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heeez.. pics to show u my really pretty lovely earrings…and i love it alot… it’s vday gift from BH.. of corrs.. i told him i like it and he got it for me… heeez… the pt is dun u see the earrings like that.. it’s quite ex… heeez.. the most ex earrings i ever had from last 2yrs till how….and… BH is VERY generous! he dun mind spending $$ if it mks me feel pretty.. wahaha… thanks darling! :blush1

rem the GREEN hollister bag BH bought for me? *again* yeah! i brought it out today… i love that bag actually… though it’s not ve worth the money?? BUT the pt is… it’s UNIQUE!!! heeez.. and the handle is so big that i can put it over my shoulders… :beam1

haha… paiseh if i seem so narcissistic… heeez… it’s such simple pleasure that makes me happy okie…

and i’m really thankful tt BH is taking up tuition…in this way, he’ll have MORE $$ to spend on me! :wink1 wahaha… and it sure feels gd that he’s paying for my meals .. haha.. BUT i still insist on going dutch… heez.. so.. i’m not exactly tking advantage of him! :grin1

well well…. monday.. i got to go back to xinmin for a talk… what’s holidays man!

wahaha.. allow me to drool about the really cute TA = Technology assistant at Xinmin Primary! wahahaha… i think he’s cute lar…. :beam1 so everyday i’ll go to sch.. hoping to see him.. then my heart will beat v fast…

like last night… meet the parents session… i was on the 3rd floor and he was on the 4th floor… then the office called for him… i looked up.. and he smiled at me… i thot i cld die can.. coz he’s cute!! and my heart nearly melted!!! wahahaha… okok.. he doesn’t have dimples..

today i went back to sch for staff meeting.. and he went also… wowow… he was holding onto the videocam… filming the teachers… so cool can!!!! :blush1 so i was waiting and waiting for him to come and talk to me lar… wahahaha… i hope he’s not attached… heeez…

anyway…so i thought about it liaoz… this TA is a good investment… coz… he can repair computers also + help me with my work :wink1

hahaha… fear not… BH is in sch now… and he’ll be going for tuition later then meeting me… soooooooooooo.. most probably.. he’ll be tooooooooo happy after he meet me.. coz i intend to be nice to him today… heeez… so this entry won’t mk much sense to him…

wahahahaha….. soooo cute!!! *daydreams*

i’m home… u may think that my day has ended? well… NO… not exactly… the day with my kids has ended… but the day with the parents of the class has just started! :err1

u may think why i need to meet the parents right?? that’s coz my bloody CT=cooperating teacher is on MC again!!! and she’s an indian! okok.. not that i’m racist or what ok… today i was teaching for the whole day…. and i only rested for 45mins… and it’s not really rest can.. my brain was working sooooooo hard… it was like “so.. what shld the kids do for computer lab lesson??” geeez…. it’s a bz day…

at 1pm… i thought my day had ended… BUT my CT didn’t key the CA marks into the computer yet… and the deadline is today…..so u noe who’s got to it.. it’s ME…

look at the time now.. i haven’t had lunch.. and i got to reach sch at 5.30pm to prepare for the meet-the-parents session….

u noe… at the end of the day… i noe my bzness was worthwhile… afew students came up to me and said ‘Miss Goh.. i really enjoyed the lesson today.. thank you…’ :beam1

it’s a bz week today… to emphasize on how bz…. it’s the first time for 1wk that i haven’t seen BH when both of us are soooooo bz with work! time pass so fast! tml i still have staff meeting at 8.30-12.30…. after which.. it’s time to rest and relax… :blank1

PS: i guided them to write a poem in their grps and present it to the class… their poems are interesting and hilarious… will try to put it up when i have time… :smile1

*need to do lesson planning during march holidays.. a pile of ws waiting for me to mark… poems need to be marked too…need to write reflection on my lesson* :psycho1

geeez… i think i did lots of work today! and what i have left is 2 science lesson plans = 4 periods = 1 ppt presentation = come home from sch tml cannot slack must do… :blank1

i pray hard and hope tt i won’t be scolded coz i forgot to tell the kids that there’s no spelling tml… :err1 i pray even harder that no1 will backstab me that i am an inefficent trainee.. who cannot control a class…. :psycho1

anyway… i am one of those assholes who read other pple’s blog = NIE friends… and i know abit more abt their personal life.. and i’ll juz pretend i dunno… of corrs… they dun know tt i’m reading their blogs… :blush1 mayb they are reading mine too… and they juz didn’t tag or tell me about it… geeez…

