Secret

in my parents’ eyes.. i’m juz their daughter…

in my sister’s eyes.. i’m juz her sister

in BH’s eyes.. i’m juz her girlfriend

in my own eyes.. my parents are my teachers.. my little sister can be my teacher sometimes.. and for BH,we are teachers to each other..

well… i didn’t expect anyone to think that i am their teacher… BUT.. a Secret Recipe Chocolate Cake was delivered right to my doorstep today… :beam1 “Happy Teachers’ Day. From XXXXX” it’s from the tuition centre.

i’m happy… hey..it juz reminded me that i’m a teacher too! i hope i’m not just a teacher to you..

* having something delivered to my doorstep.. juz reminded me of how BH got the florist to deliver flowers to my home on our 2mth together. tt’s when he’s having some army training in taiwan… this must be the sweetest thing he did.. tt’s so long ago … i wld still like to believe tt he’ll do the same in future.. *

nah… i wish everyday is a HoLiDaY!! wahaha… right… i’ve got a Hollister bag… so the day i carry my Hollister, it’s a Holi-day! :grin1

was inspired by ZH’s post… me wanna go for hols too!!! :oogle: yar.. like travel overseas… saw a nice pic of Caryn in Milan! man.. me wanna go too!!! shld haf hid in her lugguage that day!! wahaha

oh.. i’m thinking of going Osaka.. and the 1st thing i wanna eat is Ramen!!!! the next wld be Japanese Curry! man..i juz love Japo food!!! then the weather wld be cold… so.. eating such food wld keep me warm…. love the feeling of entering those Jap Food stores…those along the roadside…. very small.. and cozy…. and food always taste soooooooo wonderful!! yummy!!! i wanna go feed deers at Nara Deer Park.. go to Osaka fashion district to check out the latest fashion! prob. go to Japo Flea market or Pasar Malam, where i can get nice goodies!!! then mk a day trip by rail to Kyoto…. look at some Geishas…. and temples…haha.. not forgetting to go to the Universial Studios and stay till i see the fireworks at night!!! then i have to mk a trip to the world-class BIG aquarium, where i watch dolphins blow bubbles at me!!!!!! ah…. nice…. and when u thought tt’s the end of the Osaka trip, you r wrong.. coz i wld love to stopover at BKK for some quick shopping!!! then hop onto the plane back to SG… perfect holiday!!! :beam1 but high in cost

so.. i thought of some places i wld like to visit b4 i die:

1) Spain ( Barcelona and Madrid)
2) Greece
3) Italy
4) Turkey
5) Egypt
6) Switzerland n Holland n Belgium *again* (in yr2012)

yar… there’s still alot more… keke… those are TOP in the list.. hehe.. others inlcude *Phuket, Bali, Cambodia, Dubai, Shanghai+Beijing, Korea*

wld reserve Spain or Greece for honeymoon :beam1 with the right person of course!

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addicted to F.I.R 天天夜夜

the lyrics are wrong by the way… the CORRECT lyrics are even more beautiful…

i guess.. u really need to be very in love to write such nice lyrics…

nah…. i wanna be in love too… those lovey dovey type of feeling… when u don’t except much from each other… or the type when u wonder when he’s gonna ask u out or if he’s interested in you… haha… those guessing games.. yar.. juz a suddenly thought…

yesterday Bh and i went down to NIE for an evening of tennis.. wahaha… i was itching for tennis after i had the 1st session with Fel… love at 1st strike indeed… managed to borrow the rackets and tennis balls from my best fren, Larene… man.. she’s got EVERYTHING! you r right caryn.. it’s nice to haf a rich n generous friend! :wink1

anyway… i think i suck at Tennis… dun ask me how many games i played.. haha.. juz ask me how many times i picked up the ball… infinitely many times!!!

though i’m bad at it..i still wanna play!!! :beam1 i dun care if everyone think i suck… i feel good when the ball hits the racket and i get it across the net! hmph! wahaha… i believe tt Practise makes perfect!!

i think Tennis is a very good sport… the type of sport tt mks me feel tt i wanna play it over and over again … at the same time, i cld vent my frustrations by hitting the ball real hard… and best of all… my t-shirt was totally wet… haha..

