Secret

it’s one of the rare days which BH and I really really enjoyed ourselves… i guess the 1 day leave was worthwhile… :wink1 the joy of just spending the day to ourselves without thinking or doing any work is overwhelming… let’s just say that i was super duper happy and i haven’t felt so happy, so loved, so excited for a long time! yes.. i guess i was really relaxed that my period came… nvtheless.. it didn’t spoil my or rather our mood…

we met up early for Mac breakfast.. yummy! havent eaten break1st together for a long time! what to say… it was a great way to start the day!

it was still bright and sunny when we step foot on sentosa… BUT surprise surprise… BH booked a hut at costasands… so we went to look for the hut…. we got to costasands and wanted to ‘check-in’ , it was too early… by then the waether was quite dark… then it rained heavily… so we waited at the lobby.. and took some shots of ourselves!

while we were stoning… we met this young singaporean couple, who checked out and drove… the guy was really nice… coz he wanted to give us a ride out… so sweet of him! it’s not everyday tt we meet such a nice person!! after 1hr, the rain stopped… the hut was still not ready… i was irritated and pissed with BH for booking the hut… i got even more pissed tt i see this ah-beng still in the hut which we were checking into… man…. okok…. i spent like 15mins being angry… man….which means i lost 15mins of happiness!!! anyway, we left our stuff with the lobby and went ahead to the beach..

we both wanted to try blading but we just do not know how… so… we rented a bicycle instaed… and you fren here can’t cycle…. so we had a double bike! keke… below is a self-taken photo (set timer of course!).. not bad right!!!

we rented the bike for an hr… the hr really flew by…. we cycled to get lunch which is instant noodles then went back to the hut to check-in and eat .. haha… simple lunch but happy :grin1 not everyday we can eat instant noodles together… haha… okok…. the instant noodles was my idea … BH wanted to eat at some beach pub/cafe thingy but i jus dun think we shld spend so much on food…

after lunch… we went to the LUGE!!!! man… it was cool to be riding on the LUGE.. both of us had fun!! nah… NO RACING was the rule… BUT i came in first anyway.. hahahaha…. okok… BH let me win… we took the Skyride too.. coz it comes in a package ( Luge+skyride=$8)… the skyride is like the one in switzerland… just tt there’s no snow… haha…. and BH was damn scared when we are on the skyride lor…. wahaha… he’s still in 1 piece… i protect him leh!

oh… we bought the pic of us on skyride… we wanted to buy the pic of us on LUGE BUT some assholes were behind us and made the pic v ugly!!! so disapted man…haha… anyway,don’t BH look like he’s wearing black underwaer on the skyride pic??

good time always fly by…. after which… we stroll along the beach… sat down and rest abit then went back to wash up….

i was a happy girl…. :blush1

one of those days tt i feel so fortunate to have BH… he’s definitely someone with great personality and he’s generous too! haha… then i thot to myself… ” luckily i didn’t break up with him ah! ” heee… it’s really nice to hear him talk abt our future and all… let’s look forward.. :smile1

more coming up!

FINALLY!

i rem for the past 4 yrs when BH was still in NUS… we NEVER had a common 1 week break… it was only this yr tt NUS haf the same break as us.. correct me if i’m wrong.. how unfair!

fortunately, BH is confirmed taking a day off this week!!! yay!!! and we are so going to spend quality time together!! :grin1 now whatever work i have on-hand now seems like nothing.. wahaha.. i’ll still do them lar.. coz everything is in my head.. juz need to type them out… self- discipline is wat it takes!

ohh.. and the motivation to njoy the day juz made me finished marking my tuition stuff … :beam1 and i also brought some oreo chocolate sticks for the kids for Children Day .. still thinking of getting more stuff if i can find…

thanks to caryn!!! read this article and i felt v touched.. somehow… the article reflected how i always felt about teaching…

argh… too bad! this article came too late else it wld be of handy for my essay!! :blank1

u noe when i feel that i wanna be a teacher? it was when i was in Primary School.. i felt so unfair that why aren’t pupils who are weaker academically chosen to be monitress? or why am i always in the worst grp?i am always in the weakest grp… i am always the first pupil the teacher wld call up , saying tt they wanna see my parents… i rem crying all the time… and i wanted to be a teacher then, so that i cld give weaker pupils a chance to show their potential… thanks to wonderful teachers who gave me the opportunity to boast my confidence… and who made me feel special in every way.. else i dun thnk i’ll be what i am today..

i always wanted to motivate and insipire.. i hope i left footprints in my family and friends’ life.. and now i want do so in my pupils’ life too… i rem how mad i’ll be when they talk back to me… or how discouraged i feel when the lesson doesn’t go on well.. or even worst i didn’t get to do wat i wanna do coz of some noti monsters…

Teaching is all about sacrifice. utimately, i don’t have to leave footsteps on every kids’ life… juz 1 will do…

as quoted from the article “It is a good feeling just to know one’s student has become a useful, happy member of society and that one might have contributed in some way.”

the joy, smile on the pupils’ face or a soft ‘thank you’ or ‘teacher i help u erase the board k?’ mks it all worthwhile.. :smile1

“And so we continue teaching, hoping to touch lives and open doors for some students.”

