Secret

had my calculus quiz today…. and noe what? there were 4 qns… and i spotted 1 of the qns!!! mind you.. it’s EXACTLY the same… and i even went to ask the tutor how to do it!!!! and he even told me how to do it…. :rant:

anyway….i did the qn tt i spotted WRONGLY!!! *bang wall* sooooooo i only got 2 qns right…. damn… it cld have been 3qns lar… now i at most can get 10/20 :pout1 cannot even compensate for my terrible rlts in the 1st quiz… BUT.. on the brighter note, i improved by 7marks can…

have to take things slowly… 1 step at the time… and special thanks to BH for buying the calculus worked solutions book for me… tt bk is a life-saver man.. the qns… came out from there! :wink1 and it’s my little secret….

No. theory test on thurs… it’s a killer man… :oogle:

Bh is having a fever now… hope it’s not dengue… and get well soon!!!

btw… some tried to commit suicide in sch today… :cuckoo: i’m serious!!! he wanna jump down the building can!!!! heard tt he’s married with a kid… shotgun marriage…. and he’s in chinese specialisation…. anymore juicy details?

need to slp now… feel tt headache is coming…

HOW can tell some1 not to call me…. like i don’t feel like helping her for maths… how can i tell her tt? in a tactful way…..

think abt it and tell me…

oh… the reason is… helping pple is sooooooooooo time-consuming… and it only poses more qns… since, i’m not an expert anyway

Bh came over today… then the 3 of us were watching the jap show, Be with You… oh well… thot tt it was a super sweet show… i was the 1st to cry…. :mad1 coz i thot it was super sweet…..

my fave part is the part where the girl was cold… and the guy ask the girl to put her hand in his jacket then he put his in the jacket and held her hand… i thot it was super sweet… like honey can… Bh didn’t even do tt when i’m cold… :pout1 i was trying to recall what’s the sweetest gesture BH did… BUT i can’t thnk of any now…. :sad1

so i was crying till my eyes feel soooooo tired now… coz…. it’s sooooo touching in the end…. somehow… i feel that the short sex scene was redundant… :thumbdown:

nice nice show….

be with me ok? :blush1

you know… amanda is the best… she’s the kindest…..most caring… super soft…. extremely egoistic… and she loves to thnk she’s the prettiest girl in the whole wide world and she likes to be treated like a princess like what all girls do… right? right? right?

soooooo being really sweet….she msg her wonderful NIE maths frens… which includes 3 girls and 1 guy….thinking of having a wonderful lunch with them “shall we meet at the bridge at 11am for lunch b4 meeting prof XXX” ….. all replied to her enthusiastically except the guy… who’s not good looking and not rich…(anyway, she was late for the meeting.. wahahaha)

so.. this guy went to call my fren…. ” did amanda msg you to meet at the bridge ?” oh my gawd!!!!!!!! he thinks tt ME ME ME will like him……… come on…. :cuckoo: you r MAD….

it’s the joke of the day… and of corrs… an UGLY misunderstanding…

sometimes, when one is upset or rather suffer a setback or rather out of love… will cut their hair short… BUT……… i juz cut my hair short and i’m still very much in love… :heart1 :beam1

heeez… yar lar.. my hair was far too long… and hard to manage… and singapore’s weather is too hot.. so i cut it to abt shoulder length… still can tie… however, the ponytail is short and cute? haha… well, and of corrs BH doesn’t mind… he thot i look good… as always… hahaha…. tt’s y i’m sooooooo egoistic…

went to make specs today… my specs look good… and i thot it’s really cool… seeing how cool i look… BH needed to mk specs too…juz to keep up with me… wahahaha… so we’ll be a cooooooool couple… heeeeez…

i really enjoyed my day today… woke up early… mk my specs… collected Bh’s new passport.. which i thot he looks good in the pic… went to bugis and walked to eat our fave Blanco Court Prawn Noodles… walked ard in Arab Street… went to Chinatown…. go and cut hair at hougang… play badminton.. eat delicious food at my place… watch TV together…. nice… :wink1

