Secret

next week i’ll be going back to NIE for lesson. only 1 person knew that it was my last day in the school…it’s the teacher who plans relief periods.. duh.. sad right? other than her, all the other pple were too bz to bother abt me and this includes kevin and andrew… quick say ‘awwwwwwwwww’… i was upset and disgusted at how the school treat the teachers, especially the clerks that work in the office. before i left the school, i went to the office and i asked this clerk if i have any admin staff to settle.. she was like “huh? who are you? why u suddenly walk in and ask..” in a very irritated tone… i was shocked… :eek1 i mean… i juz went to the office like the day b4 and she obviously saw me! i mean… y do they treat me like dirt? so i guess… this school is really very realistic.. as long as you are not some bigshot in the school, they won’t notice you……

as i walked out of school that day… i told myself that i muz make it BIG in future… i muz be some1 impt… maybe subject head? level head or even better HOD.. yes i know…. with power comes responsibility… i dun mind… because it’s a matter of SACRIFICE… what i’ll lose is TIME or maybe starting my own family? i guess BH won’t mind… he’ll probably be v proud of me.. haha

and i’ll rather be a BIG fish in the RIVER than a SMALL fish in the OCEAN…however, it wld be great if i cld be a BIG fish in the OCEAN… :grin1 in anyway, i MUST work hard…

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so currently i’m bored at home coz BH is sick… suspected Dengue Fever… coz he had been having fever ON / OFF for the past few days.. and he experienced body aches and i noticed some red spots… i was telling him to see a doc but he juz ignored me until today… so let’s hope he gets well…

oh well, so i’m home on a saturday which is quite sad coz it’s a weekend b4 NIE starts… and i realised tt i wld need to present some stuff on the 2August which is the 1st tutorial… argh… why me!!!! :blank1

actually, i need not be home… coz i cld go over to BH’s place and visit him.. BUT like u do not know.. i dun like to go to his place…. coz i think his place is dirty, dusty and messy… and i dun wanna end up asking him to take a rag and clean the dirt when he’s sick… neither do i wanna tk the risk of being bitten by the dreadful mosquito……soooooo the best is i dun go and visit him… afterall, to put it bluntly.. i detest and HATE to take care of pple… tt’s y i’m not a nurse…

talking abt my mum… i’m feeling sooooooooooooooooo upset coz she’s going to work from next week onwards!! why!! why!! why!!! :pout1 no more nice food…. she won’t be home when i’m home… :sad1

tt’s all for today… my perfect life………

i’ll end my entry with a quote: “People don’t care how much you know until they know how much you care” wanna noe what mks BH is special? though he do not know how much i care, he still care abt how much i know…. heeeeez… he juz called to apologised tt he’s sick and he can’t go out with me… :beam1 what to do? hahaha… well-trained is like tt.. :yum1

coz contact time ends at 5+… it’s sooooooo sianz….

anyway, BH is confirmed going to BKK on 31 July… so he better buy alot of things for me..

define alot .. alot is more things than he buy for himself… else he’ll get HELL… and i hope tt he won’t get sick which he did last time… and he won’t forget where he put his money.. or kena robbed… :shiftyeyes:

wanna noe what… BH is sick again… and he still need to do his FYP…. awwwwwwwwww… so sad…get well soon man….

i thnk teaching P1 classes are a joy… they are those innocent boys who wld smile with their toothy grin when they see you… wave and say ‘hi’ acting like they are some angels…. especially those naughty boys… they are those who wld come up and talk to you as if nothing had happened… hahaha… the real joy abt P1 is tt there are only 30children in the class.. i feel that it mks a big difference and it’s really easier to manage…

teaching P1 maybe more difficult in a neighbourhood school… coz some children can’t even read.. the boys here are obviously smarter… when they get naughty, u raise ur voice and they’ll be damn scared… BUT as boys, they won’t cry… or won’t tell their parents… haha… another way to mk children be afraid is to pull them to corner… scold them with a stern look… using the deathly quiet voice and pointing a finger at them…. i tell u.. it works like crazy… hahaha…. and they will look like they wanna cry… iyoh… tell u… got kick man!

