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this week is CA week… all lessons are suspended.. which is good.. :beam1 soooo some teachers didn’t come.. and i need to go for relieve… it was the 1st time i collected the scripts… sat in class staring at the kids for 1h 15mins… collecting the scripts.. counting the scripts… submiting the scripts… geeez.. u get the idea?? haha.. if you r thinking tt it’s fun…. think again… it’s boring i tell u! :err1 teacher dun enjoy themselves when pupils are having CA okie!

anyway…i managed to do some of my lesson planning.. which is good… BUT i didn’t know how to align my text in MS Excel… *looks at BH with big round eyes* i know he’ll help me :blush1

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ysterday was SUNDAY right? went with my family to Evolution Garden at Botanical Gardens.. HEY!! it’s a nice place.. and a must go okie!!! i really like the evolution garden.. think it’s very nicely made… pics are on my sis cam.. else can put up…

after evolution garden.. we went to BIrd Park! yes.. the one at JURONG.. where else… haha… it seems like we were re-living our childhood games… i LOVE the Lory garden!!! it’s sooooooo nice!!! and the birds are sooooooo friendly…. haha.. i love the Pelician Cove too!!! wow!!! those Pelicians are really nice!!! heeez… i wanna buy a packet of fish for $2 to feed them.. BUT i parents warned me not too… coz it’ll stink my hands.. and maybe the car??? :pout1 But….. i wanna feed the Pelicians!!!!! heez..

sooooooo… i went out for almost the whole day.. it’s tiring lor..

FUN = alot alot alot
Work done = NONE

yupz… got to do work later… :grin1

geez.. my CT told me start science lesson today.. juz for the ‘feel’ of it…yeah.. i prepared for it k.. coz i was suppose to revise the unit of water with them.. which i did the ppt slides last yr.. and i’m proud of it… yeah.. so the pt is.. i’m quite bad at sci lar…. so this pupil ask me… ‘is snow a solid?’ i was dumbstuck… :blank1 after lesson.. my CT told me tt it is… *bang head* geeez… told my sis abt it.. and she said i was soooooo dumb.. which is true lar…

so… this high ability class is so different from last yr… coz…… they are very dependent on the tcher… i was going thru this qn on the wb… and we discussed the ans… BUT they look up and me.. expecting me to tell them the answer… i was like ‘yar.. tk ur pen and write.. i’m not giving u the ans..’ so… some wrote.. but others looked blur… i asked my CT… and she said she’ll write down thw sentence for them and they fill in the blank….. hmm…. okok.. i didn’t know this… coz……… i haven’t observed her teach science! :eek1 it’s the 1st lesson.. and i hope my CT don’t doubt my ability… :pout1 and i’m MUST do much better for my next lesson….

anyway… this gal in class actually told me tt i look nicer with my hair down.. heeez.. coz i tied my hair up today… coz teaching mah… :wink1 wow… so fast wanna curry flavour me liaoz…

i went for relief lesson in a primary 3 class… which i absolultely hate… coz they are really noisy…. as it contains pupils tt i taught last yr… so some were like ‘Ms Goh… do u remeber me?’ … and rem my dun be friendly to kids policy??? wahaha… i was like ‘NO NO No! ‘.. so today… i kinda totured them.. coz they were supposed to go for music lesson and they made so much noise juz by lining up.. so i got them to go in and out of the classroom till they are quiet… heez… quite effective by the way…

then i went for relief in a Primary 6 class… and they were like ‘teacher… can play game..’ so i’m like… ‘i dunno how to play game… i only know how to give homework… u all want? ‘ :mad1 yeah… so tt was my day….

hahaha… i wish tt 1 day i’ll become the discipline mistress… what do ya think? :wink1

*the VP remembered my name… he saw me signing out at the office.. and he was like ‘Hi amanda! going home?’ * i hope no1 made major complains abt me tt made him noe my name…

