Caution: VERY long entry… Read when you have nothing better to do
The Keys to Your Heart |
| You are attracted to those who have a split personality – cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. |
| In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. |
| You’d like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything! |
| You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. |
| Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything… no secrets. |
| Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
| You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. |
| In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. |
got it from caryn’s and zhihui’s blogs… :beam1 oh well… somehow.. it’s quite accurate… haha.. though i dun look like the type that will remain commited to my partner…i admit i look at guys and lust after them.. and i’m always on the look-out for better guys… BUT Looking and doing are very different things..:blush1 haha…
today i started the day by meeting BH in the morning… coz it’s my baby’s 1st day of work.. and seriously speaking.. i feel so nervous and anxious for him… yupz… waited awhile for him at serangoon station.. and i was soooooooo scared tt he’ll look sucky… luckily, he didn’t.. i thought he looked delicious:yum1 you know.. those normal l/s shirt and pants… not bad lar… heeez… i like guys when they wear formally…
kill me… coz i thot of ‘love at dolphin bay’ — yi tian bian and zeya.. except BH was the skinny version of zeya w/o the blazer… and not good looking….haha… soooo i wanted to do the hug from the back thingy from the show.. BUT the train was tooooo crowded… and the time is not right… geeeeeeez…. i shld put my fantasy aside 1st… haha…. later he not responsive… i’ll feel sooo rejected… heeeez…. dun get what i’m talking abt?? nvm.. it’s not impt… it’s a little gal fantasy kinda thingy…. :grin1
sooo.. i was alone after BH alighted at commonwealth.. really alone… alone in the bug LT when i reached school… my only comfort was the book — The Family Way by Tony Parsons.. by now u cld have figured out that i love this author… anyway…. i didn’t dare to eat much during the tea reception though i was hungry… argh… coz i muz watch my diet.. i think i shld bring a fruit to school like a pear which is 1 serving.. it’s healthier than other food… haha… my mum will be sooo encouraging to hear my healthy food plan… haha
the talk at NIE ended earlier than expected… which was good…coz i was bored sitting alone and i’m hungry and i was afraid that my tummy will be growling out loud… :blush1
after the talk… i realised that all my hope abt getting a crossover is diminished… coz… i’m definitely not good enough to get a DISTINCTION for my diploma.. and i see myself having no choice BUT to go into teaching this coming july…and probably tk up the advanced dip course… hoping to get into degree program with that…
oh well… i felt abit disapted… and once again.. i felt that i won’t have to face such sh*t if i were to do better in my A-levels… <-- is this the 1000th times that i've said this.... juz let me rant... i guess BH was right that something was obviously stopping me from doing better... i dunno why... BUT there's a barrier and i can't go over it.... it muz be afraid of FAILURE...afraid of what other pple might think.. or even being too dependent on BH? hmmm... i dunno... ________________________________________________ today is one of those days that i decided to be nice to BH... since talk ended early... i went to bukit merah thinking of lunching with BH...it was meant to be a surprise BUT on my way there… he msg and said that he’s lunching with his collegues… i was disapted… BUT i comforted myself “iyah.. nvm.. u go Ikea and walk walk lor… and buy some sauages for my little sis…” … “maybe i’ll drop when i see a nearest MRT station and mk my way home..”
but i went all the way to bukit merah in the end… heeez…. luckily when i was almost reaching.. BH called and told me his collegues all went their seperate ways… haha… luckily i didn’t alight from the bus…
ate lunch at his sucky canteen… with lots of ‘cheena-pe-ang’ coz of the james cooks university? did i get the name right? :eek1
oh well… told BH abt the crossover thingy and he was like … “after ur bond we can go australia.. you get ur degree.. i go work then we dun come back liaoz”.. i didn’t tell him this… BUT i was really glad to hear that… wahaha… i like the idea of starting a NEW life together and OUT of Singapore… :blush1 hmmm… it’s juz a dream… BUT back to reality.. it might not be possible? even after my bond.. BH proabaly have job commitments.. and he won’t leave S’pore then… tt’s what i think…
after lunch… i went off to Ikea alone.. walked around alone… and being alone nv felt sooooooo good… coz i was talking to myself in my head… and for a moment i wish my head is a typewriter.. so all my thots will be written out….. haha….maybe i was in a better mood today… i even wanted to go to bukit timah to look for the German Supermarket shiuan was talking about… juz that i dunno which part of bukit timah it’s located at…
Shiuan or anyone else who knows: Can you tell me where the german supermarket is located at?? thanks!:smile1
back to the part when i was alone…. i love to see the furnitures and i dream of how my future house will look like… haha… and i was thinking of a retro theme.. with a retro fridge and a retro clock… with retro chairs.. and our house will look sooo cool… did i say OUR? geeez… coz i was in a good mood… so surprising… whatever i was thinking got to do with ‘OUR’ = BH and me… wahaha… i’m sure BH will be cool abt this idea!
*mood subject to changes*
and… i realised that at the end of the day… a degree isn’t that impt… isn’t it? and i really appreciate Caryn’s MSN msg to me last night…. thanks.. :heart1
i shall end here… i think BH will say “Finally she stopped thinking for the day…” :zip1
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