Secret

isn’t it amazing when u realised tt other pple know you better than you know urself?

it happens to me… and i hate it when they cld tell what ugly thots i have in my little brain…

i wish to think tt i’m tt i’m NOT a possessive freak… BUT sometimes i cld get really insecure… probably PMS or maybe it’s tt ugly pimple on my face… so i was super upset tt BH is going out with his frens on a saturday night!!! HELLO!!! he is supposed to go out with me!!! i mean…we already haf plans like on tuesday.. way b4 his fren ask him out… right… so i HATE it when for the whole week, what you were looking forward to is that weekend.. BUT it needs to be ruined by some assholes… yes.. if you are BH’s frens reading MY blog, make sure you tell him in ADVANCE when you wanna meet up with him… he may have plans you know… damn it…

so.. i felt really sucky and sensitive… coz BH choose his frens over me… i mean… i dun think i’ll be like tt if it’s not for tt PIMPLE on the right cheek of my face… it’s super low morale can….. nvm…. stupid maths tutorials are also soooooooooo low morale…. the only real ego booaster is my ability to make BH’s bright and cheery day into a HELL day…. and i love it when i can upset him… the MORE upset he get.. the more KICK i have…

yes… u r right if u say i’m mad.. and i’m tt kinda fren tt u dun wanna be with :blank1 i always tell BH tt it’s a sooner or later thing tt we break up… haha.. i’m not a nice person to live with for a long period of time… oh.. and it’s also no wonder tt such a beautiful girl ( self-promclaimed when i don’t have pimples, do not have admirers) wahahaha :pout1

actually, i’m not exactly bad… i’m juz too implusive.. after the sh*t i said and done…i’ll reflect on my actions… and i think things wld be sooooo different if i use some TLC on BH… i cld have said something like “i really wish we cld spend sat. together… you can go out with them the next week… “ his heart wld have melted right on the spot…. oh well… this time, the thought didn’t count… actions does MATTER

my sis and mum who’s always the 3rd party…. wld read my mind and say “come on.. you juz wanna wear ur new clothes right… tt’s y it matters so much tt u wanna go out…” < --- which is true :blush1 amazing... _________________________________________________________ a weird dream.. i dreamt tt i was heavily pregnant... and the baby was going to be due soon... so i went to the doc ALONE ......and she did a ultrascan.... i can't tk it any longer (i didn't want to noe the gender of the baby previously) and ask her what's the gender of the baby... and she told me tt the baby is a girl! soooooo i got really upset coz i really wanted my baby to be a BOY!!! i was so angry tt i didn't wanna have my baby anymore... and the baby was coming out on the 1August... which i do not like the date coz i thot 2August was better... anyway, i woke up feeling really angry... and i wonder who's the father of the child in the dream... i didn't see any man leh... :sad1 and the man have bad sperm... tt's y i didn't get my son..and bad attitude coz he didn't accompany me to the doc...hahaha.... luckily, it's a DREAM!