NOTE: A SENSELESS ENTRY.. coz i need love and i’m not getting any…

it’s one of those days that i sooo wanna be loved…. hmm…. and i’m so envious of pple who are able to find true love… all but me… while all girls wld be so touched and happy tt the bf cld play the guitar and sing ‘grow old with you’.. i am like… ‘ are you tone-deaf or something…’ yes.. i am that bad… :eek1 to think that when i was younger.. i was innocent and i wanted a bf who cld listen to me… talk to me… accompany me…. play the guitar…blah blah… u muz be thinking… ‘isn’t BH the one?’ hmm.. yeah.. tt was when i’m younger….. times have changed man….my bf need to be able to satisfy me in a MATERIAL sense… haha… not juz the above….so…i feel he’s not gd enuff for me…. yeah.. i’m high maintenance emotionally and materialistically know… wahahaha… hey.. pretty girls come with a price.. :blush1 juz joking…

my fave part abt BH is… torturing him… and he doesn’t really get angry… even if he’s angry… i’ll juz give him a hug or something.. and he’ll be alright… see… low maintenance bf… wahaha… tt’s y we go together…

so today.. he came to fetch me after school.. and i wanted to go home and change b4 going out for lunch… soooo i went home… and the weather was so hot… and there wasn’t any1 at home… soooooooooo i got him to wait for me downstairs.. in the soooooooo warm weather…. and i took my own sweet time to prepare.. geez.. the moment i open the door… i saw my BH looking up at me from downstairs.. wahahaha… a faithful dog….. not bad..not bad…

i wonder if i really drove him to his limits b4….

i know… i drive him crazy all the time…. :wink1

what to say? it feels gd to be back in a familiar environment again.. so.. i was smiling.. and greeting the teachers…. and they looked happy to see us… coz… the principal and the VP is changed… and ‘the dark cloud has floated away FINALLY’ according to one of the teachers… well… indeed.. the new principal is like a young charming man.. heeez…. but too old for me lar…. he was like ‘hi! i’m the VP… u can call me anthony’.. wow… so warm and friendly… u noe the previous VP isn’t like this! so the principal is on MC today… didnt see him yet… hope he’s nice too…

yeah.. i think everyone is nice and friendly at xinmin… maybe it’s too early for me to say this… but as compared to my other NIE frens.. i think my prac sch is good… and i dun mind coming back…. just that.. there’s 3 trainees snatching for 2 places… geez………… pls choose ME and EDWIN… not the other one…. coz we WERE there for the 1st practicum!!!

to top it up… edwin is teaching the same level as me… as well as that malay PGDE gal.. yeah!! we can share resources… think.. i’m the luckiest amg them… coz i got the so to speak ‘BEST CLASS’ in P4.. however.. my CT (cooperating teacher) is a *ahem* .. u noe it’s *THAT* race… i hope i dun get into trouble with her…. anyway, she’s the young type lar…. think only 26yrs old… i hope she will like me.. and dun backstab me or what.. coz she seem quite nice? BUT.. do not judge the bk by its cover… wish me lots of luck…

i wld say that it is a bad time to go to sch for practicum… coz.. everyone is like rushing to finish the syllabus for the CA next week :err1 there’s nothing interesting to observe.. and i dunno how to tk over… coz…….how i wld i know.. what the pupils are bad in to help them revise??? :pout1 think i may need to start teaching this wed??? and my ulcer is still not healed… and i’m getting a sore throat……..

so fast.. it’s back to lesson planning again…. :sad1

met some of my old pupils today and they still recognise me! :wink1 took then for relieve lessons today… they were extremely mischievous though…

Looks like kids will nv be afraid of me…. :psycho1

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today i realised how difficult it is to be a mum and a teacher at the same time…

yeah… like one of the teachers had to rush home to breastfeed the baby coz.. the baby wont drink any other milk or breastmilk from a bottle… geeez…

this other trainee rushed off when she received a call from the maid saying tt her baby is having high fever.. u shld see how worried she is..

yar.. soooooooo… teachers shldn’t be mothers? haha… or rather.. i hope i wont a be pregnant when i am a teacher coz… i think i’ll get pre and post natal blues.. or maybe i will suffer a miscarriage or what.. coz too stressed out.. haha…

