juz got my posting… and i didn’t get posted to the school of my practicum…
it is Catholic High School…
all boys school…. which sucks big time… :blank1
i think i wanna appeal.. what do you think? heard any rumours?
geeeeeeeeez…… the world hates me….
i guess.. God wanna teach me a lesson coz i didn’t go to church for sooooo long…
Caution: VERY long entry… Read when you have nothing better to do
The Keys to Your Heart |
| You are attracted to those who have a split personality – cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. |
| In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. |
| You’d like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything! |
| You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. |
| Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything… no secrets. |
| Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
| You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. |
| In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. |
got it from caryn’s and zhihui’s blogs… :beam1 oh well… somehow.. it’s quite accurate… haha.. though i dun look like the type that will remain commited to my partner…i admit i look at guys and lust after them.. and i’m always on the look-out for better guys… BUT Looking and doing are very different things..:blush1 haha…
today i started the day by meeting BH in the morning… coz it’s my baby’s 1st day of work.. and seriously speaking.. i feel so nervous and anxious for him… yupz… waited awhile for him at serangoon station.. and i was soooooooo scared tt he’ll look sucky… luckily, he didn’t.. i thought he looked delicious:yum1 you know.. those normal l/s shirt and pants… not bad lar… heeez… i like guys when they wear formally…
kill me… coz i thot of ‘love at dolphin bay’ — yi tian bian and zeya.. except BH was the skinny version of zeya w/o the blazer… and not good looking….haha… soooo i wanted to do the hug from the back thingy from the show.. BUT the train was tooooo crowded… and the time is not right… geeeeeeez…. i shld put my fantasy aside 1st… haha…. later he not responsive… i’ll feel sooo rejected… heeeez…. dun get what i’m talking abt?? nvm.. it’s not impt… it’s a little gal fantasy kinda thingy…. :grin1
sooo.. i was alone after BH alighted at commonwealth.. really alone… alone in the bug LT when i reached school… my only comfort was the book — The Family Way by Tony Parsons.. by now u cld have figured out that i love this author… anyway…. i didn’t dare to eat much during the tea reception though i was hungry… argh… coz i muz watch my diet.. i think i shld bring a fruit to school like a pear which is 1 serving.. it’s healthier than other food… haha… my mum will be sooo encouraging to hear my healthy food plan… haha
the talk at NIE ended earlier than expected… which was good…coz i was bored sitting alone and i’m hungry and i was afraid that my tummy will be growling out loud… :blush1
after the talk… i realised that all my hope abt getting a crossover is diminished… coz… i’m definitely not good enough to get a DISTINCTION for my diploma.. and i see myself having no choice BUT to go into teaching this coming july…and probably tk up the advanced dip course… hoping to get into degree program with that…
oh well… i felt abit disapted… and once again.. i felt that i won’t have to face such sh*t if i were to do better in my A-levels… <-- is this the 1000th times that i've said this.... juz let me rant... i guess BH was right that something was obviously stopping me from doing better... i dunno why... BUT there's a barrier and i can't go over it.... it muz be afraid of FAILURE...afraid of what other pple might think.. or even being too dependent on BH? hmmm... i dunno... ________________________________________________ today is one of those days that i decided to be nice to BH... since talk ended early... i went to bukit merah thinking of lunching with BH...it was meant to be a surprise BUT on my way there… he msg and said that he’s lunching with his collegues… i was disapted… BUT i comforted myself “iyah.. nvm.. u go Ikea and walk walk lor… and buy some sauages for my little sis…” … “maybe i’ll drop when i see a nearest MRT station and mk my way home..”
but i went all the way to bukit merah in the end… heeez…. luckily when i was almost reaching.. BH called and told me his collegues all went their seperate ways… haha… luckily i didn’t alight from the bus…
ate lunch at his sucky canteen… with lots of ‘cheena-pe-ang’ coz of the james cooks university? did i get the name right? :eek1
oh well… told BH abt the crossover thingy and he was like … “after ur bond we can go australia.. you get ur degree.. i go work then we dun come back liaoz”.. i didn’t tell him this… BUT i was really glad to hear that… wahaha… i like the idea of starting a NEW life together and OUT of Singapore… :blush1 hmmm… it’s juz a dream… BUT back to reality.. it might not be possible? even after my bond.. BH proabaly have job commitments.. and he won’t leave S’pore then… tt’s what i think…
after lunch… i went off to Ikea alone.. walked around alone… and being alone nv felt sooooooo good… coz i was talking to myself in my head… and for a moment i wish my head is a typewriter.. so all my thots will be written out….. haha….maybe i was in a better mood today… i even wanted to go to bukit timah to look for the German Supermarket shiuan was talking about… juz that i dunno which part of bukit timah it’s located at…
Shiuan or anyone else who knows: Can you tell me where the german supermarket is located at?? thanks!:smile1
back to the part when i was alone…. i love to see the furnitures and i dream of how my future house will look like… haha… and i was thinking of a retro theme.. with a retro fridge and a retro clock… with retro chairs.. and our house will look sooo cool… did i say OUR? geeez… coz i was in a good mood… so surprising… whatever i was thinking got to do with ‘OUR’ = BH and me… wahaha… i’m sure BH will be cool abt this idea!