so.. after reading some1’s blog… i concluded that…. in future… if some1 were to propose to me… he’ll need to bring along several things..
A) a EXPENSIVE DIAMOND ring with the whatever certificate from a good jewellery shop
B) flowers *for atmosphere sake*
C) bank book * to check if he is financially stable*
D) car keys * to show that i am the BOSS.. and i will lead him* :wink1 optional
E) sub a credit card *if he had not done so in the process of courtship*

wahahaha… high expectations ah…. soooooooooooo the ‘one’ may not be BH afterall… unless.. he works really really hard… :beam1

besides pts A – E…i need a guy who’s able to:
1) wait 3hrs for me w/o complains to juz get ready to go out
2) take away chicken bones and skin for me
3) remove fish bones so that i could eat the fish w/o worries
4) think that i’m the prettiest gal in the whole white world even if i look terrible with eye bags and a big pimple
5) accompany me even when he’s soooooo tired
6) put me above everything else
7) withstand my biting when i’m feel so mad with him
8) listen to me scold him for no reasons
9) shower me with big big big presents even when he’s low in cash
10) exchange his delicious food with my disgusting looking food
11) suffer in silence so that i’ll be happy
12) put down his pride and ego juz to listen to me

heeez… believe it or not… i found the person with pts 1-12.. aren’t you shocked! :yum1 yeah man.. it’s very HARD on him….

hope to have a good day at school..

juz when i thot everything was well on friday’s lesson.. i realised that i forgot to tell the class that there is NO SPELLING on monday!!!! argh….. i soooo wanna die.. i think the pupils will hate me for this… coz they’ll learn for nothing… and still nvm… my CT will think tt i’m such a lousy tcher.. coz… i can’t even pass the msg to the class…. HOW!!!! BUT why did i forget????? coz i had a million and one things to rem… and ‘no spelling’ on monday doesn’t seem that impt for my brain!!!!

evidence to show tt i am a BAD teacher:
1) i forgot to tell the class there is ‘NO SPELLING’
2) i can’t control a noisy class
3) i had no idea how to play games with a class.. and yet they’ll be quiet at the same time
4) the DM or another teacher caught pupils from my relieve class being noisy and naughty..when i am IN the class…
5) i overheard pupils saying ‘this tcher so lousy one’
6) i dunno the correct answers to sci questions
7) i can’t spell ‘laundry’ and ‘hydroponics’ untill my pupils told me how…

I AM THE WORST TEACHER IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD

i dunno how can other trainee teachers can don’t think about school when they are home.. maybe they have a life.. and i’ve got no life…. or maybe they are juz better than me….

KILL ME… I AM THE WORST

after a series of unfortunate events in school… i’ve decided to watch the movie ‘Lemony Snicket’s A Series of Unfortunate Events’.. well..watching movie is a big big thing… coz i will NEVER wanna spend $8.50 on a show… nvtheless… i really like the show… i like how the narrator speaks to us, the audience.. and it feels really authentic.. especially the snake part…. geeez.. if u watch it u’ll know.. :beam1

so.. since, the very thrify amanda spent $8.50 on a show… u better watch it too.. coz i dun watch bad shows…. heeez… next show to watch is Pooh’s Heffalump!!!

Heffalump is soooooooooo cute…. i set him as my wallpaper already!!! :beam1
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sch today was ok… juz tt my CT didn’t come… so i took over all the classes… so from 7.30-12.50…i only had 45mins of rest… i spent 1 period with the EM3.. which was not too bad…except 1 boy got caught by the tcher from the next class… i hope i won’t get into trouble for this then spent the other 8 periods with my rightful practicum class…

i like my own class…. they are very well-behaved.. and they know the limits of their noise level… so… i brought them to computer lab… get them to look for poems… and they found the poems.. wrote it down on blank pieces of paper i gave them… and even decorated it…. the boys did the poems too… but they were more interested in playing games…. caught 2 boys playing some fighting game… i juz need to rationalise with them and warn them to close the window in 1min… and they did!!! :tongue1 wow….gd class!

