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haha.. dear frens… i was reading Cleo.. and i decided to try my luck to be the first 500 person to email Essential Brew to get a $5 discount… and wowowow!!! i got it can!!! :beam1

in future we can go chill out there… probably drink some tea or what… it’s ard coffeebean price…heeez… anyway… there’s still a 10% discount thingy on the mag itself lar… hahaha… so we can spilt ourselves into 2 tables or what… heeeez… :blush1

tt’s all… :yum1

for those who didn’t buy Cleo….the email is cleo1@essentialbrew.com.sg… juz email ur name, I/C no. , Moblie and address!!! good luck!!!

and……….shop at HEEREN between APRIL 29 to MAY 8 got 20% discount with the Cleo Shop-a-thon card… which comes with this mth’s CLEO!!! wahahahaha…

Bottomline.. buy CLEO!!! :wink1

i began to think that the kids dun genuinely like me… coz… how cld u like some1 so quickly within a mth… yeah.. i didn’t tell the kids that the 15 was my last day… and it came to them as a shock… coz i didn’t even get to give them the candies i got for them myself….or even show them the flipbook that BH did on their poems…

oh well.. maybe it was their art lesson… they made me cards…. and wrote things like “i love you miss Goh” .. haha… some funny ones who saw BH picking me up b4 wrote “Hope ur r/s with ur BF wld be very good” … some wrote ” Miss GOh.. you r very pretty” .. ” You will become the best teacher in singapore!”

u see… i think these kids wrote all these juz for the sake of it… and they dun really meant it… but… at least they appreciated what i did i hope… what matters most is.. they benefit from my lessons…

yar.. the sch clerk told me that i wld most probably come back to xinmin again… and the SCM congratulated me.. which felt really good…dunno for what… maybe for my completing my practicum 2 sucessfully… my NIE supervisor came and she told edwin and i that the sch is very pleased with our performance… soooooo… what can i say…. though i made some mistakes in the process of learning ..these mistakes helped me to grow and become a better teacher…in future

while the other trainee left sch at 2pm on friday.. i stayed till 4+… i still had a lot of marking to do….yar… and that’s like the ws and the compos they did on friday… my CT did not bother to offer her help….

to tell u the truth…. in this practicum… i feel very independent… my CT did not help me much… her feedback aren’t constructive at all…. it’s like “you shld include grpwork” and she didn’t tell me how… geeez… she’s a screwed up CT who doesn’t help me much lar… think my CTs in my 1st practicum r still the best….

bottomline..i still need to go back to sch on monday or tuesday to submit my stuff to my bloody CT…then i’m over and done with her.. i hope…

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watched The Sound of Music yesterday… with my sis and BH… hmm… it’s nice and entertaining… BUT i can’t help it but to compare it to Singin’ in the Rain.. coz i think the latter is better… maybe coz we’ve got better seats??? and there are less or no children ard???

so… i noe parents nowadays are rich.. BUT pls use ur common sense… can children sit still and watch a musical??? can they even understand??? i dunno what are these parents thinking… :eek1 those kids are irritating.. crying at the CLIMAX of the musical…. standing up on their seats…. asking qns and talking during the show… i’m like… HELLO!!!! the SOUND of Music isn’t even in their era!

all the 3 of us were very irritated…. still nvm…. pple were LATE for the show… and it’s like a nuisance… coz they got to move in… geeez… i’m so bloody pissed lar….

in future, pls put ur bloody kids at home then come and watch the show… else if you wanna have kids… this is what u need to sacrifice…. and you noe what… pls be early for the show…

tt’s all….

stayed in sch to mark books till 5.45pm today.. was with edwin and 2 other trainees… well… we ordered mac… haha.. and was talking and laughing… so we were quite happy lar… though stressed abt the amt of stuff we need to mark…

and happiness strucks when EDWIN IS WILLING TO HELP ME MARK COMPOs!!! wahahaha… coz he’s english is damn good and well.. at least i got help… heeez..

and the HOD want to check the kids’ sci WB… and i need to meet several pupils tml during recess… like abt 11 pupils… so i’m gonna bring some some biscuits… coz i’m afraid they got no time to eat…

then today.. i was pissed off with some boys who kept talking abt SEX.. dunno what’s their prob… this boy still dare to tell me ” that XXXX use scissors poke my here” *pts to his dick* geeeeeeeeeeez……..

