i’m in one of those super irritatable moods today… i thnk i angered BH by my words which cut his heart into many pieces… but who cares… ‘as long as i’m happy’ that’s what he says… since he didn’t mind and still wld like to meet me and go out today… so be it…. yes… i shall tell my mum not to open the door for him…i’m gonna let him wait at my house void deck… under the hot weather… and i’ll take my own sweet time to prepare… then i’ll refuse to let him come near me… coz he will be perspiring and smelly…. wahahaha… how mean can i be… BUT do i look like i care??? :mad1
i asked BH… if he met any setbacks in his life before… he said… not really….i told him… “if i were to leave him 1 day… that would be a major setback for him..” isn’t it true?
yes…. BH is out for tuition… he won’t read this till he’s home tonight? hahaha… and when he see me later.. he’ll probably be too happy to be upset when he reads this….he’ll most likely smile at how silly i am… and wld even miss me more…. *looks at BH with innocent eyes*
that’s when i noe how much he loves me.. :heart1
anyway.. be glad tt i thot about all these stupid ideas… haha… it juz mean tt i won’t do it… coz i thought about it…. :wink1
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yesterday.. met up with XY and Fel at clarke quay… we went to Settlers Cafe at North Canal Road…well… i felt tt it was a cosy place to catch up with frens… play games.. and interact.. it’s better than playing dai dee.. u get what i mean? coz the games are much more interesting.. requires thinking and strategy…we spent about 3hrs there.. and managed to play a game only .. i forget the name… it’s a ticket or a trip something.. hmm… the pt is… it’s quite fun to play… and there are pple to teach u how to play the game! wowow… i like it… the games there are rather unique… coz i’ve nv seen them in toy shops before… and it’s rather costly… so.. overall.. it’s a GOOD concept and a great place to be at… the Settlers Cafe.. the price is reasonable… haha.. and if u r a SDU member… u’ll get 10% off… hmmm students will have special packages on weekdays too!!!
talking with XY and Fel… i felt abit sad.. they’re going to aust to study soon…. i’m so envious! haha.. think the pt is… i might miss them.. hmm… i wish i cld study abroad too…yeah…think it’ll tk me another 5 yrs… when pple are starting to work.. and earn big bucks… i’ll be studying? oo.. i’m so slow…
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i looked into the mirror today, and i looked ugly… BH is so not gonna haf a good time with me today… i’ll mk him suffer… and when i’m upset… i’ll mk sure he’s more upset then me…
if possible… i’ll like to abuse him…. bite him till he bleeds.. and beg me to stop…
wahahahaha… i’m such a saddist…
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i wonder what i’m getting for vday… i noe BH is getting Sound of music musical… we are watching the musical on mid-April…to celebrate the end of my practicum…. and my sis is coming along with us…
what else am i getting???? i really hope i won’t lugi lor…. coz i’m thinking of getting a watch for BH… coz if u all noticed.. he isn’t wearing a watch.. and it irritates the hell out of me when he looks at his hp to check the time… hello… it’s like soooooooo obvious….. and it’s like he can’t wait to go home or what… furthermore… a guy w/o a watch is not a guy… so not masculine…he looks sooooooooo sloppy can… sorry to other guys who dun wear watches… it’s just my personal opinion.. no offences man…
the watch i wanna get…. nice???? hmm… coz casio is having a sale on this model… i’m thinking of getting it… i got BH to try it…. and it looks ok?? i dunno… though i still feel that he’s toooooo skinny and not masculine…. the pt is… if i get the watch.. it will be the most expensive gift i ever got…. i’m in a dilemma coz it’s so silly for a girl to spend more on a guy…..and i hope he won’t get me puny ear stubs.. hello… do i look like i wear small ear stubs??
the watch is nice right???
maybe i’ll go get it at JP on monday… after my lesson….
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well… i used to like the 1st quarter of the year.. coz so many things is happening…
1) CNY
2) Vday
3) my bday
4) BH’s bday
5) our aniversary…
somehow… think i lose the enthu already….we need some spark in our r/s… tt’s what i always feel… somehow.. there’s no sweet and romantic feel… coz.. everything is juz stagnant… and I tk things for granted… coz of my mentality… “iyah… i don’t think BH will mind.. look at his face.. no girls will like”
yeah man… in future… it’s no wonder tt we aren’t together anymore….
LOVE isn’t important… MONEY is….
i ought to be shoot right…. :cool1
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