Secret

there is no nj that visited my blog… :blank1 BH played a prank on me.. and i knew it instantly.. but still he choose to lie until the final straw.. he gave up… i feel so dispated with him… btw who’s nj? he’s this very cute NTU guy whom i happen to know and he’s like a hunk in my eyes… and probably like a prince on white horse.. only tt he drives a white car.. he’s like SINGLE… and yeah… amanda is interested…. BUT…… how can she leave BH alone… haha… he wld need to join SDU if i leave him… hahahaha…

anyway… i read ZH’s blog.. and i cld sympathise with her….u noe… when i read her entries… i so wanna cry…… and suddenly i thot of afew yrs back when BH went to Taiwan… hahaha.. maybe it’s juz the starting of a r/s..i dun really feel that attached to him… i’m sad tt he’ll be away… BUT the funny thing is…. i wasn’t like aniticipating for his phone calls.. hahaha… maybe i did… but i rem having missed calls from him and what i cld hear were the voice msg he left for me…

thinking back… these memories mks me feel so bitter sweet… and even though it may seem like 2-3wks only … it is not ONLY … some pple say ‘he very fast will come back..’ BUT it’s all BULLSHIT.. nvtheless… one need to treasure the times when u r apart from each other, in order to value how much you need each other… maybe tt’s why pple say
“absence mks the heart grows fonder..”

how true….

yeah.. i always feel like sh*t… i hate it when my frens ask… ‘why u look so blur today’ or more directly ‘you look like sh*t’.. yeah.. this implies 2 things… i look aweful in specs… or i looks stressed.. coz i’ve got pimples outbreak which is very bad…

haha.. another thing.. they always tell me…… ‘amanda… be more wen rou… u juz scared the cute guy away!’ hahaha… damn it.. or when i see a cute guy… ‘AMANDA!!! you are attached’ *bang wall*

the pt is……………………….. they are juz jealous of my beauty.. hahaha.. juz joking lar!

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so i’m like having a bad headache… and i feel like sh*t.. yes.. so what is worst than sh*t… haha.. i ran out of words to describe myself…

anyway… i’m alittle proud of BH.. coz it’s like the asian stories is like quite a big thing lor… they circulating this flyer ard in NIE.. and my bf is actively involved in it… i was like so shocked… coz….. he’s not even in NIE can!!! know what’s the opportunity cost… it’s AMANDA GOH!!! heeez… maybe not… i’m juz so impt man…. hahahaha

i’m busy too lar… so y am i blogging… hey.. it’s like de-stress for me… right… i’m not stressed lar…. i’m juz bz… and lazy.. yeah right… i must be kidding.. u bet i am… hahahaha

period go away soon… ulcers go away now.. pimples go to BH… hahaha.. nono.. PIMPLES LEAVE US ALONE.. it’s like A-L-O-N-E… pimples if u can raed… please.. get out of my sight… thanks ah… :psycho1

today during lunch.. my fren was saying “this is the time of the yr when i hope i have a teacher for bf.. he can help me with assignmments” .. i told her “like tt no gd… both bz…. ” haha.. then the rest of us were debating what kind of bf we shld haf to help us with work…. i kept quiet… coz i’ve got the answer…. hahaha….. it’s BH lor….. aren’t i sweet??? hahaha…………..

so much crap today…. i’m gonna slp………………………..

tHings to do:
1) study maths test for thursday!
2) error analysis due on next monday
3) science assignment with 1000word essay due next tues
4) website project due next friday
5) misc. work… damn it!

yes…………… belinda and chong qing went to SMU today… and CARYN got belinda’s autograph for me!!!! i’m like so happy!!!!! ahhhhh.. BELINDA LEE!!!!! :beam1 *dream*

shit.. still have lots to do… juz look at my pimples!!! what happened!!!! *covers my face* think i need to see a doc abt it man… :err1

saw this on ZH’s diary….i quite like the stories…

WHAT IS LOVE?

