… nvm…the test was supposed to end at 9.30 BUT i left at 10.45.. hahaha.. tt’s how late man… :beam1

btw….i was greeted by a grp of beggers at boon lay interchange– students doing flag day! they are like those kids i saw in myanamar… blocking the bus door once it opens… and they didn’t even open they mouth to ask for donations! yucks!!! a disgusting sight! so u call this community service???

2. met BH at suntec… went to eat lunch.. then walked ard… i really wanna get my shoes/sandals/slippers… BUT i juz can’t find one tt i raellyX2 like… actually i did lar… BUT it was like too ex…though i feel like spending $$.. i didn’t get to.. argh… next.. went to COMEX.. it’s so CROWDED! cannot mk it man… alot of mp3 players ard.. i feel tt it’s like Sim LIm at suntec… i really wanna get a mp3 player… BUT after giving much thought.. i feel tt i shld save up… after japan trip got excess $$ then buy.. afterall.. it is a WANt and not a need… hahaha.. so i went home…with lots of flyers tt they gave… so tt i cld print my lect notes with them… hahaha… gd paper leh.. dun waste mah… SAVE the ENVIRONMENT! so i saw those supposed to be chio gals…. haha… come on lor…. where got chio!!! think those pple didn’t see me b4! hahaha…. :blush1

3. next, we decide to go to orchard… coz i raelly wanna buy things.. heeez… so we went to taka for a second round of food… then BH met his fren… let me tell u.. his fren is like so HANDSOME!!!!! and i was like… ‘what! he’s ur fren??’ hahaha… then i realised tt he’s from NTU one lor…. hahahahaha… too bad.. he’s attached… :pout1 heeez.. so were walking ard…. and this samsung guy stopped us.. ask us to fill in this postcard for encouraging our Singapore Olympics team.. haha.. so i was like…

me: what we’ll win?
guy: phone.. *points to the new phone.. dunno what model.. but it is the sliding one*
me: okie… so what shld i write…
guy: you can write ‘well done!’ or what lor!
me: *starts to fill in….*
BH: what other things can we write?
me: *very corny* you can write ‘i like it medium done’ or maybe ‘i love your steak.. hahaha
guy: *ask BH* your gf ah…
BH: *gives a shy and paiseh reply* yeah…
guy: she’s very funny lor!

hahaha… sh*t lar… for a moment… i forgot tt i was with some strangers… heeez… BH muz be so embarassed.. sorry man!

still nvm… haha… think i’m like so vain lor… noe what was i doing??? i was like looking at myself at the mirror of the elevator! hahaha… and it suddenly opened lor!! and so many pple were staring at me… hahahahaha.. so paiseh man! :blush1

4. went to west coast park to attend my NIE classmate 21st bday! i shouldn’t have went.. coz it’s really far aND i’m not close to her!!! and so many pple… who wanted to turn up.. back out in the last minute! geeez… so we took a long time to reach… walk till my legs ached like siaoz… hahaha… thnk BH was in a worst state than me… coz i helped my mum to buy some barang.. and put it in his bag.. so it was really heavy… sorry BH! anyway.. thank GOd tt BH accompanied me there… coz i was lost! and my fren’s instructions aren’t clear… by the time i reached.. it was 8.15pm! so late!!!

it was my 1st time at west coast park! it’s a nice place… beautiful night scene! 🙂 haha… good place for dating ah… haha… but i think BH and i were too tired to care abt the cooling and nice and maybe romantic atmosphere… haha… the mac there is really HUGE! think it’s like another EAST COAST PARK!