BUT… maybe when i’m pregnant…i’ll have less workload???? :grin1 actually get pregnant when tecahing not bad.. coz the maternity leave is within the contract… so instaed of 3 yrs bond.. it’s 2yrs 9mths!!! wahahaha…

juz some silly thots… :tongue1

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listening to ” it’s you that matters ” , “One Last” by Taufik.. on repeat mode.. coz it’s sooooo nice! :beam1

went to the airport in the morning… well.. coz fel is leaving for perth.. how to say… if i need to name a fren that i’ve kept in contact for the longest time… and the fren who shares the most of my boy crazy stuff… think it’s fel…

thnk as we grow up… we’ll meet new pple… though we don’t always meet or even talk online… i feel close or rather attached to these friends, XY, YM and Fel..each time we meet up….it’s the special bond we have i guess…

from the previous entry.. i admit i was a bit pissed.. coz i got to meet them at such a late timing when my lesson ended so early…. well… i’m a bad bad gal… i was late for the meetng.. and i think i was very ‘black-faced’ BUT i noe… it wld be the LAST time the 4 of us will be meeting at least for this yr? coz Fel’s going Perth.. XY’s going adelaine… and you know… they gave me an advanced 21st bday gift! i was sooooooo surprised….. and touched… coz they prepared it coz only YM will be around…. thanks so much… i didn’t open the present yet.. will wait till my bday

yeah.. the pt is… i felt so sad to see Fel leave… yeah… i felt juz as bad when XY left too… juz that for Fel… i suddenly rem that we were classmates in Primary 1… same class till sec 4.. except for Primary 4 we were seperated… tt’s how long… i felt so silly to cry…. but i saw her crying and my heart broke… u noe.. those kinda feeling…

amanda… you are tooooooo emotional…

Fel is on her way to Perth now… i wish her all the best….and study hard… dun miss me too much… coz i’ll miss you.. or rather.. we all miss you… *hugz*
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vday was great… it’s really nice.. but something else.. NOT BH… spoil my day… i was in a GREAT mood you know!

geeez… so i spent the last few moments of vday grumbling abt that!

i’m soooooooooooo irritated

anyway… i juz came home from my grandparents house… i met my NEW boyfriend today… he’s sooooooo adorable… coz i think he miss me.. he was smiling so sweetly when i entered the house… haha.. and he even peeped at me when i was eating… heeez… i figured out tt he missed me… he’s so huggable…. and sooo charming… i didn’t wanna let him go… and the way he talks is soooo cute ‘ arlow ah gong…’ heeez… so lovable….

that’s when i wanna have a baby too! heeez.. my baby will be:

1. a BOY!
2. cute
3. have dimples *preferably*
4. huggable
5. not afraid of strangers
*subject to changes*

he’ll be a very stylo boy… and everyone will wanna carry him.. coz he’s good-looking at a young age… of corrs.. he’s gonna enter a good school.. do well in studies… and be sucessful in work as well as become a good father in future…. :beam1 yes.. most importantly.. he muz be fillial and appreciates his parents for bringing him up! :smile1

oh yar.. and i’ll mk a blog to show him how he was when he’s growing up.. :wink1

the bad pt abt have a baby is………. i won’t be pretty anymore…. coz…. after childbirth…machiam no figure liaoz… :err1 no more couplehood… no more going overseas as it’s too troublesome…. and.. the baby will tk away everyone’s attention from me! heeez….

yeah.. too much sacrifices… heeez… think… i’ll juz enjoy playing with other pple’s baby… hahaha….

geez… it’s juz a once in a mth thing tt i feel like having a baby… haha…
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read sunday times.. Pg 10…. those women are soooo disgusting… haha… though i like attention too.. i dun wan it that way lar… comparing bouquet of flowers with each other.. so cheapo!