One day, Plato asked his teacher, “What is love? How can I find it?” His teacher answered, “There is a vast wheat field in front. Walk forward without turning back, and pick only one stalk. If you find the most magnificent stalk, then you have found love.”

Plato walked forward, and before long, he returned with empty hands, Having picked nothing.

His teacher asked, “Why did you not pick any stalk?”

Plato answered, “Because I could only pick once, and yet I could not turn back. I did find the most magnificent stalk, but did not know if there were any better ones ahead, so I did not pick it. As I walked further, the stalks that I saw were not as good as the earlier one, so I did not pick any in the end.”
His teacher then said, “And that is love.”

Conclusion: BH is not plato… haha… he was too implusive to pick up a stalk of wheat…

WHAT IS MARRIAGE?

On another day, Plato asked his teacher, “What is marriage? How can I find it?” His teacher answered, “There is a thriving forest in front. Walk forward without turning back, and chop down only one tree. If you find the tallest tree, then you have found love.”

Plato walked forward, and before long, he returned with a tree. The tree was not thriving, and it was not tall either. It was only an ordinary tree.

His teacher asked, “Why did you chop down such an ordinary tree?”

Plato answered, “Because of my previous experience. I walked halfway through the forest, but returned with empty hands. This time, I saw this tree, and I felt that it was not bad, so I chopped it down and brought it back. I did not want to miss the opportunity.”

His teacher then said, “And that is marriage.”

Conclusion: don’t tell me i belong to this category… he decides to forgo what is ahead and accepts me for who i am…

*to sum all these shit up… haha… i got a interesting site.. not tt i’m feeling horny… haha.. maybe i am… anyway….maybe it’s just blue balls!*

so fast sunday.. havent started on my major science assignment.. i mean.. why start so early… when you noe tt whatever u do.. cannot be as good as others.. might as well.. start last minute right??

yesterday, i really wanted to go out after doing my shitty work.. as usual.. BH came over.. yar.. he comes to my place every sat… rain or shine.. alot of work or no work… got mid-term or no mid-term… haha.. coz i’ll be too sianz to go out… so i was doing my work and he was doing my other work for me… and i really thot we cld finish early… which was wrong… coz…… he did something wrongly.. and i was v fed-up..actually.. i had no right to be angry.. coz he was the one who did the work.. and he shld feel more frustrated then me…but i was unreasonable.. and kept blaming him… geez…think BH was angry but he decided to keep quiet…and still be v good tempered with me…. and i really admire him for being able to do that… thanks so much….

at long last… we managed to finish the work.. and it was late… and so… we cld only say goodbye to watching WIMBLEDON.. we decided to watch TV instaed…. :pout1

special thanks to BH for being so tolerant…

this mks me wonder: are there other guys who are like BH? what is the limit to some1’s tolerance? why would some1 wanna put up with me? is that called ‘love?’

juz realised that… JAPAN holds one of the top 10 whale watching destination!

Shikoku, Japan

Shikoku is the smallest of the four main islands in the Japanese group and lies nestled in the Seto Inland Sea off the southeast coast of the main, and largest, island of Honshu. The mountainous island is one of the most rural areas of Japan and just happens to be an international trekker’s destination. A sequence of 88 temples circle the coast of the island. Walking this circuit is a famous pilgrimage and is unusual in that it’s a pilgrimage that doesn’t have a final goal. You walk a circle, beginning anywhere.

Seems like the perfect mindset for an encounter with whales. Several well-organized whale watching trips head out from fishing villages, conducted by the same people who used to hunt whales.

What you might see there: Bryde’s whales, sperm whales, minkes
When to go: All year
Viewing options: boat, shoreline

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sad man…. think… though we are going japan… it seems like i’m going there to breathe the air only lor…….. so many place to see… to explore… lack of time!! :err1

i hope that in future… we’ll like earn lots of money… then can travel every yr.. do something exciting… use up all money.. come back to s’pore.. work again… then travel… wowowow… isn’t it great?? no worries… yes… no kids too… haha

what about next year…. we’ll go New Zealand??

