Secret

like the MTV.. esp. the last part, when they drew on the poster, v creative!

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion’s gone away
And I don’t need no carryin’ on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You’re faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life’s been way off line
You’re falling to pieces everytime
And I don’t need no carryin’ on

Cause you had a bad day
You’re taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don’t know
You tell me don’t lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don’t lie
You’re coming back down and you really don’t mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don’t need no carryin’ on

You had a bad day
You’re taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don’t know
You tell me don’t lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don’t lie
You’re coming back down and you really don’t mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I’m not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You’re taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don’t know
You tell me don’t lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You’ve seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day

suddenly recalled something..

on sunday, the one that juz past, BH and i were in town… so.. on our way to town… we met Shiuan on the train!!!!i find it so amazing tt of so many doors, y did she walked into tt door n met me! kekeke… Bh was like ‘tt girl looks like ur friend!’ i’m like… ‘yar! looks like shiuan can!’ … BUT the girl is like reading comics… so in my heart i was like … ‘cannot be… shiuan isn’t a comic fan…’ so…. i was observing her… and she is really shiuan can!!! coz i recognise her unique shoes!!! hehehe… so i called her name and she responded!!! hehehe…. and she was going to town to meet her date!!! no wonder she looked great esp. *there*!!! wahahahahahaha…. :grin1

in town, i met Darrell’s best friend, MARC lor!!! hehehe… it was really crowded and i saw him BUT i pretended not to see… and you noe what… he called out my name really loudly over the sea of pple!!! wah!!!! free publicity! BH was like ‘he’s trying to show off he noes alot of pple!’ which i agree? haha…

so it was the day i met some1 i loved and some1 i loathed! :blush1

btw… CLEO (August) is Juicy!!!! hehehe… as it includes — The Little Book of Naughty Moves! :beam1 so caryn what r u waiting for! wahaha.. i was reading the book and realise that dreaming of Snakes r a common reflection of our sexuality n sexual feelings! :eek1 i always dream of snakes man…

*this post is not to show off how gd my bf is… BUT to help myself to rem why are we together in the 1st place… *

i decided tt i shld rediscover BH again.. i looked at him from a different angle and recalled what mks him so different from the rest. oh well.. BH is not good looking… neither is he rich… he’s a very simple guy… precisely.. so simple tt nobody will thnk tt he’s outstanding which is an unfortunate thing…haha… but i guess tt mks me a special girl coz i did see the beauty out of a simple person.

i am someone who hides my feelings alot… i mean i don’t really like to talk abt BH to my frens…unless i dun have a choice…haha… even if i talk abt BH, most of the time also abt bad things.. right? heee… feel so guilty… so… i want to make loving someone as a decision, feeling is too shallow?

right… i don’t intend to write a chim entry coz it’s meant to be read simply.. as love is simple and thus, loving a simple person is even more simple… :smile1

Qualities abt BH which makes him a good bf: (things i discovered this weekend)

1) He is SHARING. i like it tt he not only loves me BUT he loves my family too. On sat, he treated my whole family for dinner! it’s nothing impressive coz it was those ‘zhu cao’ stall near my place BUT it’s the thots tt matters!

2) He is GENEROUS. After dinner on sat, my sis, BH and I took a long walk to Sheng Siong at Serangoon.. so my sis wanted to buy alot of snacks and we didn’t bring any money.. BH was like ‘juz buy, i can pay..’ .. we paid him back after we got home.. but once again… it’s the thots tt matters!

3) He takes care of me. Well… not tt i’m sick and he brought me to the doctor… BUT i realised tt BH is like my extra pair of eyes… sadly, i need 3pairs of eyes ( my eyes, Bh’s and my specs).. he wld tell me to be careful when i walk… not to step on puddles of water or wooden planks.. nice feeling to be cared for.

4) He RESPECTS what i say. i like it that in whatever decision he makes, the final and the majority of the vote comes from me. today, BH wanted to sign up for something… so after the MALE sales person finished his ‘speech’.. BH was like ‘so do you think i shld get it?’ … i didn’t expect him to ask me ( due to male ego) BUT he did… haha… nice feeling….