i think the article is implying that…women are materialistic… and to mk women happy..men juz have to do things THEIR way…. hmmm….i think this is v true…. :blush1

which woman wanna lose right??? who don’t wanna be treated as a queen… so what if u love this girl… yeah… u do show it by actions… but ultimately… it’s the THINGS you buy tt reflect your love….see.. if u r willing to spend $10000 for a diamond ring… it shows tt u love her… haha…who wld bear to part with so much cash??? :grin1

in one way or another.. women gets jealous rather easily.. so to satisfy them… i think not only u need to shower her with lots of love physically and emotionally.. BUt u need to satisfy her materialistically too…. ahhhhhhh… only us.. women.. enjoy the best of both worlds…

no offence… but tt’s my senseless analysis…haha… at least i’m like that… wahaha :cool1

to add on… i think the abstinence band (it’s a red one) is very good!!! i want also!! haha.. and i will strongly encourage all sec/jc sch pupils or rather young pple to get it and abide by it…. not wear for fun ah…. it is a reminder for them not to do anything stupid.. and even if they do it.. and something goes wrong.. they muz be willing to bear the consequences….

yupz……. tt’s all for today… have to do my mathematical investigation… sianz..

*read abt my stupid dream* –> if u r bored…
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i suddenly thought about the Hokkaido ice-cream we ate at Odaiba…. geeez…. it taste great i tell u… i miss it…. though it’s corn flavour… and mks me corny.. wahaha…

i miss jap food… those really nice ramen u see in the japo dramas…. argh…. above all… i kinda miss travelling with BH… haha…i hate to booast his ego BUT it’s like we are together in a foreign land…. juz me and him and we’ll tend to tk care of each other… which feels really nice… haha… the nicest part is u noe u are gonna spend 1 complete day together throughout the journey and discovering new things together.. mking the already nice scenery even nicer coz some1 special is with u…….and tt’s sooooooooo cool! furthermore, he carries my stuff for me… pack my bag for me… wahaha… i feel like a queen! heeez…. the only bad part i can think of is… when 1 of us gets sick… i hate taking care of pple… :blank1

so… tt’s y i figured out tt it will be great to settle down in another country that is foreign to me and my hubby… so we need not care abt our family.. maybe we do care but not on daily basis… and even if we are really angry and pissed with each other… we’ll have no choice but to talk it over… coz it’s juz the TWO OF US!! wahaha… and there’ll also be no problems like ‘why u do this to ur mum… but not my mum?’ … ‘how come tt time i go for ur family’s this this this… you can’t come to MY family’s this this this’ .. ‘my family is not ur family is it?’ kinda arguement… :beam1 ahhhhhhhhh.. my perfect and idealistic life! of corrs… it’s not realistic… :err1

anyway.. the pt is.. i wanna go japan again… i wish to see the fireworks… and i wanna buy their so fanciful earrings and so unique pointy shoes…. and eat their ever so delicious food.. :pout1 i even miss the train person saying ‘ shibuya.. shibuya’ haha

this feeling will go away soon…

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updates on my work….

slowly and painful.. i finished my response paper.. with help from BH of corrs… :umm1 dunno y… i wasn’t in good mood for no particular reason.. and of corrs… to mk myself feel better… i must mk some1 else feel worst.. that person is BH…

i love to test his patience… and today.. he juz shouted at me… geeez… i think… any normal or good-tempered person will burst if i were to be sooooooo unreasonable….i’m apologetic.. to think off it… i muz have gone mad juz now… hmmm… or hormonal changes or something…

i think… i juz didn’t want him to forget me when he is rushing for his assignments…. sorry… think i went overboard …

sorry BH… thank goodness BH is really patient even when he lose his patience…. he’s a nice guy..

soooooo… i saw something tt i really like at isetan orchard.. i showed it to BH…. hope he gets it for me… :grin1 thank you!

and i calculated BH vday gifts for me… and i ‘zhuan dao’ lor… heng ah! heeez… thinking if i shld engrave the metallic stripe of the watch… it’s ex.. and dangerous… coz the watch is ex.. and engrave below the stripe.. who can see right? so i scrape the idea… :eek1

if u r reading this…. u r probably thinking tt ‘amanda thnks alot’.. yeah.. i think alot… guess that’s my weakness… i always draw a mental plan in my head b4 doing something.. so i hate changes… and i feel sooooo upset if things don’t go my way… :zip1

