Secret

1) Group Project

let’s see… i was doing a project with this grp of pple… pple who i dunno v well… and i realised tt i did quite alot of stuff… normally, i’ll voice it out… BUT this time i kept quiet…. coz… i thnk… i’m in no position to comment.. afterall, they ‘took’ me in when i’m groupless…

so i was thinking abt how *some* pple didnt do too much work… so…. i came out with a conclusion that… a small thing to others may be a BIG thing to me …you cant deny tt everyone did some work and met up for discussions…. BUT why do you feel that u are doing lots of work… then rem to think again.. afterall… in a grpwork.. compromising is key…

maybe u already knew this.. BUT it took me awhile to convinced myself abt this..

2) Relationship

i dunno abt how other couples… BUT for BH and i.. he loves to say “why muz you always mk a big fuss over a small thing?” right… so tt’s how arguements start… usually we are very calm.. and we settle it by finding a problem and working out a solution, hopefully we won’t come to such a situations again..

like sometimes, you noe tt such a problem can’t be avoided… so…b4 i start to tell him abt my unhappiness… u can imagine me saying thngs extremely bluntly…. “i noe tt this is a small thing to you… BUT to me it’s a BIG thing… coz i’m a gal and you are a guy, our brain functions differently… i noe tt it’s damn irritating… BUT i can’t help feeling this way! i would really love to have a dick.. so i won’t feel like crap now… “

yeah man.. so after mking the above statement… thngs also get better… coz… at least he’ll put himself in my shoes…

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the bottomline: think twice b4 you say something.. coz a small thing to you may mean a big thing to someone else :wink1 (it’s juz like — you may mean nothing to the world, but you mean the world to someone) forgot the exact quote

tt’s what i learnt this week :blush1

man… muz tell u guys what i dreamt! heez…

i dreamt tt my dad bought me vw-beetle lor! for $90,000!!! haha… dunno y we suddenly so rich noe! so i was driving extremely cautiously… parked it really nicely at the carpark… then the next day… the car disappeared!!! coz i forgot to lock the car!!! and some1 stole it!!!

i was like so worried.. and i consoled myself tt some1 juz borrowed it…

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i watched this mv.. and was crying like crazy… haha.. so silly … BUT i really thot the song is v nice and meaningful.. :thumbup: song to listen to if you r heartbroken can!

heeez.. talking abt silly… my Johari window states that……..

57% of people agree that amd_goh is cheerful
57% of people think that amd_goh is self-conscious
71% of people think that amd_goh is silly

man!!!! you guys juz can’t find the word ‘CUTE’ right… so all put ‘silly’!!! hahaha

woke up this morning.. feeling horrible…felt tt the sky was tumbling down..

look at the crowded bus and mrt… which made me feel worst! and wish tt i dun need to go to school…

BUT.. life is juz so unpredictable..

i met Andy on the train today! fel’s bf.. heez… so was like talking to him… oh well.. monday wasnt tt gloomy afterall… at least i spoke to some1 on the crowded train…

sms fel after that…. even when it means overseas sms is expensive… i felt happier.. :yum1

sms my sis… feel happier too.. :beam1

went to sch… took a bus with mashitah… and we actually talk 2 each other! i mean!!! wow!!! and i thot she hates me!

then met my nie frens… xinyi n larene n sharon.. who listened to how lousy i felt… haha.. one of those days when i so needed to talk..

after project discussion, came home n i felt even better…coz i knew my sis wld always n forever be interested to talk n listen to me…

i feel so much better now :smile1

bugis is a extremely weird place… i hate and detest tt place…

i was alone…. walking towards the central library to meet my sis…. met an extremely weird man, with a little boy… he cornered me… and wanted me to donate $$ for dunno what organisation which supports ‘NO DRUGS, NO UNEMPLOYMENT’.. saying tt when there’s no unemployment, the kids will go tk heroin… and dunno how he link it to the show APPRENTICE! well… so i was like ‘so is this boy schooling?’ –> i thot the little boy was a victim… you know what… he shouted out loud tt i was being RUDE.. i was like.. what did i say wrong!!!! and pple look at me BUT didn’t bother to help? i was freaked out.. coz he looked as if he wanted to give me a tight slap.. :err1 i dunno… but i feel so paronoid now…

I WILL NEVER GO TO BUGIS AGAIN!

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tml will be a school day… to me.. i think alot of things is like happening next week… i feel extremely fearful…
1) need to submit the game project… and i think my group members like hates me… okok… i’m like too sensitive… the reason why i HATE working with new pple
2) starting my driving revision lessons … and i m super scared tt i forgot what i had learnt
3) voice studies presentation..which i dun even noe what to present
4) my algebra mid-term test

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think i’m in an extremely insecure and paronoid mood… and i can’t stop all these fears from happening…. like… i already tried my best to look for stuff to present…BUT ideas not concrete… i started studying for my algebra test…

man… still damn freaked over the bugis incident…

take it easy…

eating out is one of the very rare things we wld do…so we wld love to try out new eating places… haha.. have been wanting to eat here for the longest time.. and we tried it last night… was like soooooooooo hungry… BUT we had to wait coz it’s super crowded… and we didnt mk rservations… :pout1

food was great… though i really love japo food.. can’t recall what we ordered.. jap names are hard to rem man.. wahaha

hey!!! this is like so IN now can!! hahaha.. help me leh!!! :blush1

http://kevan.org/johari?name=amd_goh

havent like done this for the longest time!!! heeez.. juz for fun! :blush1

1. If you could go back and relive one moment or day from your life, without changing anything, what would you re-experience?
definitely my the entire YEP trip in Myanmar.. looking back.. i really really find it hard to believe tt i managed to juggle many pre-expedition activities with schoolwork… and i did things which i didn’t even think i wld have done if i havent gone on YEP.. knowing that how willing pple who were not as fortunate are willing to ‘give’ and serving for my community….