Kaikoura, New Zealand

You’ll find Kaikoura on the South Island of New Zealand. The waters here are both deep and rich in nutrients, making it one of the few places in the world where you can see sperm whales close to shore. Sperm whales are the longest and deepest diving of any cetacean; for the most part they inhabit deep water. Sperms are the Moby Dick whale. They were hunted for the waxy substance in their head, which does resemble sperm, and their plentiful blubber. From the bluffs here you can see the outlines of the whales, along with their especially powerful 15-foot “blows.” (As in, “thar she blows!”) But only the most-seasick prone will not want to take one of the many excellent whale watching cruises available here.

Just the Facts
What you might see there: Sperm whale, humpback, Hectors dolphin, Dusky dolphins, pilot whales, southern rights, minkes, seis and fins
When to go: All year
Viewing options: Boat, shore

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*Dreams* it’s like Dolphins can!!!!! Hope Bh quickly graduate.. earn lots of money….

*new song added!*
i did this myself… i was telling BH tt i cld be as gd as him… hahaha… juz tt i dun show it.. give him chance to show off mah.. haha.. can’t help it if i’m nice… heez…:beam1
enjoy the song!

只要你一笑 我就又都不介意 你对我任性
我竟然还觉得荣幸 不在乎爱情 会是自由的天敌
根本已经为你失去我平常的冷静 虽然我还不擅长
幸福这种东西 可是我真的很想 把所有你要的
都放在你的手心

爱像地心引力 无法抗拒 一吋一吋 深深的被你吸引
心碎也没关系 等待也都愿意 人群之中我只能看见你
爱像地心引力 没有空隙 一天一天 不见你也在想你
我在你的眼里 重新认识自己 在你面前原来微笑那么容易

我终于明白 那些孤单的夜里 寂寞的表情
是因为你还没靠近 原来我愿意 为等一个人淋雨
是你唤醒了我自己都不懂的深情 虽然我还不擅长
幸福这种东西 可是我真的很想 把所有你要的
都放在你的手心

爱像地心引力 无法抗拒 一吋一吋 深深的被你吸引
心碎也没关系 等待也都愿意 人群之中我只能看见你
爱像地心引力 没有空隙 一天一天 不见你也在想你
我在你的眼里 重新认识自己 在你面前原来微笑那么容易

虽然我还不擅长 幸福这种东西
可是我真的很想 把所有你要的 都放在你的手心

爱像地心引力 无法抗拒(无法抗拒)
一吋一吋 深深的被你吸引(深深被你吸引)
心碎也没关系 等待也都愿意
人群之中我只能看见你(只能看见你)
爱像地心引力 没有空隙(没有空隙)
一天一天 不见你也在想你(也在想你 想你)
我在你的眼里 重新认识自己
在你面前原来微笑那么容易(那么容易)

Bh came over juz now… after asian stories… my mum cooked chicken rice!!! my fave food… haha.. and when BH 1st came to my place for dinner 2yrs back.. my mum cooked this too! yummy!!! juz that this time… BH really buay paiseh lor… ask me to serve him!! think i maid ah… *shows sharp teeth* haha.. anyway… he’ll get tortured by me next time… watch out!! *gives an evil laugh*

haha… so the usual sat activity is BH coming over and helping me with maths… geez… it’s getting difficult man.. :psycho1

yes… amanda go do work…. you haven’t accomplished what u wanna do today!

today… BH is gonna go to sch… for some Asian Stories website… which i am not invlved in.. haha… it’s the Myanmar trip Post-Activity… so sadly speaking… we are not going out today!! :err1 which is gd lar… coz i got tonnes of work to do……… sianz…

haf a nice day everyone!