5) He likes to go out during wkend. this is the most ‘duh’ quality BUT i dunno how to put it.. haha.. today, we went to gym… was quite tired BUT he was like ” let’s go out walk walk… ” i like it tt he doesn’t wanna nua at home on a wkend even though he’s hard at work for the week! :thumbup:

can’t think of anymore qualities for now… BUT i’ll continue to re-discover him :beam1

“The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what”

BH’s ceremony was at 10am… wake up at bt 6.45am and realised tt it was raining!!! fortunately, it stopped raining when we were on the way there… wah…my 1st time at the University Cultural Centre.. the interior looked and felt like the Esplanade! so.. we went to the robing room and helped BH with his gown… which was a extreme complicated thing… the problem is the ‘flap’, dunno y his is not like others…

at tt pt of time i was kinda irritated.. coz.. WHY DIDN’t HE TRY THE GOWN AT HOME FIRST and mk sure he looks alright, other than doing last minute stuff! i juz kept my mouth shut.. since his parents were there…and helping him with it… anyway, looking at how he do stuff… i’m convinced and very certain that i cld take care of him better than he cld take care of himself!

missed out something… BH needed to put on a tie… so he was like looking at me wanting me to help him… but i gave him a black face… so he decided to help himself to avoid hell… hahaha… u noe why i give ‘black face’… i forget how to tie the tie already!!!!!!! wahaha… then it didnt occur to me tt i shld go revise b4 his commencement… don’t think BH need to wear a time anytime soon though…

so.. his parents and i finally sat down for the ceremony.. it was weird to be sitting with his parents… we didn’t talk.. i belief tt not tt they do not like me.. BUT they are the very reserved and quiet type… oh well.. BH wld have been like that if he had not met me…

the whole ceremony only took 1hr? even though we start late.. coz there weren’t many honours computing students… like for BH’s course (Bachelor in Computing – Communications and Media) , there were only 13 pple! and out of the 13, none got 1st class and only 1 got 2nd upper. so BH was the 2nd lower. well.. imo i think he got a 2nd upper, coz since no 1st class, so move up 1 rank! hahaha…also good… i think both of us will get the same type of honours :thumbup: so… we are as smart as each other can!!! :beam1

so after the ceremony was time to take pictures.. i was like the official photographer for him… and prior the ceremony i already warned him NOT to use me as free labour unless i offered to help… so BH was extreme cautious with his words… :wink1 well trained!

some pics we took:

his motarboard was too big for me, still tried it on.. wanna noe how it feels… hehe… so i wld noe how to mk my hair next yr mah… :blank1 pardon me for being a vainpot!

my fave pic of us.. :smile1

above all, i am honoured to be present with BH yesterday… BH must be super proud too… coz… i looked ard and i realised tt… he got the prettiest gf can!!! *ego booasted* hahaha… abt 2 girls prettier than me only!!! wahaha… his frens mouth dropped lor… when he saw his pretty gf! wahaha… in the end, i didnt get anything for BH.. coz.. caryn said ‘u do anything he also happy’ .. wahaha.. so i decided to do NOTHING.. nah… i didn’t even give him a card…no insipiration to mk one… kekeke…treated BH to Pirates of the Caribbean… movie not fantastic…. BUT he’s v ecstatic when i’m that nice sweet girl who snuggle up to him during the show :wink1

in fact, i twisted the story and told BH tt i deserved a gift from him.. coz i suffered so much due to his studies…. wahahahaha… and i was soooooo thrilled coz BH told me tt i’ll be getting a sup. card next mth!!! hehehe…. dunno if it’s real.. i’ll update if i get it!!! :wink1

after so much tears… unhappiness… quarrels… no bday or anniversary celebrations…. BH finally graduated… looking back… i think BH already had the worst days of his life … haha… not ez to cope with a critical,mean and un-understanding gf while u r soooooo stressed up over projects… i have to admit tt most of the time.. i’m not the kind of gf who supports him.. or stand by him.. and say things like ” i will love you no matter what… ” … quite thankful tt despite all these tough times, you still didn’t give up on me…. thank you… so can you still continue to love me even when i mk u very angry??? kekeke :grin1

i can’t love you for who u r now but i love you for the person you r gonna be 🙂

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Fun at Cathay Cinemas! kekeke :tongue1

Bh’s pic is sooooo corny.. he’s holding onto my waterbottle.. hehehe

luckily, cathay wasn’t crowded ysterday… so we managed to tk some of these pics… anyway, there was this other pic which i simply adore! need to wait for BH to help me do some editing 1st!!!

then we went to PS for dinner and i saw Darrell Leong with his gf lor!!! kekeke.. dunno what they doing lor…. :zip1 hehehe… juz joking!!!

