Secret

was watching planet shakers on channel U juz now… they went to Bangkok… and…… went to some places that we visited….:beam1 fond memories came flowing in.. and i went to look at the pics we took …

the pt is…. wahahaha… i LOVE Adam Chen.. coz he’s got good body and built and he’s soooooooo handsome… and i love Belinda Lee too!!anyway.. ADAM CHEN is sooooooooo cute…

soooooooo i went to NUS yesterday.. with BH… it was really cool.. coz we ate at i forgot what the place is called..we ordered chichen bryani and nasi lemak and egg prata and teh tarik…. seems like alot? but i was still hungry aft the meal… think it’s PMS :pout1

During: BH was actually removing skin and bones from the chicken for me to eat… something tt he’ll do automatically.. which i absolutely love… well.. muz write this down.. else next time i forget how nice he is to me…:blush1

haha… my sis was telling me the amont of GHEE in the chicken bryani.. i went to check it out and u wanna noe what.. GHEE is 100% fat and there is 14g of fat in every spoonful of bryani…. :err1 i only took like 2 spoons of bryani.. but the prata.. egg one somemore….soooooo fattening… :blank1

went to the Arts library… and i met Liting, Shiuan, Diana and Kaiyi!! hey where did the rest go?? heeez.. so glad to meet them.. havent seen them for so long…haha.. pics are too ugly to show… tt’s coz i spoilt the pics… my frens are BEAUTIFUL… 🙂

oh yar… 1 more thing…. my soooooo cool shoes!!! the one tt i bought from tokyo… heeez.. BH haf a matching one too… haha….will show pic next time

my shoes are sooo cool that i need to put it as a multi exposure pic… hahaha..

a conversation b/t BH and me:

me: i think my notebk is the most expensive thing i ever bought. what about u?
BH: u r the MOST expensive already…

i didn’t noe i’m so high maintainance… haha :grin1

all the best for ur exams to my dearest frens.. like liting, diana, shiuan, zhihui, kaiyi and Yuenmei and many many more… and of corrs.. my dearest.. BH..who’s probably still….

haha..love the serious look on he have when he’s concentrating… good luck to my love.. :heart1

last but not least.. a pic of us to end this entry..

nightz everyone! :sleep1

think you might have read this story b4… heez.. was surfing websites and i read this…

u noe what… if i were to change the context… it’ll be something like us :blush1

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They have been married for two years. He loves literature, and
often posts his work on the net, but nobody ever reads them. He is also into photography, and he handle their wedding photos. He loves her very much. Likewise with her. She has a quick temper and always bullies him. He is a gentleman, and always gives in to her.

Today, she’s being “wilful” again.
Her : “Why can’t you be the photographer for my friend’s wedding? She promised she’d pay.”
Him : “I don’t have time that day.”
Her :”Humph!”
Him : “Huh?”
Her : “Don’t have time? Write less of those novels, and you will have all & get the time you need.”
Him : “I… someone will definitely recognize my work some day.”
Her : “Humph! I don’t care, you’ll have to do it for her.! ”
Him : “No.”
Her : “Just this once?”
Him : “No.”

Negotiation’s broken. So, she gave the final warning: “Give me a Yes within three days, or else…”
First day. She “withheld” the kitchen, bathroom, computer, refrigerator, television, hi-fi… Except the double bed, to show her “benevolence”. Of course, she has to sleep on it too. He didn’t mind, as he still has some cash in his pockets.

Second day. She conducted a raid and removed everything from his pockets and warned, “Seek any external help, and you bear the consequences.” He’s nervous now. Night. On the bed. He begs for mercy, hoping that she’ll end this state. She doesn’t give a damn. No way am I giving in, whatever he says. Until he agrees.

Third day. Night. On the Bed. He’s lying on the bed, looking to one side. She’s lying on the bed, looking to the other side.
Him : “We need to talk.”
Her : “Unless it’s about ! the wedding, forget it.”
Him : “It’s something very important.”
She remains silent.
Him :”Let’s get a divorce.”
She did not believe her ears.
Him :! “I got to know a girl.”

She’s totally angry, and wanted to hit him. But she held it down,
wanting to let him finish. But her eyes already felt wet. He took a
photo out from his chest. Probably from his undershirt pocket, that’s the only place she didn’t go through yesterday. How careless.

Him : “She’s a nice girl.”
Her tears fell.
Him : “She has a good personality too.”
She’s heartbroken, because he puts a photo of some other girl “close to his heart”.

Him : “She says that she’ll support me fully in my pursue for literature after we got married.” She’s very jealous, because she said the same thing in the past.

Him : “She loves me truly. ”
She wishes to sit up and scream at him: “Don’t I?”
Him : ! “So, I think she won’t force me to do something that I don’t want to do.”
She’s thinking, but the rage won’t subside.

