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hmm.. i’m not feeling happy.. coz during my hols.. i’ll have lots of work to do… so sianz man…

morning tutorial is online..so no lesson.. gtg to sch for 1hr later!! for china man’s lesson…. tt’s bloody guy… pple ask him y the maths qn is done by this method… noe what he tells us? “If you wanna get to JP from NIE.. you have to tk bus 199… so for this qn.. to get the ans you mst do it this way…” tt’s asshole…PMS ah! after the lesson, we were like “BUT we can tk bus 179 to JP too!” :eek1

have to submit my maths assignment later also…. hmmm… hope pple dun spoil market… coz i edited my assignmnet 5X liaoz… i add salt.. add pepper.. add vinegar…add chilli… tomato ketchap laioz! need lots of luck!

well…. something from FP=flowerpod….when i read this..i was laughing.. coz it’s so direct translation from chinese!

” i`m a filrt and this guy is myone leg step two boats guy…. when he break wif me, i feel veri bad but y when others break wif me, i won`t feel bad?Now i try to forget him, but i can`t when i close my eyes or doing anithing i`ll think of him, ani suggestions on ani thing i can forget him? “

have a nice day!

will be really busy with assignments.. and i’m feeling scared.. coz my module mates are spoling the market with such GOOD work… like handing up a 40+pages thingy… while i only haf abt 20pages?? come on lor! It’s juz a test paper with analysis and solutions!!!

anyway.. rem the project tt i did with james… the one tt i stayed up very late for?? we got 13/25.. geeez.. juz passed… as expected.. but for essay.. we got C+.. James and i were like… we do so last minute also same marks as those who did it 1 week early… hahaha…. so.. i’ve got another pair work coming up… and… I’M NOT GONNA DO PROJECT WITH A GUY! :umm1

today.. the agency called me to collect the Japan air tix… well… not bad ah.. quite efficient.. it’s more than 3mths b4 departure!! and i can’t believe tt we are actually going!!!! :beam1

adeline and ben wanna go northern thailand.. and they invited Bh and i to go with them too! heeez… travelling with them is like so fun and exciting… this time… they intend to go white-water rafting.. cliff jumping… and bungee!!!! owowowow…. haha… i’m quite scared to bungee lar…. heeez… haf to see after japan we still got $$ not..

gtg do work! :zip1

went to the Creative Sales with my family and juz got back not too long ago .. hmmm…. i didn’t buy anything… i was debating if i shld get the mp3 player and/or the cardcam…. yeah… i decided not any… heeez… coz i better save up man… my sis was like complaining.. coz i’m such a fickle-minded person…

anyway… i’m ashamed to admit tt i felt lost without BH juz now… coz i cldn’t mk up my mind if i shld get the stuff i wanted or not…. and my heart was like “u come till so far.. dun buy…” but in the end… i managed to talk to myself.. and not give in juz coz there’s a SALE! geeez… so i saw so many pple carrying bags of things and i wonder… “very cheap meh?” heeez… maybe it’s realtively cheaper.. but NOT v cheap lar… haha

so bad to today’s topic… “How to know tt you love this person?” saw this topic on flowerpod *again* heeez… i really wanna noe the answer…. i read some really sweet replies like “Your heart flutters when you see him and misses him when you don’t. When something good happens, he’s the first you want to share the good news with. When you’re upset, his is the first shoulder you look for to cry on. You feel his happiness, sadness and anxiety like they are your own. Everything is always a little more beautiful when he is by your side. You look at him everyday and still think he is handsome. You see him everyday and still look forward to see him when you wake up. You feel blessed for having found him and for everyday he is with you. And you would give anything to have him for a lifetime, yet you’d rather lose him to another woman than have him lose his life…” i was like…. so sweet…

what abt me?? i seriously do not know…. all i noe is… i feel so glad when 1 mth flies by and i still haf BH by my side… though i always anger him… so unsupportive of his passion and even mk him feel smaller than an ant… he still stayed on… i mean… WHY!!! why must he go thru’ such sufferings.. it’s so unfair…maybe it’s LOVE… loving me unconditionally… maybe he have no one better to love ?

well, i do not noe the ans to this qn –> How to know tt you love this person? BUT at least i noe the ans to –> How i know that this person loves me?