these few days, i really learn to appreciate having BH ard…and it freaks him out when i’m super nice to him… i juz suddenly think he’s wonderful…. and i’m so glad to have him…. :smile1

haha… read zhihui’s blog entry.. it’s really interesting…. and you knoe what.. i really admire her for being soooooo reflective… coz… though i thnk alot sometimes…. my reflection can nv be as good as hers… heeez… :thumbup:

so i felt kinda guilty when i read her article… i’m i’m those kinda woman who wanna get married BUT dun wanna have kids… haha… or rather haf kids only when i’m OLDER…

on the other hand, i’m afraid tt IF i have someone of my own… i may juz eat the person up every night… which may rlt to a kid by accident… sooooooooooo i cannot get married early… hahaha….

i must quote an incident… BH and i were in a food court, we saw this man, who’s quite young.. and he already haf one kid… and the wife is pregnant again! BH and i were like gossiping abt them… haha… v bad right? coz i think the woman look quite awful after giving birth to child… i mean… she obviously look older than the husband can….

can you imagine if u marry early.. haf kids young then you look older than ur husband… worst is… ur husband thinks tt u r ugly and he no longer hold ur hand in public anymore???

so as much as i really wanna have a son… and have all the energy to play with him… i dun wanna haf a kid young…. HOWEVER, i think things wld change coz…….. i dun think i can teach for 5yrs straight w/o taking a break… the longest break i can take from work is….. MATERNITY LEAVE.. :sad1 hahaha… sooooooo i predict tt i may haf a kid b4 28yrs old…. and i’ll probably be those kind of parent tt will leave my kid with my parents (preferably) and enjoy couplehood still… hehehe….

oh well…. but then again…. i still didn’t find the BEST candidate for the father of my SON yet! hahaha

oh well… i went to the library with my sis once… we went to the lending section at B1.. today, BH and i went to L7… that’s where all the reference books are.. the books are good… i mean… if u wanna do research… u can find almost everything there… and there’s a photocopying corner where u can photocpy ur stuff…

anyway.. the pt is.. i was fuming mad with the bloody security guard… damn him…. that asshole malay guy…. i was juz holding some notes… and he insisted tt i can’t go in with the notes…. and we told them we already put ur stuff in the locker already… noe what he say ” tt’s too bad.. who ask u all nv read properly b4 u put ur things in the locker” YOU OUGHT TO DIE AND BURN IN HELL… i mean… why can’t he close one eye… tt asshole…. i was sooooo angry tt i have no mood what-so-ever to do my work…. argh….. what attitude he has……… sooo u pple better hide ur notes man… coz the security is extremely tight….

today was an so-so day…i really wanna revise my calculus… BUT my things were in my bag which was in the locker…. soooooo i only had my WRITING MATERIALS…. i had no choice… i had to do my research for that silly module… soooo i found several good books there… which i didnt see at NIE library… soooooooo i managed to do my research… and i found some good calculus books and i revised my maths… BUT still…. i felt tt i wasted my time…

come on… if it’s not for BH… i won’t even wanna go to that library today…

and i realised tt there’s a mk-up lecture tml…. i’m not going….. will anything happen to me? coz it’s like 1hr.. and i dun feel tt the lect is benefical for me……. hmmmmmmmmmm… hate to be in such dilemma..

i’m so glad that the recess is here.. i so needed a break from school and from anyone and everyone… and i so wanna spend time doing things i wanna do…which is catch up with my maths? so boring right…

i’ve written out a whole list of things to do there are 15 of them.. and 10 are work related…. :eek1