haha.. so the bday gal said i looked pretty! hahaha… how can…. she shld be the prettiest tt night mah! hahaha… anyway… i think her bf quite kelian… he was like bbqing for the whole time lor… haha… he muz be so smelly! hahaha.. so i asked BH… if next time i got party… i ask u go BBQ… how? and you noe what he said?? “i’ll get YX to bbq.. and pay him $5 per hr” heeez… YX… if you r raeding this…. this is how ur gd fren treats u! :wink1

sorry BH… coz i was talking to my frens and i forgot him entirely! hmmm… so sorry…. it’s not intentional… he was feeling left out.. and unhappy… sorry!!! i promise this won’t happen again! else…. u can do the same thing to me…. *looks at Bh with innocent eyes* thanks so much for accompanying me there and wait for the bday song to be sang… and going home together… i appreciate it… :smile1

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so tt’s my saturday… not tt i’m so free to spend the whole day out BUT i try to finish my work during the weekdays.. and mk sure i enjoy 1 day of my weekends… :tongue1 yes… of corrs… i still have work to do… there’s 1 deadline next wed.. and my partner is …. dunno how o say…. coz we dunno how to get started… i suspect i’ll have to stay up on tues night… :mad1

guess… i shld stop now…my entry is so super long today… haha… take care pple!

try this man….. i’m a red panther… http://noracom.net/eng/fortune/fortune.php haha… y not a pink one??? hahaha… u noe why?? coz i’m not pinkie! :tongue1

this is what it says abt me…

You are Red Panther, who has pure and gentle atmosphere.
You tend to give a vulnerable impression, and have a fairy like mischievousness.
You can be temperamental and little bit selfish.
You may be unable to find the objective of your life, and may take a long way round in finding it.
Your attraction is the way in which you do not deceive your heart, and act accordingly to your feeling.
If you try to handle many things at once, you will break up that energy, and therefore, you should stick to doing one thing at a time.
If you can control yourself, then doing something adventurous is not a problem.
You are passionate person.
You have very high ideals, and this make you not see the reality.
You tend to become a dreamy sort of person.
You dislike being restricted, and try to carry out your life with natural sense of your own instinct, that including your likes and dislikes.
You possess strong beliefs, and are very intelligent and hard working person.
But when you lose interest, everything stops half way through, and nothing is accomplished.
You should make yourself clear between ideals and reality.
You are too smart enough to be satisfied with ordinary housework.
You prefer to lead life free of responsibility.
Nevertheless you will be obsessed with your children’s education

hmm.. true to a certain extend? try it!

wanna noe what BH is?? he’s a GOLD elephant!! hahahahaha… raed the first line and u noe it’s not accurate!

You are Gold Elephant, who has an extremely manly looks.
Your character tends to be precise, and you hate conflicts and arguments.
You also have emotional strength and open heart, and will not be shocked easily.
Unlike your looks, you have a delicate personality.
When this side of your personality comes out, you turn into a person who is very considerate, taking care of everybody else.
You are educated man and have a straight forward, honest personality.
You never break promises.
Nevertheless, straight forwardness means you lack persistence and perseverance.
You don’t show other people your indulgence.
Nevertheless, you family know your personality, and therefore, your relationship with your brothers and sisters may be bad.
You have a sharp sense to catch the stream of the times.
You tend to act before you think to gain confidence.
Once you set an objective, you will try to achieve it no matter what.
Because you are a good man, your influence at work and at home is weak.
But you will not give in to authority.
You like to act on your own.

as usual… taken from FLOWERPOD forum!

today marks the earliest day i’ve got home! wow… thanks to my friend… a gf.. sadly..if it’s a guy.. i’ll throw myself to him liaoz!!! haha… not even close to her and she drove me home!! hmm.. maybe not exactly home.. BUT to Potong Pasir mrt… geeez.. it took about 30mins only!!! it’s like almost 2X faster!!! :beam1 thanks kavita.. haha.. though i noe she’ll nv see this blog! heeez… juz for in case she feels so bored.. and search for her name on google and sees my site mah… hahaha….