did sci workbook with the kids… they were really good and smart in sci… i feel so inferior of my content knowledge in sci.. not even that…. pupils even need to help me to spell ‘laundry’ and ‘hydroponics’… i admitted i dunno how to spell.. so the kids spelt it for me… i’m v impressed… i juz hope tt they will not think that i’m a lousy teacher…

overall… it’s a great day today… compared to yesterday… yesterday was a hell day.. and i dun really wanna talk abt it…. yar.. maybe coz i was looking forward to see BH after sch tt’s why… :smile1

right… time to slp now…. this wkend is dedicated to Lesson plans and powerpt slides.. *sigh*

geez. juz got back from sch… i feel tired…. hmm… sch is tiring lar… i didnt do invigilation today… BUT i got to do invigilation tml…

i am so angry with that bloody class that i’ve been relieving for the longest time… that class is a living HELL… it’s a P3 class…it’s damn noisy… the boys shout at the top of their voice and treat the class like a playground.. the worst thing is.. they are not afraid of me… no matter how fierce i am.. yes.. i gave them a BLACK face when i entered their class for the very 1st time… BUT it juz didn’t work….

to top it up…. i took them for like 3hrs yesterday.. 1.5hrs today…. it’s HELL… i thot i cld die.. coz those BOYS were playing with insects!!!!! :pout1 those insects were v disgusting ok! and i got the boys to surrender them… yucks! but i still got to act brave…. and luckily it was the last period.. i got that naughty boy to put those insects back to the place he caught them…

today… they didn’t play wif insects… BUT they played with plasticine and glitter…. argh…. it’s ok if they dun mk too much noise… BUT it’s HELL…

let me tell u.. i have a bloody ulcer at my mouth and it mks it hard to speak too… the ulcer hurts…….yes… the living pains of a teacher…

HOWEVER, i can’t help but to think tt teaching is quite a gd job…
1) stable income
2) least likely to be retrenched
3) children are easier to deal with than adults
4) morning session can go home early…. after session can go sch later
5) things u need to do… lesson plans.. admin stuff… attend meeting…
6) 5 day week
7) good bonus…

what’s so bad abt teaching?? i’m sure i’ll get the hang of things…. like… in future if i have more experience.. Lesson planning will be easier.. children will be afraid of me coz i’m a permanent teacher… admin stuff i’ll be able to handle coz i dun have any family commitments…. i can have all the time i want on my work…i have nothing to lose :beam1

yes… i’m sure BH dun mind a busy me.. :beam1 coz i’ll not disturb him that much… furthermore, he will be bz as it’s his last 1.5 yrs before he graduate… and then he’ll probably be bz with work.. and i’ll be bz completing my bond….

yupz…. my life is good…. i shld count my blessings :beam1

i always pity those teachers with kids… coz they need to worry abt their health when they are sick…. and they got a family life… and being young parents.. they’ll have lots of bills to pay…

so i was telling BH that…. IF and only IF we are gonna be together in future…. i’ll work to get my monthly pay…. though the pay is low… i’m not gonna tk up extra jobs and give myself unnecessary stress… yes.. i’ll try to get promoted though… heeez…. the pt is i’m willing to save-up every single cent of my pay… wahahaha… a slow way to get rich… BUT if BH work… then i can leech from him… anyway, he MUST sub me a Credit Card! :wink1

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things i have to bear in mind….

English
1) every 3 units pupils need to do 4 compositions( 1 from WB, 3 from outseide ( situation or picture with a qn mark)
2) of the 4 compos… 1 compo must involve peer editing
3) do exercise from homework bk after a topic is being taught (give pupils as hw)

quite manageable i think…

every 2 weeks have to do a lesson plan schedule + reflection on the lessons…. for every lesson i need a lesson plan…BUT the schedule is part of my lesson plan already…

right… not so bad for the planning part….

the bottomline…………. I WILL SURVIVE :grin1

hope ulcer will be alright soon… :mad1

this week is CA week… all lessons are suspended.. which is good.. :beam1 soooo some teachers didn’t come.. and i need to go for relieve… it was the 1st time i collected the scripts… sat in class staring at the kids for 1h 15mins… collecting the scripts.. counting the scripts… submiting the scripts… geeez.. u get the idea?? haha.. if you r thinking tt it’s fun…. think again… it’s boring i tell u! :err1 teacher dun enjoy themselves when pupils are having CA okie!

anyway…i managed to do some of my lesson planning.. which is good… BUT i didn’t know how to align my text in MS Excel… *looks at BH with big round eyes* i know he’ll help me :blush1

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ysterday was SUNDAY right? went with my family to Evolution Garden at Botanical Gardens.. HEY!! it’s a nice place.. and a must go okie!!! i really like the evolution garden.. think it’s very nicely made… pics are on my sis cam.. else can put up…

after evolution garden.. we went to BIrd Park! yes.. the one at JURONG.. where else… haha… it seems like we were re-living our childhood games… i LOVE the Lory garden!!! it’s sooooooo nice!!! and the birds are sooooooo friendly…. haha.. i love the Pelician Cove too!!! wow!!! those Pelicians are really nice!!! heeez… i wanna buy a packet of fish for $2 to feed them.. BUT i parents warned me not too… coz it’ll stink my hands.. and maybe the car??? :pout1 But….. i wanna feed the Pelicians!!!!! heez..

sooooooo… i went out for almost the whole day.. it’s tiring lor..