P1 easier to teach… haha… coz whatever composition u give them, you’ll need scaffolding to guide them…in the end, all the compos wll be more or less the same… and they love to colour and draw… heeez…

as the children gets over… they become MONSTERS for example P5 and 6 is HELL.. tt’s when they’ll challenge the teachers…

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oh well…it was raining today as my made my way to school… i was wearing sandals… so my feets got alittle wet when i reached school.. then i suddenly thot of my primary school days…when it’s raining, i’ll wear slippers to school… my grandpa or my mum wld carry my sch shoes for me… when i reach school… they’ll clean my feet for me then help me to wear my shoes… hahahaha…. i’m such a princess lor…. to thnk of it.. i kinda miss these times… i was too young to cherish those times i had… :blank1

soooooooo it’s no wonder tt BH MUST treat me like a princess now… haha..

similarly, i was reflecting upon my r/s with BH… i think i didn’t cherish the honeymoon period… and sometimes i dun feel in love… coz we already noe each other…there’s nothing more you didn’t noe…BUT if i didn’t cherish the dating period… next time also no chance already… like… as u get older, you’ll thnk tt it’s silly and a waste of time to invest time to do something sweet or romantic… hahaha… tt’s solely my own opinion…

when BH reminded me tt i gave him ‘The little Prince” storybook and wrote some stuff tt i didn’t even think of writing… i was shocked.. hahaha… the pt is i no longer feel like doing anything for him anymore… :blush1 even talking to him abt my day is also a very sian thing lor…..coz everyday is so routine…

conclusion.. you shld cherish what you haf now…when it’s gone it’ll be too late to regret…

so i am trying to enjoy every moment of reliefing now… i won’t have such luxury of blogging in school while i listen to corrinne may……

okok… say that i’m slow… haha.. today BH and i got our hands on a 3G phone! wow! it was really great.. haha… the wonders of 3G.. so nice tt u cld not only hear each other at the other end.. BUT see each other too.. :beam1 sooooooooo i was quite enthu to get a 3G phone! haha.. hopefully 2yrs later.. i’ll get it!! after my contract ends mah..

i met darrell leong today!!!! wahahahaha… so funny.. he was promoting credit cards can! heeez…. and u noe what.. when BH and darrell stood together… i really thot they look alike lor!!! shld haf taken a pic man! hahaha… afterall, they may be related… one is binghui and the other is binghuan.. hahaha… juz tt darrell’s hair is still as spikey as ever! hahahaha…. nice to see him.. and DARRELL IS HOLDING HIS 21st Bday PARTY on the 27th AUGUST!!! i scared no1 will go so i help him promote… hahahaha…

so… today is a nice day.. juz tt it’s really tiring to hunt for BH’s phone.. i dunno what he really want you see… BUT i guess i shan’t complain.. coz it took me a bloody long time to buy my sandals too… heeez…

anyway, i really hope tt BH goes to BKK with his family… coz i have a list of things for him to get for ME!! :grin1 and you noe what…. if he buys things for me.. means i don’t have to come out with a single cent.. which is splendid! hahahahaha… tt’s my pt you see! oh shit.. i’m so bad…. :wink1 but i suppose he doesn’t really mind… heeez…

went down to MOE to sign the teaching bond of 5years…. yar… i was thinking abt how wld i be after the bond…

let’s see… i’ll start serving my bond when i’m 23yrs old…

in 5yrs time, i’ll be 28yrs old… which means it’s 2012

so…

1) i’ll go to LOndon and watch the Olympics
2) BH and i wld have dated for 10yrs! *if we are still together*
3) i think i’ll be able to have my own car by the 2nd or 3rd yr of my working bond
4) maybe i can get married at 28yrs old..
5) hopefully, i will get my own house and start trying to plan for my 1st child BUT 4) needs to come 1st
6) i’ll probably be a pte tutor in tuition centre or home tuition

rem my dream of being an air stewardess? i realised tt the moment i joined teaching… this dream will not come true.. :blank1

i’m in school now… and i’m feel sick… those kinda flu sianz sianz feeling… i shld have taken an mc yesterday then i didn’t have to come to sch… damn….

i was toooooooo stingy to spend $17 on doctor fees… and i came to school today.. i got to relief 10 periods… the feeling sux… besides this, i’ve got dance till 4pm…

i wish i went to the doctor… oh yar… i wld have gone to the doc if i didnt spent $39 on that bloody lousy sandals…

money is still more impt… :pout1

went for election training right after school today… my father was really nice to pick me up and send me there… i went to the ulu place alone… i thot i was going to be alone.. BUT i met my ex CT… yucks.. and afew other teachers frm xinmin..and i made new frens… pple tt i wld be working with and they are really nice.. and ard the same age as me! :smile1

anyway, i thot the lesson today was really interesting.. and the job as a Polling Officer is really tough…. i hope there wld be no presidential election.. wahahaha…

sooo it’s one of those days tt i really hope some1 cld drive and pick me up from tt ulu place… the journey home is really very long even though it’s only at toa payoh… :pout1

i need:
1) bf who drives

or

2) some1 who have a crush on me who drives

or

3) car license and a car

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i think no. 3 is the most possible option… :umm1

when can i enjoy being chauffeured ard…. or let other women be envious of me… :blank1 quando quando….