I thnk no doctor can cure me

No amount of patience can help me

I need a solution NOW

Birds’ Nest the answer to my dull complexion :err1

i made a girl cry during tuition.. how mean of me… it’s interesting how sensitive the girl was… i was like “u have to do ur working.. or else i would think that you copy from someone else” then she cried… man… i was kinda afraid.. coz i dun want parents coming to me and complaining… soooooooo…. i quickly took this packet of yanyan biscuit sticks and gave it to her… haha.. she stopped crying.. and the next qn she asked was.. ” teacher can i open and eat it now..” :beam1 amazing… attention seekers…

the boys respond well with positive reinforcements… u have no idea how ‘competitive’ they are… they juz want me to praise them… for instance: ” teacher y you praise Jeron only? i also got do working hor! *waves paper around* ”

some of these boys get on my nerves sometimes…then i’ll juz give them a long and hard stare… and they’ll be “shh…. teacher angry alr” some cheeky boys push me to my limits by saying ” teacher y ur eyes so big ah..” then they all wld laugh together…

i’m still thinking abt how can i deal with boys who juz dun listen.
me: take ur ws and the pencil-case ,do it outside the class
boy: no way!
me: do what i say
boy: NO NO NO

*i dunno what to do… drag him out??? he’s a big-sized boy!*

another trick.. also twist their qn and help them blame themselves

boy: tcher it’s very cold
me: who ask you dun bring jacket
boy: *speechless*

with a long and hard stare…. i was exerting all my anger on the playful boys… and i made a stupid statement today.. “what’s so funny? can you don’t laugh at things which are funny?” kekeke… they looked blur.. i realised i made a stupid statement.. i can’t laugh… i quickly turn and face the board… and giggled in my heart… hehehe

now u noe what type of tcher i am…:blush1

this week flew by… guess it’s a tiring week for me…. woke up feeling v tired…. come home tired….was bz with the crappy seminar, then endless tutorials… it’s alright if i cld do my tutorials… BUT i juz can’t… :pout1

to mk things worst… BH and i have not been in the best of moods.. as long as we talk… we’ll have senseless arguements… i’m so tired of all these… and i really dun like to wash my dirty linen in public..

there muz be some communication breakdown somewhere…i realised that i can’t really talk to anyone… the most decent conversation i had was with YM last friday, when we met for tennis… *sad.. no tennis today… :err1*

i guess during the low period… my sis cheers me up alot…she talks alot… mostly happy thoughts… and i certainly applaude her for being abt to talk non-stop from her hostel room back to my home… and how she’ll call me after her lesson ends and bombard my inbox with emails… well, she sends me car links..suggesting what car i shld get… she really think i print money lor

i wanted to donate blood on thursday… something which i wanna do for the longest time… and i found a friend who’s willing to go with me… filled up the really long form… but i failed the medical examination…. it’s my weight….. i was extremely shocked…. coz i didn’t noe i lost so much weight… i think my bones dissolved in my blood or something….

today, my friday morning was brightened up by meeting Nisha, my YEP friend, on the train… we were thinking abt our days in Myanmar… such as those funny things i did… haha… i almost forgot tt i have such a greatlame sense of humor for her to rem me this way… i was laughing and crying at the same time… tears of joy perhaps? and Nisha was like teasing Bh and me.. like how we like to playfully ‘fight’ each other.. well…sadly we don’t ‘fight’ anymore… what happened…

i’m tired…. i feel so naive for trying to mk myself optimistic and positive… i guess i was giving myself a false sense of hope…

sorry to Fel and Caryn who msg me when they see me online… i was juz not in a talking mood…

it’s a ego thing… dun ask me what happened if u see me online or meet me… read and forget abt it…. i just need to get all these out of my system…

Bh juz told me that his company is selecting 2-3 pple to do work in tokyo…

i kinda think he’ll be selected…

hmmm… feel abit sore… but to think of it… not tt when he’s in sg, we meet up often…

then going abroad for a few mths mayb gd for our r/s too… like how ‘distance mks the heart grow fonder’.. which i disagree… but i guess ‘waiting’ and ‘anticipating’ wld mk me value him more…

well.. was thinking about brighter things…. like… how i cld go visit him and we cld go explore other parts of japan! how cool…

hmm.. on the other hand, he mayb too bz with his work to bother bt me…

let’s see if he’ll be chosen…

it was a tiring week and it’s still gonna be a tiring week next week.

i guess.. what i look forward for is FRIDAY! coz it’ s Tennis day! yayayay!! haha.. no… i still suck it it.. BUT at least i think the no. of times we picked the ball up is lesser… :blush1 thanks to YM for being so encouraging and patient! okok.. and thanks to BH who tried to be nice and wanted to teach me the ‘swing’! kekeke… so my friday night was spent at NUS tennis court.. and i had fun…

later is tuition time… hope everything will go on fine…