FUN = alot alot alot
Work done = NONE

yupz… got to do work later… :grin1

geez.. my CT told me start science lesson today.. juz for the ‘feel’ of it…yeah.. i prepared for it k.. coz i was suppose to revise the unit of water with them.. which i did the ppt slides last yr.. and i’m proud of it… yeah.. so the pt is.. i’m quite bad at sci lar…. so this pupil ask me… ‘is snow a solid?’ i was dumbstuck… :blank1 after lesson.. my CT told me tt it is… *bang head* geeez… told my sis abt it.. and she said i was soooooo dumb.. which is true lar…

so… this high ability class is so different from last yr… coz…… they are very dependent on the tcher… i was going thru this qn on the wb… and we discussed the ans… BUT they look up and me.. expecting me to tell them the answer… i was like ‘yar.. tk ur pen and write.. i’m not giving u the ans..’ so… some wrote.. but others looked blur… i asked my CT… and she said she’ll write down thw sentence for them and they fill in the blank….. hmm…. okok.. i didn’t know this… coz……… i haven’t observed her teach science! :eek1 it’s the 1st lesson.. and i hope my CT don’t doubt my ability… :pout1 and i’m MUST do much better for my next lesson….

anyway… this gal in class actually told me tt i look nicer with my hair down.. heeez.. coz i tied my hair up today… coz teaching mah… :wink1 wow… so fast wanna curry flavour me liaoz…

i went for relief lesson in a primary 3 class… which i absolultely hate… coz they are really noisy…. as it contains pupils tt i taught last yr… so some were like ‘Ms Goh… do u remeber me?’ … and rem my dun be friendly to kids policy??? wahaha… i was like ‘NO NO No! ‘.. so today… i kinda totured them.. coz they were supposed to go for music lesson and they made so much noise juz by lining up.. so i got them to go in and out of the classroom till they are quiet… heez… quite effective by the way…

then i went for relief in a Primary 6 class… and they were like ‘teacher… can play game..’ so i’m like… ‘i dunno how to play game… i only know how to give homework… u all want? ‘ :mad1 yeah… so tt was my day….

hahaha… i wish tt 1 day i’ll become the discipline mistress… what do ya think? :wink1

*the VP remembered my name… he saw me signing out at the office.. and he was like ‘Hi amanda! going home?’ * i hope no1 made major complains abt me tt made him noe my name…

NOTE: A SENSELESS ENTRY.. coz i need love and i’m not getting any…

it’s one of those days that i sooo wanna be loved…. hmm…. and i’m so envious of pple who are able to find true love… all but me… while all girls wld be so touched and happy tt the bf cld play the guitar and sing ‘grow old with you’.. i am like… ‘ are you tone-deaf or something…’ yes.. i am that bad… :eek1 to think that when i was younger.. i was innocent and i wanted a bf who cld listen to me… talk to me… accompany me…. play the guitar…blah blah… u muz be thinking… ‘isn’t BH the one?’ hmm.. yeah.. tt was when i’m younger….. times have changed man….my bf need to be able to satisfy me in a MATERIAL sense… haha… not juz the above….so…i feel he’s not gd enuff for me…. yeah.. i’m high maintenance emotionally and materialistically know… wahahaha… hey.. pretty girls come with a price.. :blush1 juz joking…

my fave part abt BH is… torturing him… and he doesn’t really get angry… even if he’s angry… i’ll juz give him a hug or something.. and he’ll be alright… see… low maintenance bf… wahaha… tt’s y we go together…

so today.. he came to fetch me after school.. and i wanted to go home and change b4 going out for lunch… soooo i went home… and the weather was so hot… and there wasn’t any1 at home… soooooooooo i got him to wait for me downstairs.. in the soooooooo warm weather…. and i took my own sweet time to prepare.. geez.. the moment i open the door… i saw my BH looking up at me from downstairs.. wahahaha… a faithful dog….. not bad..not bad…

i wonder if i really drove him to his limits b4….

i know… i drive him crazy all the time…. :wink1