and they got so excited coz today during sci.. they need to measure the CHEST size… HELLO!!! they are only at P4 can…. nowadays children are not as innocent as we think they are… :blank1

oh yes… those children were worst than monkeys today… sooooo i scolded them like siaoz… and i felt so proud of myself.. coz they remained really quiet… haha…

and they were like “miss goh… tml ur last day is it?” and i’m like ” NO! i still haven’t torture u all enough yet..” come on children… try me…. and you r gonna be a piece of DEAD MEAT… and i make sure i BREAK you into “one thousant one hundred and thirteen pieces” <--- quite from my pupils' compo when he wrote that the glass plates breaks into these amt of pieces? hahaha.. so funny... did he count the glass pieces or what.... gtg do my LP now.. sianz... things i need to do: 1) mark 2 sets of ws 2) schedule 3) reflection 4) pupils' achievement thingy sianz...... confirm tml stay till v late.. and sat muz go back to sch :sad1

BH did this for me…. i shan’t thank him coz he owe me… who ask him treat me like sh*t… who cares if he spend time on this…. who ask him to pissed me off 1st…

http://fakedevil.com/poems.swf

click on the link to view poems done by the class

i’m still having a very bad headache…

geeez.. maybe i’ll forget abt planning lessons for tml.. coz i plan to fail? :err1

reached sch today… the 1st thing i felt like doing was cry…. i saw that my table was filled with books and ws… filled with things that i needed to mark and do…. i feel so tired…. and helpless… because no1 understands…

now i’m having a bad headache…. and i haven’t prepared my lesson for tml…. i need to meet a number of kids to ask them to finish up their corrections.. coz the HOD wanted to check their sci WB…

i feel that my final observation sux…

yar.. so what if i’ll pass my practicum? i need to do better than a pass…. i dun want what happen during my As to happen again…. no way!

maybe i was thinking of that all the time… and i’ve been giving myself alot of pressure… i dunno… i juz feel so disgusted with myself.. and obviously, no1 understands…. :sad1 talking to BH is worst.. he’s bz with his work too… and he give me a bloody ” i’m smarter than you ” attitude which i totally hate.. so what if you are getting a degree!

it’s juz 2 more days… i dunno how am i going to survive 3-4 yrs of teaching….

and i still got 7 compos to mark… and 20 more compos coming in on FRIDAY itself… and the eng, maths HW book… corrections wif the kids… of corrs…. the lesson plans… which i have not done………

doesn’t all these workload give me a reason to cry out loud

what have i been doing?? why i do work so slow? i got no other commitments also…… WHAT’S WRONG WITH ME!!

Bh juz showed me this.. his very old blog…. i can’t rem him having it lor…

was reading the entries.. and i felt like i was like an insignificant figure:pout1 well… at least i noe that i’m his EVERYTHING now… wahahaha,, juz that i need to fight for a place with an inanimate object— the computer :mad1

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i’ve decided not to be upset with my observation.. it’s over… haiz…. if i didn’t do well… very most won’t go teach in xinmin next time…. and i can learn from my mistakes… so it isn’t too bad… right? i’ll juz treat the effort put into the lesson as an exercise? geeez… anyway.. BH collected 6 out of the 8 bottles for me… y shld i grumble bt the effort…. yar… i didn’t put in any effort…

my mood is subject to changes

today is one of those days i feel really down…. i dunno…the feeling is like… when i was in primary school and everyone else knew how to add and i juz didn’t know how no matter how attentive i was in class… or how hard i tried…

i had observation by the VP and the scm today… they are basically very nice pple… esp the VP… well…. i thot i was v well-prepared.. and for the first time… i felt very confident that things will turn out well… i dunno y… juz that i put in ALOT of effort for my ALL my observations…. BUT my effort is always not repaid….

the feeling sucks… BUT i guess… i’m used to this feeling… coz it always happens to me me and me…. one very good example is…. most of my frens cld get into uni after the As but not me…. oh well… that’s old news… but i can’t help but still feel sore abt it…

at the moment when feel soooo bad….it starts to rain heavily… geeez…. creating a good atmosphere for me to cry right? haha. and juz when i thot the whole world hates me.. i received an ecard from my secret admirer who’s email address happens to be caryn’s? wahaha… thanks dearie…. :beam1 how do you know i’ll feel upset today?

oh well… the pt is… they havent talk to me abt my lesson yet.. i noe it was bad.. coz the grpwork was like art lesson… and it was supposed to be an English lesson… obviously the objectives won’t met… the kids were too excited to even bother writing down the steps they took to make the manipulative… things wld have been better if i have more time….

i did something really bad… coz i called BH when he was on his way for an interview for internship…. yar… i cannot take it when he act like he’s damn smart coz he’s gonna get a degree…. i dunno..maybe i’m juz oversensitive or what… so i was telling him that he won’t get through the interview… coz 1st impression counts and he’s tooo ugly….dun u all agree with me?

anyway, i’m not feeling sorry BUT i hope that this ugly looking perosn will interview him…so when ugly meets ugly… they’ll ‘click’ and by luck he’ll get the internship….

when i’m feeling sucky…. i will mk sure that you feel worst than me..