Him : “Want to take a look at the photo I took for her?”
Her : “…..!”
He brings the photo before her eyes.
She’s in a total rage, hits his hand away and leaves a burning mark slap on his face.
He sighs. She cries.
He puts the photo back to his pocket. She pulls her hand back under the blanket.
He turns off the light, and sleeps. She turns on the light, and sits up.
He’s asleep. She lost sleep. She regrets treating him the way she
treated him.
She cried again, and thought about a lot of things.
She wants to wake him up.
She wants to have a intimate talk with him.
She doesn’t want to push him anymore. She stares at his chest.
She wants to see how the girl looks.
She slips the photo out. She wanted to cry, and she wanted to
laugh.
It’s a nicely taken photo of herself. A photo he took for her.
She bends down, and kissed him on his cheek.
He smiled. He was just pretending to be asleep.

“You learn to love, not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.”

yesterday… i’m so bored that i watched 3 movies myself.. at home… and out of the 3 movies 2 of them had a title that is associated with fishes…namely, Swordfish and The Sharks’ Tale… wahahaha… and i juz realised that those fishes starts with a letter ‘S’ too!

oh yar… not forgetting that i’m so bored that i raed the Forum on Sunday Times.. and i was soooooooooooooo angry with that bloody woman who brought 4 children to THE SOUND OF MUSIC and she still dare say that the authorities do not have an area for children to enjoy the musical!!! i was like HELLO!!! geeez… GO BUY THE VCD and WATCH AT HOME! i think i might wanna write into the forum man… coz i’m toooooooooooo bored….. :blank1

so bored that i went to reserve 2 books at the NLB… apparently… i’m no.1 in queue for Tony Parsons — The Family Way and no. 38 for Dan Brown — Angels and Demons

what else did i do when i’m bored? oh yar… i called Toshiba… because the air-con is not COLD.. haha…. maybe i’m too hot for the air-con?? oh yar… whatever… so… the air-con person is coming to check today… which is BAD lar.. coz my plan backfired…. as… i intend to meet BH after his exam today… soooooooo juz too bad for BH…

so i think i’m gonna rewatch vcds today… and probably find fault with the air-con person…. and maybe reply that person on the forum…

oh shit… i’m such a bore…

was mapling… nearly died while taking a pic with croc… heeez…

i’m so bored.. and i chanced a guy’s blog… he looks sooooooooooooooooooo cute… and he’s a hottie… wahahaha…

his site is tracked lar…. can’t put the webby here…

beg me if u wanna see it? haha :beam1

what else did i do when i’m bored? i raed 8days… and i was telling my sis that i cld memorise the whole mag.. heh…

nothing else….

right… i’ll go think abt how the new layout will be…. how i can mk myself look prettier…

oh!! i noe what… i shall disturb BH and pissed him off… and drive him to the wall… hahaha… and i’m gonna tell him “today i’m 21yrs and 1mth old… and you forgot all about it!” :mad1 childish right?

but i’m bored… :blush1

BH and i made our maiden trip to GrapeVine at Serangoon juz to chill out… :beam1 this time we drank cold drinks… heeez

anyway.. i was very ‘auntie’ dressed… very ugly in fact…. disgusting looking lar.. with specs… so imagine… yeah…actually.. i thot BH looked good… sooooo it felt like it was ‘auntie bringing gin-na’ to grapevine..

so we went… i was sooooo relieved that i didn’t see anyone i knew… BUT i was envious coz that waitress with damn short skirt look attractive..more attractive than me lar… hahaha…. i like that scarf thingy she tied round her waist… very nice.. BUT i’ll get nicer ones… heeez… :wink1 the gal has very husky voice… not sexy lar… hahaha… we were turned off instantly… was thinking of a threesome… hahaha…. nono.. joking…

we drank Peach Mallow and Oreo Frappa.. nice nice nice… drinks took very long to come though… so… i suspect that it muz be me… i look too ‘auntie’ liaoz… hahaha… the price of drinks and snacks are cheap….no service tax can…. and the Oreo Frappa has this scope of vanilla ice-cream in it.. yummy… though i didn’t get to eat that ice-cream :pout1 BH was like “the ice-cream v nice…” and the next moment… it disappeared… Peach Mallow is pleasant tasting… really gentle peachy taste.. u pple shld go try..

ATTENTION: i caught some reallly cute eye candy there… it was really hard to ogle at guys when BH is there.. hahaha…but do i look like i care??? the sad thing is.. i look toooo aweful for those cute guys to notice me…. damnit! *bang head*

so… BH and i spent some time there… talking crap and trying to guess what pple are talking abt….heeez… and the music was great.. coz they were playing Michael Buble CD!:wink1

when we left Grapevine… i saw a familar face.. looking at me…. to my horror!!! it’s the ah lian!!!!! jasmine!!!!! yeah… my PL fren…. so….looks like she had saw the ugly and cannot mk it looking me today!!! *digs hole and hide my face* hahaha…. joking lar jasmine…. heeez… glad to seeeeeee u today… coz u look pretty…. yar lar.. let u win tonight… tonight only :blush1 heeez

btw… we didn’t see nickpan at grapevine…haha… disapted but relieved… coz we look sucky… hahaha….since nickpan likes to hang out in grapevine… think he might consider helping the cafe to mk a website… heeez…

well… i had a great day today… though i’m ugly…who cares… as long as BH finds me beautiful and HOT.. wahaha… that’s enuff :tongue1

night everyone!