can’t wait for the next session!

for me, with regards to BGR, the biggest lesson i shld learn is ” Loving an imperfect person perfectly “ and being able to be ” satisfied “ or rather what Darrell wld say ” Zhi Zu ” with my partner.

like i blogged b4 or like how you noe me… i am very idealistic… i noe what i want in life…. the sad thing is… BGR are very complicated… i tried to use logic and to be practical like what i did in any other things…. it juz doesn’t work the same way… it’s very complex… and tt’s why i always dunno what i want in a relationship… juz say tt i’ve got a big ego.. or i have difficulty trusting some1 who’s close to me.. i can’t be confident if the person with me wld give me the type of ideal life i want..

i’m envious of others… and i have doubts bt BH… or rather i simply look down on him… saying things like ” we’ll nv get there ” , ” tt’s something which we’ll only dream about “… and BH gets really angry and annoyed when i’m like this… so the arguement starts.. ” y do you always look down on me “, well.. i was being practical… how cld owning a hse, owning a car be possible! nah.. it’s not possible to me… maybe financially possible…BUT it’s juz my heart feeling insecure and confused..

amazingly, BH is some1 who loves an imperfect person perfectly… i dunno how cld he look beyond my flaws, forgive n forget each time i hurt/humiliate/insult him badly… it cld mean 2 things i guess: 1) he really likes me alot 2) he realise tt he can’t find any1 better… hahaha

i wish i have 2 hearts… like how i have a left brain and a right brain… then my heart and my brain wld b balanced.. :grin1

All the best to my dearest friend,Caryn, who’s enjoying herself in Europe now!! ;p

some pics to share… 1st attempt on Photoshop.. so difficult to use!!! really admire BH for being so good at such programs… :blank1

keke.. was wearing my waisted belt with the pink dress… i really like it.. :blush1 and it’s sooooo coincidental tt the song I Feel Pretty from The West Side Story fitted my feelings totally! :beam1

More Lyrics from The West Side Story:

“I feel pretty,
Oh, so pretty,
I feel pretty and witty and bright!
And I pity
Any girl who isn’t me tonight.

I feel charming,
Oh, so charming
It’s alarming how charming I feel!
And so pretty
That I hardly can believe I’m real. “

so egoistic right! kekeke…. i’m kinda influenced by the movie, Anger Management… sing this when u feel mad.. it helps… hahaha

well… school started.. and i am loving every minute of it… though maths modules are tough :blank1 luckily it’s National Day Holiday tml..

can belief tt next monday.. school wld start… so fast right??? it’s not only the school starting part which is sianz.. BUT caryn is also flying off to Denmark… 1 more less fren in singapore :sad1 and my sis will be staying in hostel :sad1 1 less person to talk to at home

well… tml is sat. .. sat. used to be my fave day… BUT no more… so… friday is my fave day i guess…. ok .. fine..Sunday is my fave day…. haha… anyway, BH and i are like going out for dinner today!! hehehe.. no special reason.. but i’m looking forward to it…. :smile1 right… Bh actually made reservations at Sizzling Rock.. nice ambience and all BUT i was turned off coz.. the website shows alot of angmos… so…it doesn’t mk me feel welcomed.. keke… so we decided to go to Hot Stones instead… :beam1 after dinner, maybe we cld go chill somewhere ard Clark Quay.. how cool is that! :grin1

i thnk my sis wld be ard Clark Quay too.. coz of some orientation stuff… keke.. so hopefully we’ll meet her there :beam1 then i cld see who her SP= Special Person is… :tongue1

it’s amazing tt SDU kinda sponsored their orientation t-shirt and goodie bag?? haha… so.. it’s more or less confirmed tt if u join orientation means you wanna look for a bf/gf.. wahaha… it’s more amazing when my sis told me tt her Prof referred FYP to Find Your Partner during the faculty talk .. looking at how much fun she’s having…. i thnk i missed out alot…. :err1 i didn’t join any FOC… and there’s not many guys in NIE to speak off…

nah… even if i join the FOC… i dun thnk i will fall for another guy …. :shake:

yeah right! kekekeke

In future, i’ll get this for the man i love 🙂