Secret

Secret

dunno what shld the title be..

on April 13, 2005

reached sch today… the 1st thing i felt like doing was cry…. i saw that my table was filled with books and ws… filled with things that i needed to mark and do…. i feel so tired…. and helpless… because no1 understands…

now i’m having a bad headache…. and i haven’t prepared my lesson for tml…. i need to meet a number of kids to ask them to finish up their corrections.. coz the HOD wanted to check their sci WB…

i feel that my final observation sux…

yar.. so what if i’ll pass my practicum? i need to do better than a pass…. i dun want what happen during my As to happen again…. no way!

maybe i was thinking of that all the time… and i’ve been giving myself alot of pressure… i dunno… i juz feel so disgusted with myself.. and obviously, no1 understands…. :sad1 talking to BH is worst.. he’s bz with his work too… and he give me a bloody ” i’m smarter than you ” attitude which i totally hate.. so what if you are getting a degree!

it’s juz 2 more days… i dunno how am i going to survive 3-4 yrs of teaching….

and i still got 7 compos to mark… and 20 more compos coming in on FRIDAY itself… and the eng, maths HW book… corrections wif the kids… of corrs…. the lesson plans… which i have not done………

doesn’t all these workload give me a reason to cry out loud

what have i been doing?? why i do work so slow? i got no other commitments also…… WHAT’S WRONG WITH ME!!


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