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it muz be the vday period… saw so many lovey dovey couples on the streets and MRT today… and of corrs… there’s lots of FREE shows… geeez.. pple are like PDAing(public display of affection) like nobody’s business… i mean.. i’m not totally agst that… *yeah… my views changed from last time… heez* juz that they need to know that it’s a disgraceful and not glamorous sight…. for instance… pulling oneself agst a guy and rubbing agst his d*ck… geez… or even… petting with eyes wide open to see if they are pple looking at them… hmmmmmmmm…. this voice down to…. PUBERTY shld start at a later age…

and the worst is… sec school kids buying gift for their gf…. yes… i cannot tk it… coz they are still so young and they are getting the gf a ring?? HELLO… wake up k…. and they are not even earning… so it’s like using the parents’ hard earn money to buy vday present??? kids nowadays are soooo rich…

everyone needs to feel loved… i wondered if it has occured to these young pple that there are other more unfortunate pple ard… if they are willing to spend so much money of their bf/gf.. y dun they donate a small amt of money to charity… yeah…. i gave serious thought about this.. and i donated… what about you??

and sooooooo the vday craze goes on and on and on………

geez.. i really wanna do my work.. BUT i went onto FP.. and they are organising a Hollister Spree .. that’s it… i think my money is gonna fly away like siao :blank1 or rather BH’s money… wahahaha… i’ll gonna ‘cheat’ his money then ditch him! good plan?? :blush1

the pt is… i saw a few soooooooo cute t-shirts!

i like this shirt… heez… BUT maybe the phrase shld be ‘I WANT EVERYTHING’ ;p

waer this when u are meeting ur crush… haha… and walk up and down in front of him… haha

a MUST wear for me!!! haha.. suitable to wear in NTU canteen… wahaha…

anyway.. the above t-shirts are supper ex! it’s like SGD$30+ for one?

this is a more realistic buy.. coz it’s on SALE!

USD$9.90!

last but not least…a mini that’s on sale… and it goes well with my new craze with GREEN…

i must add this… coz BH showed me this mini b4.. i thot it’s ugly..BUT when i look at it today.. think it’s not bad leh… haha….

yupz.. going back to my work.. :psycho1

went out today with my mum and sis *bang wall* i havent finish my work yet.. :err1 and i bought 2 shirts for practicum and 1 GREEN top again.. well… i think i’m like Ogre *pts to fiona* that’s why i bought green again.. maybe not.. green is a nice colour lar….besides… that Hollister Green Bag cost a BOMB.. so i better get more green clothes to go with it…

so i kinda figured out that this yr wld be the last Vday that BH and i will be celebrating… coz i felt so inferior looking at those younger students… hmm… it’s like they take effort to but stuff for their bf/gf/crush? unlike.. mE and BH… ‘u like this? i buy u for Vday..’ soooooooo unromantic… :blank1 oh yar.. i forgot… being practical means unromantic right??? right. i think it wld be better if both r working and earning big bucks… haha… then can indulge in more luxurious stuff… like good food or romantic getways.. u noe what i mean…..

the pt is everyone is like rushing to buy stuff which really irritates me… and the salesgirl ignore me altogether… maybe not ignore lar… coz she too bz mah…. anyhow.. i still got BH is the superly cool watch from Fossil.. :beam1 i noe BH will like whatever sh*T i get him… i mean.. if he doesn’t i’ll put it on yahoo auction or ebay lor…. see i got backup plan liaoz..

and.. if he didn’t get me something that is worth that value of the watch i gave him… i will not get him a bday present… yeah… i thought about it… and i’ll make sure he regret knowing me.. if he buys me a pair of puny ear stubs again… :mad1

in conclusion… Vday does not have significant meaning for me.. or rather us.. so y shld we celebrate it? i mean.. dun celebrate for the sake of celebrating it…

so i got BH to rank Love, Sex, Money, family and Carrer

that’s BH ranking rlts:
1–money
2–love
3–carreer
4–sex
5–family

my ranking rlts:
1–money
2–love
3–sex
4–family
5–carreer

what abt u??