*mood subject to changes*
and… i realised that at the end of the day… a degree isn’t that impt… isn’t it? and i really appreciate Caryn’s MSN msg to me last night…. thanks.. :heart1
i shall end here… i think BH will say “Finally she stopped thinking for the day…” :zip1
wow! coincidentally… my 200th post is on Mother’s Day! :beam1
i’m a good gal today… i woke up early… went to the market with my mum…. well… i think my mum is wonderful… i bet everyone wld think that their mum is great too….:smile1
my sis and i bought her a fossil watch… and she loves it… and my dad think it’s aweful… coz he’s jealous… haha
something mushy for my mum.. i love to see her choosing prawns …. love to see her buying vege and how she cld speak to the vege vendor… love to look at the way she cook for our meals…. i love it when she rushes me out of the house coz she didn’t want me to be late… and how she’ll be waiting for my phone call juz to know tt i reached school safely… :blush1
ma, thanks for taking such good care of us… God bless you with good health and happiness…. and quit looking for job liaoz…. i give you $$ to spend…. lastly…thanks for treating BH like ur own… i :heart1 you.. :smile1
** my mum probably won’t read this.. BUT i juz wanna remember this feeling **
BH’s intern starts tml…. all the best! may this intern mark a bright new future for you! and like what i said… you can only get better :wink1 jia you! earn more $$ let me spend.. thanks! :tongue1
i think i need to go on a diet if i want a NEW and better bf…
coz i feel fat today… v fat…
luckily caryn and zhihui was like comforting me by saying it’s water retention coz of my period…
damn
yesterday night.. we went to Dragongate for ala-carte buffet…. it was quite bad lar… not as nice as the 1st time BH and i went… the food came really slowly… and it didn’t taste as nice as b4… maybe they changed the chef? or maybe coz too many pple… so the orders were kinda mixed up? like we waited for the oats meal prawns for like 2hrs!!:eek1
so… though the food sucked… we enjoyed ourselves… and my mum was in a super good mood coz BH got his mum to mk her 3 roses that is made up of beads! wow… it’s really nice… and my mum was very happy…
since BH can’t win my heart.. he decided to bribe my mother.. not a bad strategy at all….
anyway.. since BH got my mum something.. i got to get his mum something…:pout1 probably juz get a cake.. and i detest going to his place… :err1 geeez… BH is gonna kill me when he read this… and i can predict what’s he gonna say ” if you are not happy doing this.. then DON’T ” with a rooster look = unhappy fighting chicken look on his face… wahahaha…
oh… tell u a lame joke my sis made!
sis: where are you going to work?
BH: SPRING
sis: oh…… won’t that make u a SPRING chicken! wahahahaha
father: mei.. you are very bad you know! wahahahaha…
me: hey!!! i didn’t even think of that! good joke!
mum: dun disturb him lar…. <--- coz my mum was bribed by him...
yupz... tt's all for today's entry... will be meeting the F4 Kopitiam Gang tonight.. :beam1
took this pic…..
was thinking of particpating in this
BUT i didn’t in the end… coz… i dun wanna let the whole world noe abt my blog..:blush1
ohh… i’m gonna meet BH today BUT i feel sooooooooooo sianz…. sooooooooo lazy.. and there’s nothing for us to do.. except to walk ard aimlessly……. geeez..
if only we were in japan… still can go disneyland.. else can go other parts of japan….it’s like soooooo cool…. or if only we are much older… then can go for weekend getaway….
i feeeeeeeeel so lazy and my heart is itchy…. itching for some1 new??
“There’s lots of nice people in the world, a million people who you could fall in love with. But there’s only one person out there whose mouth is a perfect kiss” (Pg192-193, Man and Boy)
yupz… but how do i know what a perfect kiss is??
oh well.. i’m a thinker… i think alot… and tt’s what BH hates abt me… “amanda can your brain stop thinking for awhile”
it’s BH last day of exam today………… and his paper juz ended i think….
