for me, with regards to BGR, the biggest lesson i shld learn is ” Loving an imperfect person perfectly “ and being able to be ” satisfied “ or rather what Darrell wld say ” Zhi Zu ” with my partner.
like i blogged b4 or like how you noe me… i am very idealistic… i noe what i want in life…. the sad thing is… BGR are very complicated… i tried to use logic and to be practical like what i did in any other things…. it juz doesn’t work the same way… it’s very complex… and tt’s why i always dunno what i want in a relationship… juz say tt i’ve got a big ego.. or i have difficulty trusting some1 who’s close to me.. i can’t be confident if the person with me wld give me the type of ideal life i want..
i’m envious of others… and i have doubts bt BH… or rather i simply look down on him… saying things like ” we’ll nv get there ” , ” tt’s something which we’ll only dream about “… and BH gets really angry and annoyed when i’m like this… so the arguement starts.. ” y do you always look down on me “, well.. i was being practical… how cld owning a hse, owning a car be possible! nah.. it’s not possible to me… maybe financially possible…BUT it’s juz my heart feeling insecure and confused..
amazingly, BH is some1 who loves an imperfect person perfectly… i dunno how cld he look beyond my flaws, forgive n forget each time i hurt/humiliate/insult him badly… it cld mean 2 things i guess: 1) he really likes me alot 2) he realise tt he can’t find any1 better… hahaha
i wish i have 2 hearts… like how i have a left brain and a right brain… then my heart and my brain wld b balanced.. :grin1
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