i got to generate 3 different subject lesson plans for tml… and mark worksheets.. and mark 12 more compos… :mad1

like u still do not know… movie prices went UP… :blank1 oh well… think i kinda stopped watching movies frequently ever since i started getting monthly allowances from MOE… coz money is really hard to earn…. and i slog very hard to get money… money… is very precious and impt to me man… :blush1

anyway… BH and i haf a new fave past-time… yeah… not that we have nothing to do… BUT we need to relax after a week of hard work.. right? :beam1 so we went to X-Square located at PS mrt… yeah.. we went there to play x-box… heeez… $3 per hr…. it’s definitely cheaper than a movie… and we definitely enjoyed ourselves.. coz… we love to play games… BUT no X-box at home… yar lar… u may think “might as well go buy x-box” BUT… buy also no use… the games are are so ex and it also doesn’t mean that u’ll play with it everyday… u’ll get bored with it mah… so we feel that the $3 per hr for unlimited numbers of NEW (new games included!) games is very worthwhile :beam1

we played Fifa Street soccer game today.. wahahaha… it’s nicer than WINNING 11.. comfirmed! we had lots of fun… and of corrs I won!!! wahahaha…. close fight lar… 5 was the match pt.. so BH and i were like trying to win.. coz we were 4-4… heeez…. the BAD thing bt x-box must be the controller… SUPER heavy and bunky… geeez… hand aching after the vigourous actions… and the controllers are VERY dirty and oily… sorry ah… i’m a clean freak… heez :grin1 We played Dead or Alive, volleyball game with alot of gals in bikinis.. wahaha… of corrs i won.. coz BH was too distracted with the gals with BIG breast and shapy butts… ahahaha :wink1 and not forgetting me.. coz i’m one hot babe that drives him crazy all the time… :yum1 right BH?

ended our day with drinking cafe mocha and cafe latte at starbucks…. i like it when we could chill out *interesting that we drink hot drink to chill out right?hahaha*and talk abt anything and everything.. coz for the past few weeks we were soooooooo bz that we dun have time to talk or share what happened… :beam1 oh well…. i really miss Tokyo…. was telling BH that in our whole life there is at least 1 day of the week that we spent in Japan…. and to further emphasise on this pt… BH and i need to spent 7 years with each other, in order to experience every day of every week of every month together… wahaha… dun get it? it’s alright… coz no one understands my theory… :tongue1

overall… i enjoyed myself today…. and i still have 30 more compos to mark… and 2 more observations to go (1 for VP, 1 for CT) … and i need 8 1.5litres bottles by monday… if you happen to have BOTTLES pls inform me…. THANKs!

night everyone!

of corrs.. i noe nothing abt changing web layout.. so u all know who did it right? it’s BH…

geeez… quite nice to be angry with him.. i forgot what i was angry abt…. BUT the pt is… he wld do anything to mk me happy… so he changed the layout… looks like he learnt his lesson abt procastinating..

anyway… it’s amazing that though BH is very bz.. he cld find time to change the layout for me…. hmmm… maybe it’s not that shocking… coz afterall… doing those time-consuming… earn little money… websites are his interest… so what’s so difficult abt changing my web layout for me right???

geeez.. i won’t say THANKs for this new layout… let’s juz say… i deserved it! :grin1

enjoy the layout while it last………. coz i hate putting up pictures of us… coz…
1) all guys who are interested in me and is reading my blog would be turned off
2) it seem to be telling the whole wide world that i’m lovey dovey… which is WRONG
3) ‘I LOVE YOU’ at the bottom of the collage is not for BH…. coz BH MADE THE COLLAGE FOR ME… i’m not telling the world that i LOVE him??? geeez… misleading collage…

btw.. that was the collage that he printed out and made into a card for me…. that’s y the layout can be changed so easily i supposed

having an extremely bad headache… gtg…

i’m drained out……. :psycho1

by Michael Buble

I’ve got you under my skin
I’ve got you deep in the heart of me
So deep in my heart, that you’re really a part of me
I’ve got you under my skin

I’ve tried so not to give in
I’ve said to myself this affair never gonna swing so well
So why should I try to resist, when baby will I know damn well
That I’ve got you under my skin

I’d sacrifice anything come what might
For the sake of having you near
In spite of a warning voice that comes in the night
And repeats, repeats in my ear

Don’t you know little fool, you’ll never win
Why not use your mentality, come on step up to reality
But each time I do, just the thought of you
Makes me stop before I begin
‘Cause I’ve got you under my skin

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hey zhihui!!! read ur entry! hahaha… thanks for ur good wishes.. and thanks for dreaming of us… and you know what??? think the dream is for you… u saw the wrong person lar! :beam1

yesterday is a nice day… BH made me this collage thingy…. collage=put alot of pics together than print out… and he promised to come out with a new layout with the collage.. which is very nice… hahaha…. then i got michael buble CD.. and speedballs thingy for my notebook..

neoprint not so nice… :sad1