FINALLY!
sang by JJ and Jin Sa
还记得昨天，那个夏天，微风吹过的一瞬间
似乎吹翻一切，只剩寂寞跟沉淀；如今风依旧在吹
秋天的雨更碎心中的热却不退
仿佛继续闭着双眼 熟悉的脸又会浮现在眼前
蓝色的思念突然演变成了阳光的夏天
空气中的温暖不会很遥远，冬天也仿佛不在留恋
绿色的思念回首对我说一声四季不变
不过一起的时间又在回到从前那个被风吹过的夏天
嘿~记得昨天，那个夏天，微风吹过的一瞬间
似乎吹翻一切，只剩寂寞跟沉淀；风依旧在吹
秋天的雨更碎心中的热却不退
仿佛继续闭着双眼，熟悉的脸又浮现在眼前。
special thanks to Larene for… JJ CD!! :beam1
today is a OK day… coz… i woke up early to accompany my mum to polyclinic for a checkup… yeah… my mum’s perfectly fine.. yearly checkup is a precaution thingy…went to the clinic at sengkang … the polyclinic was filled with pple… and there’s lots of kids… argh.. so irritating…
somehow i feel tt the pple that lives in sengkang are ________ … fill in the blank urselves.. and i will NEVER wanna move into that area in future…. watever…. so i kinda dislike the person who helped my mum with registration… maybe coz it was early and i was really irritable… haha.. it was amazing tt my mum said that their service was good?…
anyhow, in future.. if i were to unfortunately have a child… i won’t bring HIM (coz if i’m gonna have a child… it’ll be a HE.. ) to polyclinic… haf to wait so long… wasting time noe…. might as well pay more to compensate for lost time…
haha… i can say these kinda shit now… BUT i think next time my opinions will be completely different from now liaoz… hahaha
sooooooooooo i called Dragongate to reserve for dinner.. i love the la-carte buffet there… and i think their service is quite good… soooooooo since BH and i went to test the food perviously and found tt it’s GOOD… i’m gonna bring my family there on friday… Mother’s Day Dinner…. :beam1 aren’t i a good girl???
later on i’ll be meeting my sis for the sneak perview of KINGDOM OF HEAVEN… yupz…. BH got the tix thru’ M1 sunperks pts… and since my sis wanna watch it… he kindly gave the tix to her… soooooooooo today i’m having a date with my most incredible sister…. and i love her so… of corrs.. i’ll treat her to a nice dinner… :beam1 though i think she’s gonna stink coz she’s got PE today… afternoon PE somemore :psycho1
oh.. and i bought 8days… with Fann on the cover page… not tt i like fann… BUT i think the bouquet of flowers in front is really cool…. my fave article is ‘Single and Fabulous’ wahaha… i love the qns tt they ask the celebrities…
here are the qns and MY ans…
Which do you prefer on your man: Boxers, briefs or G-strings?
got to be BOXERS!!! coz i think it’s soooo sexy… coz it’s FREE to roam…:blush1
Would you rather play a nurse, teacher. secretary or schoolgal in a guy’s fantasy?
oh well… any guys will LOVE a schoolgirl with uniform.. BUT i wanna be the TEACHER!!! so i can have things my way!
Are you expensive to maintain?
i think YES…. esp emotionally… haha.. and i love to buy earrings and buys online… and i’ll juz hint hint hint.. and most of the time i’ll get what i want
What’s the best thing a lover can do in the morning?
watch me as i wake up from slp… and give me a kiss on the forehead and say that ‘i’m he’s a lucky man.. coz he’s got me as his wife…’ and probably sayang me to slp again and he’ll go to the kitchen and mk breakfast for me… haha
What’s the most erotic thing a guy can wear?
got to be… surfer shorts with nothing underneath… heeee
Hot, sexy action or cosy cuddle?
haha… both… after cuddle then action lor
If you catch your boyfriend watching porn, you wld a) join him b) suggest you try the position next time c) dump his sorry ass
i’ll watch with him… and probably juz laugh off those really sick parts and mk fun of him like.. “wahahaha… u v shallow leh…. this kind of thing also will mk you high..” heeez… BUT i’m VERY confident that i’ll be much better than porn… and if i still catch him watching porn.. i’ll read those trashy novels and ignore him totally… “even pcitureless text can satisfy me better than you”
yupz… that’s all abt my boring life….