nice pics right???? don’t you think tt my digi scrapbking skills improved??? :blush1 all thanks to shabbyprincess !!

in the end i cut my hair which is $12

sexy no more :pout1 hahaha

saw the doc which is $39.. yar.. u can’t see my pimples… coz it’s not *that* obvious until u come near and i pt it out. :err1

i am sick and tired of looking at the ugly me in the mirror….

i am gong to see a doctor for my acne and go mk my hair :err1

expected damage: $50 for doc + $100 for hair

haha… i shamelessly hope tt *someone* will subsidise me :tongue1

last night was one of those many times when i teared coz… i felt so touched…

i watched Singapore Idol last night… it’s the episode which they interviewed the idols in their homes… i was extremely touched by Joakim’s interview… besides knowing tt he’s an indian and korean mixed, his parents were also seperated! and coz of SI, the parents came together to support him! :beam1 so sweet right…

well… i was touched when i knew that Jonathan actually took his tcher’s cat to the vet! man… i felt so silly for tearing now… coz.. i was fooled by media.. like they always mks things seem soooooo sad… sooo sweet….

somehow, it’s the little things in life which mks it beautiful…. such things always mks me think tt the world isn’t tt ugly… it’s filled with love and compassion…

okok.. it’s cliche to say tt it’s nice to see old couples still holding hands and taking strolls in the park… BUT i can’t help it…coz it’s really touching isn’t it? :wink1

haha.. think it’s me… i’m quite emotional…. and stupid silly BH wld be like “You crybaby!!!”… heeez… BUT i think BH is highly emotional too…he tries to hide it… but… i see it through anyway… :tongue1

okok… cut the crap… these are the pple i support in SI!!!

and i am proud to announce tt NURUL is a PL girl and…… we noe each other (right… not close BUT we do say ‘hi’ to each other..) !!! kekekeke… and she lives near my home!! :blush1

i like jasmine coz i think she’s pretty! heee… the type of girl i will go for if i’m a guy… what a waste!!!

i’m feeling proud of myself.. coz i juz went to clear my wardrobe… putting away the clothes which looks old and unfashionable… man.. found some clothes which i havent wore for a long time…. and i kinda miss wearing them.. hehe.. so i took them out… at the same time, i was trying to look for dresses which will match my waisted belt and clothes to wear for BH convo…. heee…

i have lots of clothes indeed!!! i have 1 dress which looks like maternity dress!!! haha… shall keep it for another 10yrs!!! hehehe…. well, all the clothes cld still fit me now… juz tt somehow i thnk i don’t look gd in them??? argh… i’m still concious bt my arm area… thnk it’s big and flabby.. other parts of me is ok i guess…. coz… i cld still wear my skirt way back from sec sch days! saw my old PL and NY uniform… hahaha… quite cool tt my mum still keeps them…. together with my PE t-shirt can! no wonder my wardrobe look sooo packed… then i realised tt my sis actually dumps things tt she can’t wear to me… :blank1 no wonder she always buy new clothes…. yes… talking abt the ELDER SIS passing down the OLD clothes to the YOUNG one… we are the OPPOSITE!

anyway, i found some demin skirts and jeans.. but need to get the EXPERT=my MUM to mk it look more glam by adding some lace… kekeke… imo, it’s amazing how she cld mk old things new again!!! and i love my mum to bits… :beam1 sooo to show her how much i love her… i bought her a pair of earrings for no reason…. coz her fave pearl earrings broke… so i happened to walk by Taka jewellery and i decided to get her the pearl earrings for $19! definitley some inferior type of pearl…will get her better ones when i’m richer! BUT the pt is…she’s v happy to rec. it… hehehe…. she was like ” wah! u go out still will rem me!!! of corrs i happy lar!! ” looking at how happy my mum was… i was happy too… definitely worth it!!! so i will be expecting her to cook lots of my fave food this week!!! hahaha :grin1