sidetrack: suddenly thought of trekking in Kalaw.. eating food with houseflies ard us… and how we peed in the ‘natural’ toilet… haha..or even survive with juz $US5 everyday… truely enjoyable… :beam1

2. If you could witness a moment in history, again without changing anything, what would you want to see?
this is tough… hmm… probably when singapore experienced a drought in 1960s…

3. If you could talk to a younger version of yourself, what age would you visit and what message would you give?
when i’m 17yrs old..in JC… “hey amanda, pls buck up on ur bloody econs…”

4. If you could choose one moment that would be guaranteed to happen in your future, what would it be and when would it happen?
i wish to have a son, Daryl and a daughter (havent thought of her name) and a loving hubby, who still finds me the prettiest women in the whole wide world, even when i am in a bad shape after 2 kids! maybe in like 15yrs time?

5. Pretend you left a time capsule for yourself 5, 10, 15, 20 or more years ago. You just opened it. What three things from your past are you now holding and what age were you when you buried them?
1. the first tooth i dropped (i forgot when)
2. first bouquet of flowers ( from my sec sch frens– Fel, KL, YM, XY n Yimun when i was in sec 2? )
3. little miss shy book ( from BH on my 18th bday.. prob the 1st thng he gave me!)

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today, fel and i spent like 2hrs at Body Shop can.. coz she wanted to get stuff… and her cuz gf who’s working there got 50% discount! haha.. i’m really not into Body Shop stuff.. juz tt their perfume is NICE! heez… anyway.. it was extremely tempting.. so i bought some stuff….

1) facial mask
2) nose mask
3) nail buff
4) facial wash
5) toner
6) oil blotters

total damage: $43.50 ( actual price = $87) —–> in future, if my bf can provide me a sup card.. this is what i’ll use on.. wahahaha…

so.. came home and i was super bz man.. need to add on to my already v bz regime of beautifying myself… wahahaha.. need to buff nails… cleanse face…. put mask… put toner… moisturise…. mk my hair… vain right… hahaha…. if i dun say u dunno lor…. so my night-time is super bz lar…

heez… think i’ll mask BH’s face for him too!!! :tongue1

i really need to admit that joining NIE may be the BEST decision which i ever made in my life so far. (excluding knowing some really awful people here)

i dunno about others, but for me.. i always want to find meaning in my life… like i wanna do something which is life-changing and at least when i die, i wld be someone who left a footstep in someone’s heart.. oh well… i mean i may not be very good at teaching… BUT i enjoy doing things for children… which may feel sucky at 1st BUT really worthwhile and satisfying if you see that it’s being appreciated.

on last sunday, i accompanied my sis for this NTU talk on the courses avaliable… i was extremely shocked when my sis wanted to go into Bioengineering or Life Sciences .. i know nuts about such bio stuff.. BUT my sis is super interested in that.. and i was like ‘are you sure?sounds really chim..’.. and she’s like ‘yes! i dunno what else to take if i’m not accepted.. it’s only 80 places can!’ at that pt of time, i was really thankful that teaching is so much easier than engineering or bio.. in fact, i thot that having a degree in teaching is kinda like redundant as compared to engineering??? oh well.. coz teaching is abt something you already know… BUT it’s skill and passion to whether you can teach or not…

anyway, to add on to how much i feel that teaching is wonderful… i enjoy the fieldtrips i had on monday and tuesday.. haha… reading this.. you wld think tt i’m mad… coz we actually needed to write a fieldtrip report… HOWEVER i need to admit tt i’m extremely thrilled to enter a WATER TREATMENT PLANT and INCERATOR PLANT and NEWATER VISITOR CENTRE. it’s my FIRST time going to such places.. and i think w/o NIE i dun think i’ll even go to these places on my own… even if i do… i may not have guides to explain or tell me the procedures that goes on in these plants… man… i have to admit that i learnt alot… and i feel smart suddenly!! really!! see… i drew a conclusion tt NIE is great.. haha.. though going for the fieldtrip is really time-consuming and tiring.. BUT what matters is i learnt something from it! :beam1 if you rem, i actually went to this military camp last yr coz NIE bought us there… that’s super exciting too.. coz i held a rifle and pulled the trigger can!!! :tongue1

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i managed to meet up with Karen for dinner today… havent seen her for an extremely long time.. and she’s still the same!!! really happy to see her! i mean… i was actually looking forward to see her!!! heez… miss her so much!!! and her stories are still as interesting as ever! hahaha :grin1

tml i need to go to school for voice lesson… really sianz… BUT i’m like meeting YM and Fel for lunch can!!! so happy to see my friends!!! :smile1 looking forward to seeing them coz they make my day all the time!!!

Friends who i desperately needed to catch up with: Caryn+Zhihui and Shannon!!!

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things i have yet to do :pout1
1) algebra tut
2) stats tut
3) fieldtrip write up
4) lesson plan presentation for voice
5) study for test *

probably doing them on tml night and the whole of friday and sat. and sunday!

still got time :wink1

yeah!!! finally fieldwork shit is done!!! if u guys are wondering what the hell fieldwork is…. look at this blog.. maybe.. only maybe it’ll help.. *no pics of me.. coz i’m the photographer*

hey! this is for my project… haha… just for fun k!

1) guess which logo is made by me?
2) vote which logo is best for a primary school game.