anyway.. yesterday… was the FIRST TIME i held a real Tag Heuer watch in my hands!!! wowowow… it’s so nice!!! so nice lor!!! too bad i can’t wear it.. it’s a male Tag Heuer watch… and it belongs to my project mate.. hahahaha.. he’s so rich…

while i was typing this.. Fifi juz called me!!! so nice to hear from her after so long!!!! :beam1 and i’m glad she’s doing well..and going taiwan soon!! Wish her all the best!! and may you be a BIG BIG director!!! :wink1 dun forget me then ah!!

on tues.. i met Boucy on my way home!!! u noe who’s boucy is right?? hahaha… so glad to meet her and.. she’s still as bouncy as ever.. hahahaha… YOU should try her!!! ;p

Larene juz lend me her SEX and THE CITY novel!!! and i can’t wait to read it!! haha… currently i’m reading Mary Reilly by Valerie Martin.. nope.. it’s not a biography… BUT it’s like a sequel? or maybe a third person perspective of Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde! a very nice book!!! i heard tt there’s a movie on this book…. is it the video that Ms Rehana showed us during lit class??? hmmm…. i can vaguely remember watching it..

and HOT news… i got this fren…. who’s like dating this guy for a very short time… and she’s getting ROM this yr!!! and she’s like 1 yr older than me and from what i noe… she has problems with the bf and they are still getting engaged! i was like WHAT!!! hahaha… still nvm… the ROM date is 17 NOV!!! so the pt is…….i won’t be in s’pore!!! sh*t!!! i’m gonna miss a good show!!!! :pout1 hahaha.. haf to count on Larene to film down the whole ‘MOVIE’ for me… heeez… i’m so mean!

k lar.. i shan’t waste time..got to do my work… tk care pple!

Ym’s expression when she saw the present!

the present!

Ym and her present!

the 3 of us! ;p

last but not least.. my very belated bday gift…My Paul frank undies!

Translation: jakinni – www.jay-chou.net

翻著我們的照片 想念若隱若現
fan zhe wo men de zhao pian / xiang nian ruo yin ruo xian
Flipping through our photographs, thoughts of [you] are visible yet invisible

去年的冬天 我們笑得很甜
qu nian de dong tian / wo men xiao de hen tian
Last year’s winter, we laughed very sweetly

看著妳哭泣的臉, 對著我說再見
kan zhe ni ku qi de lian / dui zhe wo shuo zai jian
Watching your tearstained face, telling me goodbye

來不及聽見　妳已走得很遠
lai bu ji ting jian / ni yi zou de hen yuan
[I] have yet to hear it when you’ve already walked so far

也許妳已經放棄我　也許已經很難回頭
ye xu ni yi jing fang qi wo / ye su yi jing hen nan hui tou
Perhaps you have already given up on me, perhaps it is already very difficult to turn back

我知道是自己錯過　請再給我一個理由說妳不愛我
wo zhi dao shi zi ji cuo guo / qing zai gei wo yi ge li you shuo ni bu ai wo
I know it’s all my fault, please give me another reason, say you don’t love me

就算是我不懂　能不能原諒我
jiu suan shi wo bu dong / neng bu neng yuan liang wo
Even if I don’t understand, can [you] forgive me?

請不要把分手當作妳的請求
qing bu yao ba fen shou dang zuo ni de qing qiu
Please don’t use parting (breakup) as your request

我知道堅持要走 是妳受傷的藉口
wo zhi dao jian chi yao zou / shi ni shou shang de jie kou
I know wanting to go is your wound’s excuse

請妳回頭　我會陪妳一直走到最後
qing ni hui tou / wo hui pei ni yi zhi zou dao zui hou
[Can] you please turn back, I will accompany you until the very end

就算沒有結果　我也能夠承受
jiu suan mei you jie guo / wo ye neng go cheng shou
Even if there is no conclusion, I can still endure

我知道妳的痛　是我給的承諾
wo zhi dao ni de tong / shi wo gei de cheng nuo
I know your pain is the promise I gave

妳說給過我縱容　沉默是因為包容
ni shuo gei guo wo zong rong / chen mo shi yin wei bao rong
You said [you] gave me tolerance, and silence was because of acceptance