BH, thanks so much!

hahaha.. i managed to eat crabs for dinner!! went to this kopitiam at Hougang St 21 , next to the old bowling alley… ;p hahaha.. crabs are like 3 for $10!!!! they are of a moderate size.. and it’s FRESH! come on lor! it’s called VERY cheap! and it’s reasonable for its taste! hahahaha… coz it taste so good can! maybe coz i love crabs.. haha :beam1 hahaha.. so the 3 of us… Bh, my sis and me.. were like eating and comparing who got the biggest piece of crab meat… eg “WOW!! look at this… so big!!!” … “it’s so yummy!” haha… and my sis… dunno how to eat crab.. machiam too excited til she cut her thumb!

besides crabs, we ate sambal kangkong, hot-plate tofu, sweet and sour pork and 5 plates of rice!!! it’s so YUMMY! you noe what’s the total cost of all these food??? it’s $32 only!!! i was like…. i can’t believe my ears!!! must go there and eat again! :yum1

haha.. in the end… i felt so paiseh… we spilt the cost of the food… :smile1 told you i’m a good girl! hahaha…

and i met Jasmine and her mum at Heartland!! so happy to see her… and the mum was doing most of the talking and not her… hahaha.. funny conversation… coz she asked me where’s my bf? heeez.. and say Jas no bf.. haha…. then her mother was like telling Jas to go australia look for a farmer for a husband! heeeez… at least can help to plant tomatoes and potatoes… hahahaha… the pt is… they say i got prettier! :wink1 heeez.. it may be a lie.. BUT it’s a good one..

think the crabs are mking me fat… i attempted to ask BH ‘Am i fat?’ and you noe what he did?? he lack originallity can.. he ‘acted’ out the IDEAL SCENERIO i blogged that day!!! :mad1 looks like i got to tk him in HAND! hahahha…

gonna watch SUMMER SCENT on Channel U!

now.. presenting to you.. my own-made simple webpage… hahaha… it’s for my module lar…. but no standard leh… compared to BH’s latest website. 🙁 *moves to the corner and cry* hahaha… nvtheless.. it’s my first and i’m pound of it! :tongue1

yeah..woke up really early today… i wanna finish my work.. so tt i cld go out for while later??? BH says he’s gonna treat me to crabs!!! right… i’m gonna have 3 BIG crabs to myself! hahaha…. amanda.. watch ur weight..okok… 3 small ones can liaoz…

yesterday i dreamt tt i was eating crabs and prawns.. and i didn’t wanna wake up!!!! hahaha… come on… mk my dreams come true… :beam1

saw this at flowerpod…. geeeeeeeeeeeeez…… i cannot tk it when a gal says tt the bf is EVERYTHING to her… come on!!! get a life man!!!! WE, females.. are NOT dependent on man!!! let the guy say tt u r everything to him lar!!!! read what she wrote….. i can’t stand the last line…. so… what? u mean… u sending urself to his doorstep ah! u noe… if u commit to the r/s and if something happens.. it’s gonna hurt u sooooo bad man…. so as YOUNG girls of this century…. DO NOT LET A GUY DOMINATE YOU!

He is more than a best friend to me, he’s everything to me…

He’s my nurse who take care of me when I’m sick,
He’s my counselor when I need advice,
He’s my tutor when I need help in my studies,
He’s my sportmate when we exercise together,
He’s my joker who cheer me up when I’m down or just make me laugh even though I’m fine,
He’s my partner in Food as we both love to eat,
He’s my listener especially when I just need to complain,
He’s my accompany when I feel lonely,
He’s my support when I gone astray,
He’s my boyfren, my future fiance, my husband-to-be….

hahaha.. sorry .. if i offended anyone… i juz can’t stand gals who are like so submissive? or so lovey-dovey!! geeeez.. i think it’s all so FAKE! hahaha… u pity BH? yeah.. u shld man…. but he’s well-trained.. hor?? hahaha

and another joker post a thread that says “how to slp comfortably with ur bf?” NOTE THE WORD : BOYFRIEND! hello!!!! dun you feel so cheap??? i mean u wanna slp with ur BOYFRIEND! hahaha… okok… maybe i shldn’t read too much in the word ‘sleep’.. hahaha… but it’s so silly to ask this qn… luckily i’m too lazy to register as a flowerpod member… else u noe what what reply is??? heeez… “Go back to ur own home and sleep lar.. then you dun have to post this qn!” :wink1 hahaha.. no funny…. but i mean… y 2 person wanna squeeze on 1 bed…. okok.. unless u tell me it’s a king size bed lar… i mean.. even if slp together.. doesn’t mean u need to hug each other to slp.. hahahaha… if u do…. u can’t even move ur body in the morning lor!!! hahahaha…

i read *YOUR* blog…. y u no tagboard???? u r so silly! if u unhappy with ur other half… juz tell him straight man!!! wanna hide fom him for what??? i mean… who cares if he has his frens… come on! show ur authority man..if he dare to complain… tell him got gf is like that one…. haha… he confirmed won’t dare to say anything then become v guai…. –tried and tested– haha…. juz joking lar…. but since u all in this r/s.. u have to open up ur feelings… else in future how??? u sweep it under the carpet and hope tt it’ll disappear ah?? take care my fren! and be happy! *hugz*

and i got to do my work…. sianz..