who calls you beautiful instead of hot — yar.. but i am beautiful and hot mah… so it’s abit unfair to say i’m beautiful only right… haha

who calls you back when you hang up on him — i seldom do that…hmmm… more like he’s soooo petty that he hangs up on me and i got to call him back :blank1

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep — no lor… we got no chance to do that… sad ah…

who kisses your forehead — yes… BUT other guys can do it better than him… heeez… *dreams*

who shows he genuinely cares in many subtle ways — i think shld have..

who cooks for you, bakes with you — no lor… damn sad…no chance lar

who wouldn’t mind doing something you like together with you — he doesn’t mind.. coz most of the things i like to do.. he like to do also mah.. haha

who would make time for you no matter how busy he is — of corrs he does.. what to do.. i’m juz too hot to handle… wahaha

who shares his thoughts with you and asks for your opinion — he does… like the intern thingy…

who wants you to be happy more than anything else in the world — yupz.. tt’s y he compromise with me most of the time

who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats — yar.. i shld think so?

who holds your hand in front of his friends — i think so? but i dun like to hold his hand when my frens are ard… coz… so paiseh man.. my bf soooo ugly.. like holding a stick

who thinks you’re just as pretty without makeup on — geeeez.. i dun put make-up lar… haha… i’ll be even prettier with mk-up lor! hahaha

who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you — yar… he does… :beam1 dunno if it’s real or not…

who turns to his friends and says “…that’s her” — this i dunno lar.. even if he does that.. how i noe right… haha

argh.. ever since i met caryn that fateful day… who brought me to that certain corner in Kino bkshop….. i felt sooooooooo in need…. needless to say… u won’t want me to tell you what we did… :blush1

NOTHING

the pt is… we can’t do anything lar.. else i’ll still b in need meh…

sooo… i tried to distract myself by reading CLEO which obviously didn’t help….then i tried watching tv… which didn’t help too…

i talked to feli this afternoon… which was bad… coz she showed me really sick emoticons… it’s like soft porn…what i need was the real thing… not porn…..

and BH unable to satisfy me…. coz… he’s got no time… and is tooooooooo busy studying for his exams…..

so u noe what i’m in need of???? think i better not say….

i’m in need of love and attention :beam1

wahahaha.. what r u thinking????u pple with sick brains :wink1

i was looking for an old book that i had read when i was in the earlier part of JC2… so… i log into my very old blog… yeah… the diaryland one… it amazing to read my entries that date back from September 2001!!

oh well…. the book title is “Through a glass, darkly” i missed that book alot… coz i like the idea of angels watching over us… think i may go look for that book again… :beam1

besides the book… i read abt how i first felt about BH and i realised why i fell in love with him in the first place… well… most of u pple wld have known our story… BUT the pt is…. i fell in love coz…..

“sometimes someone says something really small…. fits in2 the empty space in ur heart..” :heart1

love is juz this simple….

quoted from my old blog March 2002: of corrs.. love means something more now…

“love .. thinking of the person all the time.. 1st person on ur mind when u wake up.. last person on ur mind when u go 2 sleep at night.. wanting 2 share everything with that some1.. want 2 tell that some1 d whole lot of things that happen to u..always hoping for that some1 2 be happy.. loving unconditionally.. not being possessive of that some1..dun haf 2 say anything yet he/she will understand..”

我承认我也有点情绪 该好好谈却让你离去
改天买点什么哄你 你就不会生气
一个星期都没你消息 十七个留言都没回应
感觉有一点不对劲 让我开始担心
我说了什么 我做了什么 还是问题不在谁认错
错在那不该做的却一直做 该说的没有说
我说了什么 我做了什么 你我还要骗自己多久
如果装若无其事重头来过 让我们比较好过 是对还是错
Hey ooh ooh 有什么出错
足够的技巧不去争执 足够的成熟但没情趣
会是爱得不够多 还是根本爱错
分手这念头你有闪过 老实说我也想过很多
难得但讽刺的默契 想想会更难过
我说了什么 我做了什么 还是问题不在谁认错
错在那不该做的一直做 该说的没有说
我说了什么 我做了什么 你我还要骗自己多久
如果装若无其事重头来过 让我们比较好过 是对还是错
怪你不如我先想清楚 慢慢了解爱不是在比谁痛
多用心都没有用 怪缘分不够

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old layout with a new look… and a new song’s up!!! :grin1

obviously BH made me unhappy today.. so he compensate me with this.. maybe he didn’t mk me unhappy… i juz need to mk him think that he pissed me off…. so i’ll get something nice in return… not bad… considering that he’s got exam next monday?

but then again… this kinda of website stuff is juz like nothing to him…

*points at the heading of the site*

beautiful girls bite… BUT i’m not juz beautiful… wahahaha :wink1