如果要走　請妳記得我　如果難過　請妳忘了我
ru guo yao zou / qing ni ji de wo / ru guo nan guo / qing ni wang le wo
If [you] want to go, please remember me, if [you] feel sad, please forget me

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good site right?? got transaltion leh! anyway.. this is my new fave song!!! 🙂 was telling BH that if something happens b/t us… this wld be his song… haha… but… the lyrics sounds more like if he leaves me.. this will be my song… haha…

haf to do my work liaoz… :sad1

*BH say he’ll put this song up!*

i regreted going to tt bloody library after class today… not only did i not find tt stupid book… BUT i made myself feel more stressed.. as i see my fellow modules mates doing their assignments.. and some even finished! i was like ‘what!!!’ and being so egoistic… i was like.. “yar.. i finishing mine too..” argh!!!! i mean.. i haven’t even started!!!!!! shit lar… actually, i’m juz giving them a headstart.. hey… last to start doesn’t mean i’ll give the sloppiest work!

heeez.. it is so rewarding to dress up to school… i wore this purple top with jeans today… and a number of my frens were like “hey! i like your top!” hahaha… yesterday was “i like your earrings! so unique!” come on.. you are talking abt ME lor… which part of me not chio?? yar.. except for my frindge which is a disaster…. hey come on….my ego was deflated at the library! i must INFLATE it back now… hahaha….

so… larene got me my hp covers.. which was ok looking… though lianish… hahaha.. but it’s FREE! what u expect man!

and i didn’t get to eat at IKEA today… it’s so crowded!! when m i going back again!!! 🙁 i want meatballs! i want meatballs! i want meatballs! went to town and ate yoshi *got NKF voucher* luckily.. it’s cheap… haf to save up for tokyo trip!

right.. feeling raelly tired now… special thanks to BH for helping me with that stupid non-fiction text for my assignment… and for tolerating my nonsense… which is VERY bad mood… being VERY unreasonable…. i thank God that BH is always so patient… :smile1 probably the most patient guy amg all i noe?

as for now… i wanna sleep!

it’s a great day today… started my day with BH… met him at mrt and took train together.. 🙂 met shannon on the way… spent a whole lot of time.. joking and talking…treating the whole MRT as though we owe it… daring each other to go out of the train and touch the pillar then come back in.. hahaha… so childish! but fun… BH muz be so embarassed man… haha …oh well…. meeting 2 of my fave pple in the mroning.. juz mks my morning better… *i hope BH will get MRT stamp next month too.. so we’ll go to sch together.. heez*

after lesson… met up with 3 of my fave pple again… met up with BH, Feli and YM! 🙂 i’m so gald to see YM coz i haven’t seen her for so long… she got so much prettier! it’s like… my bday is in March and i juz got my present today! hahaha… but the wait was worth it…. i got PAUL FRANK panties!!! heeez.. they are so cute!!! think i’ll look so sexy in it!! hahaha… it’s for my eyes only… heeez.. mk me drunk… maybe i’ll tk off my pants and show u my cute panty! hahaha :beam1 yeah man… i’m so happy tt YM likes her bday gift too 🙂 got her a personalised plate from mbossed .. it’s so nice!! ;p sorry man… have to go home early… was feeling really tired and i got make-up lesson in school at 9.30!!! hope to meet up soon k!