my sis and i made a trip to town ysterday. the pt was to support her collegue who was performing in a rock band… i dunno how to appreciate loud music man… BH shld had gone with her…. after which, we went to the Zara Sales which was really good…better than Mango!!! Zara have pretty clothes for $19.90!! my sis bought new clothes again! and she bought a very cool jacket can!!! it’s those bolero jacket which has metallic designs on it… it’s very SUPERBAND!!! for me.. i think about my WANTS and NEEDS b4 getting anything.. yes… sooooo i took a quick look at all the clothes and figured out tt the most worthwhile buy are their Tank Tops ( Singlets)!! it’s for $7.90 only!!! and the cutting is really good… different from mango or gio… it cuts deeper into the shoulder area… so it doesn’t mk ur arms look fat… keke…though it’s cheap, i actually tk the effort to queue and try it on b4 getting!! haha.. i didn’t want to add on to the Solid waste in my wardrobe singapore… i thought i look okay! so i bought 2 of those…. and my sis… she spent 4X more than me…i applaud her for spending money like water!:beam1

registered for my modules today… my time-table is more or less set… not too gd… BUT i will survive!

btw… my sis n i might be in this MV –張棟樑-爸爸媽媽 Karaoke MV coz…….. we were there when it’s being filmed!!! kekekeke… i’m wearing red t-shirt… very ugly…. luckily i didn’t spot myself… hahaha…

Bh and i went to watch THE DRESSER ysterday.. my period came and i was having a headache… man… feeling very grumpy, grouchy and everything’s bad… so… i wasn’t in good mood and the weather was extremely warm… argh…

i was trying to find fault and mk things damn difficult for Bh.. like how he went to order food and i told him tt i dun want my food to have this and that… wahaha.. well… i thought he’s gonna get my orders wrong…. and i was soooo ready to SCOLD… in the end, i was disappted… shall save my scolding for next time….haha…

right… so maybe i was having a bad headache, i didn’t enjoy the play… even eating panadol juz didn’t help… :mad1 anyway, i waved excitedly at my tutor during the curtain call… i thot he saw me.. but he didn’t.. so i sms him… wahaha… he’s like soooo friendly and he still msg back and we kind of discussed the play… nice to noe the main lead!!! haha… well…Michael’s the BEST… and Adrian Pang isn’t worth mentioning.. hahaha… okok… i’m mking a bias statement!

let’s see wat else happened…i noe what’s the use of the namecard now… it’s for LUCKY DRAW! wahaha… put BH’s name card in the bowl, hope we cld win another pair of SRT tix! :beam1

so Robertson Quay is really a nice place…i guess it was the 1st time BH and i went there… there’s a very nice japo rest. at UEsquare, which i thot we shld go eat next time… :tongue1 so we walked to Suntec… and walked past clark quay.. my headache was real bad…. so BH bought Haagan Daz ice-cream for me… guess what flavor????

wahahaha… it’s Summer Berries and Cream!!! it’s my favourite!!!! hehehe.. okok… for a moment i forget if it’s fat free or not… okok… it’s full of cream… well.. it stopped my headache for awhile… but it came back again :err1

to think of it… BH really treats me as a KID can!!!! he buys me ice-cream when i’m feeling sucky…:what:

so we went to suntec… BH finally used up his nike voucher at B.I.R.D.. bought a nice t-shirt then we ate japo food…. where i ate healthy buckwheat ramen… and Strawberry ice-cream again!!! wahahaha… the Tokyo Tower Sundae is really nice… man….. luckily BH doesn’t like strawberries can!!! wahahaha… i have having a good time eating it until BH mentioned ‘the ice-cream is so creamy and milky!’ i decided tt i better give it up…. now to think of it.. he said tt coz he wanted more ice-cream to himself!!!!!! :rant:

yes… so it’s the day i ate strawberry ice-cream 2X in a day? hahahaha…i was Strawberry Shortcake for a day!!! hehehe…. it’s unfair to say i’m a ‘shortcake’ coz i’m tall… sooooooo i’m Strawberry Tallcake!!!:blush1

there was a midnight sale at suntec last night… Topshop was having 15% discount storewide… so i bought my waisted belt finally!!! hehehe… now thinking when and how to wear it…. YM indirectly bought the belt for me coz i used the giftcard… :grin1 so my waisted belt costed $13.15!!! good buy!!! thanks to YM!!!

i spent a nice sat. with a great date….somehow it reminded me of the 1st performance we watched together… 2002– HONK :smile1 it was a romantic walk along singapore river and u gave me 99 straw stars? hahaha… so funny to thnk abt it…

this time, i enjoyed the not so romantic walk along robertson quay… the period and the headache spoilt it… hahaha…. i enjoyed engaging in meaningful discussions abt the play… it comforts me even more to know there are more such times to come! thank you handsome!! kekeke :wink1