5 other things i need to do include:
1) i’ve figured out tt i really need new specs… coz i cant see clearly…. and my headaches are far too frequent… it’s the specs…
2) i need to do something to my hair… think i’ll cut it slightly shorter… i wanna try Digital Perm BUT i figured out tt it’s not worth it to do it now.. so i’ll juz perm it at the end of the yr… in time for xmas cum new yr… can save abit of $$
3) i wanna shape my eyebrowns… coz i think my face looks chubby… hopefully the eyebrown will help me look better
4) meet yuenmei for lunch… which i already confirmed with her :grin1
5)watch “be with you” with BH.. coz….. he badly wanna catch a movie… and i kept pushing it away.. coz it’s way toooo expensive

right…. soooooooo things need to go according to plan… and i muz haf the self-discipline.. else i won’t be getting honours man… somehow… BH words really strike me hard and it’s in my brains ” u need to get at least an average of B to get the honours” haiz.. i’m so scared tt i gone-case liaoz…. i even haf prob passing the maths quizzes lor… how to do well…

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on a lighter note… BH’s mum was fantastic.. she went to hongkong and she bought me this top which i love… coz it’s really shiny… which lots of beads type… haha…. well.. it’s costly in singapore can…. i sooooooooo wanna get some similar tops from topshop… BUT it’s $50+.. it’s such a waste to use the voucher… :shake: so i decided to save the voucher for a rainy day…

yes… the bad thing abt me is…… i can’t bear to part with my money.. so i hardly buy things… haha.. so.. most of the things i have is from BH :wink1 i’m sooooooo glad tt he’s willing to spend me on… no.. i didn’t force him can… heeez…

i feel that the most wonderful thng abt BH is… he loves to shop… haha…so there’s no prob of us going shopping together… and he’s always very generous with his compliments… heeeeeeeeez….

anyway.. i bought a nike t-shirt for $22.05! discount of 40% can!! coz it’s off-season sale… good deal ah… and it’s white and orange!!! sooooooooo nice!!!! with the words “love at 1st strike” printed on it… with a little angel holding the racket.. it’s soooooo nice!!! and i’m happy… haha…

was showing BH this .. a flipbook on Perth!!! don’t belinda look sooooooo good…. heeez… was hoping tt i cld be like her.. coz the photographs taken in the pic is really nice and sweet…. i like such natural shots…. hopefully in future can employ a photographer to take pics of me and my husband when we go on honeymoon… :smile1

right.. tt’s all… it’s a do-work day!

i am quite a cynic actually…

sometimes, i’ll feel super insecure and i start to question and be suspicious of pple ard me…

and my ulcers hurt v badly…

i can’t eat well and i can’t talk properly… and i’m a grumpy girl:pout1

let me tell u my deep dark secret…

i hate pple to call me on my handphone… esp pple who are from my maths class… coz i spend EVERY SINGLE weekday with them.. and i absolutely totally dun wanna talk 2 them on a weekend…

i hate it most when they call to ask me how to do maths questions… like ‘HELLO’ .. can’t u juz ask look into the mirror and ask “mirror mirrior on the wall, who’s the smartest of them all” the mirror will tell you ” it’s papaya!! the smartest of us all! ” geeez… soooooooooooo dun blame me if i didn’t ans ur call… i mean… it’s deliberate… i think BRAINSTORMING together is a WASTE of time… and since, we are going to school early to discuss.. WHY do you still need to consult pple man!!! CAN YOU PLS GO READ YOUR NOTES TO UNDERSTAND!

come on.. if i’m sooooooooooooo smart… i would have passed my number theory and calculus test.. damnit… and i HATE TO EXPLAIN THINGS TO PPLE AND TO FIND OUT THAT THEY PASS THE TEST AND I DIDN’T…

i’m too egoistic to ask
i’m too proud to learn
i’m too self-absorbed to teach

and i dun like to do things if i know that i dun gain something from it….

well… there’s a quote tt says “No MAN is an island” so this implies that “All women is an island”

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one more thing, what do u think of pple who are such show off???

i can’t tolerate it can….

it’s amazing how pple can show off her diamond ring to pple whom she juz knew.. and she’ll like ‘brag’ abt it… and i’m always ard her… and what i need to do is ‘ren’

right…. maybe i’m jealous so i feel this way.. BUT still…. i hate show-offs…

you know what… i need to survive 2yrs more…