haha.. maybe not so?

anyway, i’m suffering from after effects of staying up *that* night… geez…. we offically finished our project at 8am on the presentation day… and luckily my dad sent me to sch.. with no complains abt the HEAVY traffic *phew* else i’ll be a piece of dead meat! yes… my partner, James.. stayed till 4.15am to finish that bloody thing! haha.. while i woke up at 6am (supposed to be 5 but i cannot mk it) to do the ppt slides….and print our crap! basically… we were both so TIRED… and ill-prepared i supposed.. and guess what?? we were like the 2nd grp to present!!! no choice… coz his sirname is the 1st few on the register! :blank1 so we presented… we haven’t even rehearse can… machiam go down there and crap…. and i think i pass my nervousness to him… hahahaha….. so both of us were like nervous! luckily things went on smoothly… BUT it’s not as well as we expected… come on… it’s LAST MINUTE work! so we were like very insecure… and we asked our tutor abt it… she said we passed.. but not that well… :sad1 so i predict that for this module i’m get a D. don’t i juz love D??? D for dogs… for donkeys… and some may even say D*ck! hahahahahahaha…

so today… life was back to normal.. i still have endless amt of shit to do…. it’s like… alot of work… and i’m having a maths test tml… forunately it’s on combination and permutation… at least i got some b/g knowledge laioz…

hmmm……i noticed that i’m getting fat… and i’m feeling so worried!!!! :umm1 think asking BH ‘Do you think i’m fat?’ is a bad qn… hahaha… when he says ‘i think so’ i’ll get angry… when he says ‘no’ i’ll say.. u are consoling me.. hahaha… what women want????? i think…. u shld juz lie… or pretend to lie..

ideal scenerio: guy says *after looking at the gal from top to toe* ” I dun think so… where got fat???? so skinny… you better eat more.. else u kena blown by the wind…”

yeah man! GUYS…. LEARN! hahaha….

gtg… cya pple!!!

*i wanna go to the CREATIVE sale!!!*

look at the time now.. and i’m still up…. that’s coz im rushing for my assignment due tml… argh… with my partner…. who is a guy… and i really didn’t wnat to do this project with him… but it’s ‘luck’.. coz it’s pair work.. and expected…

we choose an article.. did what we can abt it.. and raelised it’s not gd…so we are doing on something more interesting like ‘THE LION KING’… geeez…. i even changed the wallpaper to Simba –> not sambal.. for motivation…

hmmm.. what can i say… this guy is so bz all the time… so hard to get him to sit and down and discuss the project…. the gd thing abt him is… he’s the editor of the NIE newsletter – VOICES… so he’s like very gd in his language.. and this is a ENGLISH module… so i kinda ‘zuan’ dao in a sense…. and he’s doing the editing now… after i typed the draft.. geeez… think he del all the things i typed… he machiam do the project himself lor…. see… i dun like to do project with the other species which happen to tk a human form… hahaha…

so why am i waiting? juz to show that i’m not free-riding… and i got to do the powerpt slides later….

so what??? *looks at the time* i’m slpy… and i’m so screwed! needs lots of luck!

thanks BH for staying up till 1+ to company me… *hugz*

well.. it was a tiring and bz day…lets’ see…

1. had to raech school at 8.30 for a test… i was late… which is bad… coz the test is only for 1hr.. and i was late for 10mins… luckily i wasn’t alone… was stranded with 3 more gals at the interchange… and wanna now what i raelised? heeez.. if i were to meet them at Boon lay interchange.. means i’m late… hahaha… so tt bloody 179 had to stop at every single stop… and i raelly wonder if tt bus-driver or the whole world is mking fun of me… coz i’m late… haha…. so i finally raeched sch… and God answered my prayers… the test was prolonged… geez… coz it’ a test whereby 1/2 of it is done on Ms Excel.. and it’s like 6qns!!!! i didn’t noe tt there’s 6 qns… coz i only saw Qn5 and 6… and by the time i knew tt i had to scroll to the front.. it was 9.30 alraedy!!! argh.. i was panic-stricken! so impossible to finish on time.. in the end.. the teacher said tt there’s no time limit for the test.. as long as you finished.. you can go… hahaha.. so we are able to refer to our excel guide in the test… so i was like checking my ans.. and thinking… HOW DO I DRAW A SCATTER PLOT?? i drew mine using the chart wizard but it looks weird… hmmm… nvm…the test was supposed to end at 9.30 BUT i left at 10.45.. hahaha.. tt’s how late man… :beam1

btw….i was greeted by a grp of beggers at boon lay interchange– students doing flag day! they are like those kids i saw in myanamar… blocking the bus door once it opens… and they didn’t even open they mouth to ask for donations! yucks!!! a disgusting sight! so u call this community service???