i knew it was hell when i saw the relief paper today… as long as it’s P5.. it’s hell…

i didn’t noe that it’ll be worst than HELL coz there’s rumours tt i need to tk that hellish class for this whole week… which is like 3days more… i’m freaked… the boys are horrible… they are rude.. and most of all disrespectful… it was the 1st time in my life tt i felt sooooooo helpless in a class… i can’t get a grip of the class… all i wanna do is cry… and i still need to teach… and tt bloody teacher who didn’t come is not a chinese teacher… it’s the *ahem* race… :blank1

juz when i thought tt everything is going bad… and the whole world is collasping right in front of me… i managed to talk to another subject teacher of the monster class… and i learnt tt the prob is the class and not me…

nvtheless, i really hope tt a miracle wld happen… like some1 else wld tk that class and not ME :blank1

my only comfort was meeting BH at bishan today…. BH was really nice to buy my fave mosburger milk tea and he even wrote a encouragement card for me… it made me feel much better…

i really hope tomorrow won’t be too bad.. coz i got to leave school early to reach Toa Payoh for some election stimulation exercise which wld last till 6pm! :oogle:

L I T T L E S U P E R H E R O G I R L
written by Corrinne May Ying Foo
Copyright 2003, Â Corrmay Gourmet Music (ASCAP)

I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world
Everybody wants a piece of me
And I just don’t know where to turn
I’ve got work piled up to my head
All I want to do is jump into bed
And wash away my troubles
with lemonade
Play hide and seek
with the boy next door
Take a trip to Singapore and
Imagine how I’ll make the world
a better place

All I need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognise
That I’m feeling so small
All I need is a secret weapon
I’ve gotta have faith
Zapping monsters into outer space
I’m gonna be a Superhero

Na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-
Yeah

If I were a little girl
Trying to clean up the whole wide world
I’d kick the bad boys back to school
Teach them fighting’s just not cool
I’d give every kid a teddy bear
Turn starving people into millionaires
Break glass ceilings with dynamite
sprinkle a little sugar and spice
Turn the bullies that terrorize
Into pink poodles that bark,
but don’t bite

All I need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognise
That I’m feeling so small
All I need is a secret weapon
I’ve gotta have faith
Zapping monsters into outer space
I’m gonna be a Superhero

Na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-
Yeah

Little Superhero Girl
Little Superhero Girl
Save me
Little Superhero Girl
Little Superhero Girl
Save me from myself

I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world

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i wanna be John Constantine.. and i’m gonna kill all the monsters!!!

we had a wonderful saturday and sunday together…

saturday was a day of celebration coz we……… hahaha.. not telling you… we know can liaoz… after that we went to town to hunt for sandals to wear to school.. we have been looking high and low for a pair of sandals and i cldn’t find it… not that there isn’t any sandals ard BUT it’s really difficult to look for sandals which are nice, cheap and have no heels… :blank1 in the end, i had no choice and need to settle for a pair Barcode sandals which cost me $39!!! and i bought the sandals with no discount! this pair of sandals does not cause blisters, looks quite retro and cld pass off as Birkenstock sandals… geeez.. and today i wore the sandals and i realised tt it’s not worth my money… coz…. my feet feels sticky as the print on the fabric of the shoes is coming out!!! damn!!! my money!!!!!! argh…. :rant: the 1st time i bought such expensive sandals… so i was comforting myself.. if the sandals cost $1 a day… i juz need to wear it for abt 39 days and it’s worth my money liaoz….

so the main part of saturday is to look for my sandals… and we went to borders, i wanna buy some books to read BUT i was thnking tt it’s so not worth my voucher coz i shld use it to buy educational resource books… in the end, i spent a long time reading those resource bks coz i realised tt i juz need ideas, i dun haf to buy them.. haha… buy books not only expensive, it takes up space also.. and you won’t read it all the time… in the end, we bought Corrinne May’s latest album — Safe in a Crazy World… and it’s sooooooo rare that both of us enjoy the same type of music… :beam1

sunday was spent at my place… getting cozy with vcds which we rented — Heffalump, Constantine, A series of unfortunate events… i love all the 3 shows except Constantine… coz i dun understand anything abt it… what i did was to scream.. haha… coz the images were quite disgusting and scary… and my sis was like explaining to me what’s happening all the time… :shake: after the vcds, we were listening to Corrinne May… ahh… nice nice nice… we thought tt it’s sooo soothing that we cld slp… haha….

after getting cozy, we went for our weekly badminton session… heeez… and my ex-student was watching me play and even greeted me… hahaha… i’ve got a fan can…. or a spy rather… :oogle:

yupz… really like such weekends… :beam1

oppz.. forgot to add.. because i’m happy and relaxed.. my period came.. :blank1

all the time….. hahaha… Adam Chen… he’s topless now… and i hope he cld be bottomless too…. :tongue1