as above.. i feel so sianz.. tt pimple is like…………. causing my bad mood…. :err1

special thanks to BH for putting up the jukebox…

as usual… i have lots of work to do… let’s see… at the end of this week… things i need to do include:
1) 2 maths tutorial
2) Reflection for Farenheit 9/11 <-- i don't understand the show can 3) Analysis for Red Riding Hood 4) Refcection for EED 5) EED website ( the content lar.... haha... of corrs BH will do the site... heez) 6) study for bloody physics test... (I HATE SCIENCE!)
7) 1000 word science report (if possible… start on it!!! Read those shit u photocopied)

see… argh… anyway… there are more to go………………. :sad1

i’m gonna slp now…. tml’s lesson is like 8.30am!! :psycho1

i have lots to do….but too lazy to do anything… warm up with a survey 1st… haha.. :beam1

Name Four Things You Are Thinking About

Now :

1) shit lar… am i going to finish my work?
2) right.. how do i analyse the story ‘Little Red Riding hood’
3) is *that* cute guy gonna msg me? hahaha… sorry BH.. sinful thought… heez
4) hope my partner and i will pass for the next error analysis

Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought Today :

1) breakfast from Macs (1st time stepping onto NTU macs)
2) grammar analysis book.. which is $16

that’s all ..heez.. i’m thrifty!

Name the Four Drinks You Regularly Drink :
1) milk tea (nIE canteen)
2) Green tea
3) coffee
4) milo

Name the Four things You Wish To Have :
1) my pointy shoes..
2) abercrombie mini
3) off-shoulder top
4) my own house!

Add-ons:

Last 4 persons in your received calls list?
1)Felicia’s home
2) home
3) BH
4) xinyi (NIE fren)

no cute guys…

Last 4 persons in your missed calls list?
1) James (NIE fren)
2) Bh
3) huiying (NIE fren)
4) Sushan (NIE Fren)

no cute guys…again

Last 4 persons in your dialled calls list?
1) home
2) xinyi (NIE fren)
3) huiying (NIE fren)
4) adeline (NIe fren)

no cute guys…in fact.. i dun call guys… hahaha

Last sms received ?
Angelina (my prject mate)

Last sms sent ?
Angelina (as above)

Last pers0n chatted online with?
who else but my dearest… eudora…
told u i’m faithful.. haha

Last Time You Said ‘I Love You’ and to who?
so paiseh to say this… said it juz now on MRT home with BH.. :blush1

Last Time You Cried?
Last night… no lar.. Bh didn’t bully me… i felt guilty for bullying him.. haha

What’s Under Your Bed?
Nothing.. it’s very clean.. and there’s no snakes.. haha

Current Clothes
Haha.. PLMGSS CHEW HOUSE t-shirt with NYJC PE shorts… heez.. i love my schools

Current Desktop Picture:
Lion King ;p

Current Worry ?
Project… nv ending ones

Current Hate ?
I hate myself.. coz i don’t seem to be as good as others… and i’m getting FAT!

Favorite Physical Feature Of The Opposite Sex?
heeez… a nice smile with nice dimples!

Favourite Place To Be?
at home ;p

Least Favorite Place?
in town where it’s so crowded when everyone is blockng my way!or a place where there’s kids crying.. and screaming…

Favorite Color(s)?
Red.. orange… blue..brown.. black.. haha… i love colours!

Do You Believe In An Afterlife ?
No

Current Favorite Word/Saying?
Big asshole… go eat shit lar…

One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could be?
nobody’s as good as BH 🙂 awwwwww… so sweet… heeez

Favorite Day?
Holiday!!!

Favorite Car?
haha… got car good liaoz… dun need fave..

Favourite Cartoon Character?
it’s EEYORE!!!!

Favourite Food ?
Belgium chocoate ice-cream… crabs.. prawns…

Current favourite song?
iyoh.. alot lor…. i’m bored of this song on my blog already.. haha

What do you like to do most?
going out… taking a stroll with BH… meeting up with friends… hahaha…

Do you like to eat fish or chicken?
chicken…

Do you like to complete your homeworks in school or at home?
homework.. is supposed to be HOME work mah… hahaha… in school if possible… else no choice… at HOME lor

Do you skip school often ?
no.. i’m so guai! 🙂