2. met BH at suntec… went to eat lunch.. then walked ard… i really wanna get my shoes/sandals/slippers… BUT i juz can’t find one tt i raellyX2 like… actually i did lar… BUT it was like too ex…though i feel like spending $$.. i didn’t get to.. argh… next.. went to COMEX.. it’s so CROWDED! cannot mk it man… alot of mp3 players ard.. i feel tt it’s like Sim LIm at suntec… i really wanna get a mp3 player… BUT after giving much thought.. i feel tt i shld save up… after japan trip got excess $$ then buy.. afterall.. it is a WANt and not a need… hahaha.. so i went home…with lots of flyers tt they gave… so tt i cld print my lect notes with them… hahaha… gd paper leh.. dun waste mah… SAVE the ENVIRONMENT! so i saw those supposed to be chio gals…. haha… come on lor…. where got chio!!! think those pple didn’t see me b4! hahaha…. :blush1

3. next, we decide to go to orchard… coz i raelly wanna buy things.. heeez… so we went to taka for a second round of food… then BH met his fren… let me tell u.. his fren is like so HANDSOME!!!!! and i was like… ‘what! he’s ur fren??’ hahaha… then i realised tt he’s from NTU one lor…. hahahahaha… too bad.. he’s attached… :pout1 heeez.. so were walking ard…. and this samsung guy stopped us.. ask us to fill in this postcard for encouraging our Singapore Olympics team.. haha.. so i was like…

me: what we’ll win?
guy: phone.. *points to the new phone.. dunno what model.. but it is the sliding one*
me: okie… so what shld i write…
guy: you can write ‘well done!’ or what lor!
me: *starts to fill in….*
BH: what other things can we write?
me: *very corny* you can write ‘i like it medium done’ or maybe ‘i love your steak.. hahaha
guy: *ask BH* your gf ah…
BH: *gives a shy and paiseh reply* yeah…
guy: she’s very funny lor!

hahaha… sh*t lar… for a moment… i forgot tt i was with some strangers… heeez… BH muz be so embarassed.. sorry man!

still nvm… haha… think i’m like so vain lor… noe what was i doing??? i was like looking at myself at the mirror of the elevator! hahaha… and it suddenly opened lor!! and so many pple were staring at me… hahahahaha.. so paiseh man! :blush1

4. went to west coast park to attend my NIE classmate 21st bday! i shouldn’t have went.. coz it’s really far aND i’m not close to her!!! and so many pple… who wanted to turn up.. back out in the last minute! geeez… so we took a long time to reach… walk till my legs ached like siaoz… hahaha… thnk BH was in a worst state than me… coz i helped my mum to buy some barang.. and put it in his bag.. so it was really heavy… sorry BH! anyway.. thank GOd tt BH accompanied me there… coz i was lost! and my fren’s instructions aren’t clear… by the time i reached.. it was 8.15pm! so late!!!

it was my 1st time at west coast park! it’s a nice place… beautiful night scene! 🙂 haha… good place for dating ah… haha… but i think BH and i were too tired to care abt the cooling and nice and maybe romantic atmosphere… haha… the mac there is really HUGE! think it’s like another EAST COAST PARK!

haha.. so the bday gal said i looked pretty! hahaha… how can…. she shld be the prettiest tt night mah! hahaha… anyway… i think her bf quite kelian… he was like bbqing for the whole time lor… haha… he muz be so smelly! hahaha.. so i asked BH… if next time i got party… i ask u go BBQ… how? and you noe what he said?? “i’ll get YX to bbq.. and pay him $5 per hr” heeez… YX… if you r raeding this…. this is how ur gd fren treats u! :wink1

sorry BH… coz i was talking to my frens and i forgot him entirely! hmmm… so sorry…. it’s not intentional… he was feeling left out.. and unhappy… sorry!!! i promise this won’t happen again! else…. u can do the same thing to me…. *looks at Bh with innocent eyes* thanks so much for accompanying me there and wait for the bday song to be sang… and going home together… i appreciate it… :smile1

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so tt’s my saturday… not tt i’m so free to spend the whole day out BUT i try to finish my work during the weekdays.. and mk sure i enjoy 1 day of my weekends… :tongue1 yes… of corrs… i still have work to do… there’s 1 deadline next wed.. and my partner is …. dunno how o say…. coz we dunno how to get started… i suspect i’ll have to stay up on tues night… :mad1

guess… i shld stop now…my entry is so super long today… haha… take care pple!