Thanks feli for the wonderful gift u got me from UK… i LOVE it so much!!!!!

and to top everything up…. larene… is gonna give me 2 new hp covers tt she got for me!!! ahhhhhhhhh…..

i’m so loved!!!!! :heart1

tml after my lesson, i’m gonna go to the library and borrow tt bloody TB… eat lunch at Ikea… go home and start doing my ECM assignment… some pple actually finished it already!!! amanda.. BUCK up!!! you can’t lose!!!

have to slp now…

*will put up pics soon!*

it’s my very early day today… and i hate wed, thur, and fri.. coz lesson ends relatively early and i’m home… so i feel really bad if i didn’t do any work.. and wed and fri are the worst… coz i got to reflect upon the lessons and i muz force myself to reflect on the day itself.. else i’ll forget how i’m feeling… :err1

i’m in such a sucky mood nowadays.. dunno y.. i feel so grumpy! yeah… i noe you all can read my mood from my blog… argh… to tell u the truth… i so wanna go out lor…. :pout1 but go out do what?? s’pore is so small… what else is there to do… so i think HOME is the best… dun need to spend $$.. can do anything i like..

watched Fahrenheit 9/11 juz now.. hmm… to tell u the truth.. i didn’t like this show… coz i think it’s so full of sarcasm… it’s a very anti-bush show… not tt i’m a fan of bush.. BUT i can’t stand shows tt are of this nature… so critical.. cynical…haha.. and i feel really confused when they talk abt political stuff.. i mean.. it’s too complicated… argh… and i was feeling so sleepy while watching it.. i mean.. if it’s not for tml’s lesson (the teacher told all of us to watch it b4 the next lesson) i wldn’t have watched it! special thanks to BH for explaining nearly every part to me… coz i’m like so lost… i juz dun get it…

yeah… at times like this… i thnk BH is great… like he’s a patient person… nice enuff to explain to me till i get it… hmm… maybe he finds it irritating but keeps quiet? i’m sure things wld be different afew yrs down the road.. if we are still together… haha.. maybe by then when i ask him something..he’ll be like “can you be quiet and juz watch the show!” or maybe “go away! let me concentrate on the show!”

Sometimes, i love to give BH a cold shoulder…like…giving him this really angry and black face… haha… though i’m not really angry… juz wanna act like tt to mk him feel bad…. and i enjoy the times when he’ll try to mk me happy… and i’m like so super hard to please…. haha.. the truth is i treasure the moment… coz i think he’ll probably ‘heck care’ me in future… juz pushing me away thinking in his heart tt.. “it’s PMS.. she’ll feel better afew days later” is it sad?

haiz… i hope nothing changes… but it’s so unlikely… nothing is forever… so know what? we have to cherish the good times we have….
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bought hp cover at NIE bazzaar… was hoping to replace the cracked one… BUT guess what? i put the hp in my bag and i dropped my bag.. and all my stuff were alright except my bloody hp cover which haf a crack at the screen again!!!! argh… so frustrating… looks like i’m not fated to get a new hp cover…

and i realised tt pple are so KS.. they started with their assignments alraedy… i got so worried… but still unmotivated to start! :psycho1

sianz.. tml got lesson at 9.30.. gonna slp liaoz…

we really went to queue for the tokyo tix.. after a long and tiring night stay… we GOT it! yeah man.. so we’ll (Feli+keni and Bh and me) be flying off on nov.. hope everything will go on smoothly till then…

hmmm… to tell u the truth.. i dun feel excited to go for the trip… *feli.. it’s not your fault* maybe it’s the BLOODY week tt’s y i’m feeling moody… hahaha..or maybe it’s like i finally got the tix and i’m too tired to feel excited… or… NOV is still so loNG! haiz….

going on Japan wld be the 2nd time BH and i wld be travelling abroad together…i didn’t expect to go on hol with him again…. on the 1st trip… i saw the good and bad sides of him alraedy… i really hope tt i won’t see tt much BAD and cannot-mk-it sides of him this time round… to put it bluntly.. i was disgusted the last time round.. juz hope tt this time it wld be better… and i won’t haf to look after him BUT he will look after me…

to think of it… i feel fortunate tt we are still at the dating stage…. can’t imagine us going further than that…

think i’m tired… if whatever i blog dun mk sense… so be it.!

nightz everyone!

*caryn.. i’m so glad u called me when u reached the airport yesterday… i feel so special! 🙂 thanks!*