Secret

Bh wanted to get a DVD writer…. being such a sweet gf…. i actually offered to sponsor him…

haha… you muz be thinking y amanda sooooooo nice right? heeeeez… if i get the DVD writer for him… then i dun have to think of what to get for him for xmas mah… then save some of my brain cells… haha… then i also don’t need to feel guilty coz what he got me cost MORE than what i got him… heeeeeez…

BUT Bh being sooooo nice… and who understood my motive to sponsor him without me spelling out decided that ” haha dear.. i appreciate..” … ” dun need lar..”

heeeeez… so i was like heng ah!!! hahaha… once again…. i’ll get a good xmas present while BH get a average one from me.. wahahaha….

that’s why….. i told BH “i love you for loving me who loves my money more than you” :grin1

number theory is over… geeez.. not ez can…

okok.. i thnk i made a couple of mistakes… sianz…. i felt sucky after the paper… coz i noe tt i didnt do as well as i expected myself to do… sianz…

so i was afraid tt i’ll fail… but according to my teacher, with the new grading system it’s quite hard to fail… haiz….

juz hope tt i’ll be fine….

i think the problem for me not doing as well as i wanted to is……….. i was NERVOUS.. so nervous that for the whole morning.. all i wanted to do was vomit…. BUT i didn’t lar….

i shall not be nervous… tk it ez… anyway, i’m in a win-win situation now… like… i dun need gd rlts to crossover or what… juz tt good rlts will determine my future pay… heeeez…

juz hope tt someone from Pixar or Dreamworks or HP or EA or whatever managed to spot BH … hahaha… then he’ll be rich… hahaha…. *sings* “money money money.. it’s a rich man’s world!!!” haha… then pay my bond…. then migrate to USA… and bring me along!!! then having a good pay doesnt matter anymore…hahahaha…. amanda WAKE UP!!!

i thnk i ought to be shot….after exam… i met up with BH… we went for lunch then we went jalanX2 …. v tempted to buy FOX track pants & the jacket and the very cool winter hat!!! wahahahaha…. oh well….. you pple wld have guessed where i’m going…. heeeeez… then i was like “who will go shopping during exam period….” :pout1 if i didn’t do well for my exam…. serve me right….

okok… i’m aiming to pass my modules… don’t need to get good results… juz dun need to retake can liaoz!

time to study Calulus!!! shall go shopping , nono studying on thurs!!!

手沉默的握紧
越过一座森林
我们走得很慢
连幸福都着急
在落叶里前进
哪一条路才有道理
奇迹抛弃我们
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永恒不能赶快
开始谁也不明白
风风雨雨宁愿相信
明天睛天
爱不好的我们还能
迎着阳光一步一步来
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就有幸福的预感

手沉默的握紧
越过一座森林
我们走得很慢
连幸福都着急
在落叶里前进
哪一条路才有道理
奇迹留给别人
å› ä¸ºå·²ç»æœ‰ä½
永恒不能赶快
开始谁也不明白
风风雨雨宁愿相信
明天睛天
爱不好的我们还能
迎着阳光一步一步来
æ¯•ç«Ÿè·¯ä¸Šæœ‰ä½ ä½œä¼´
永恒不能赶快
开始谁也不明白
风风雨雨宁愿相信
明天睛天
爱不好的我们还能
迎着阳光一步一步来
æ¯•ç«Ÿè·¯ä¸Šæœ‰ä½ ä½œä¼´
就有幸福的预感

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heeez… i like this song can…. okok.. i noe my exam is juz tomorrow… and i’m not confident lor….. and i shld go study now….

i’ve got like 3 papers for my final exam…

1) number theory
2) calculus
3) algebra

my first paper is starting on monday.. then thursday then monday…. then it’s my holiday!!! yes fel… i noe u r coming back! after exam we meet up k! sorry!

i was checking out my seat numbers for each exam… and i realised that for 2 of my papers.. my seat number is a prime number, eg: 281 and 57… then i further examine my other seat number, 187… it looks like a prime number… BUT it’s not…. 187= 11 X 17 and 11 and 17 are prime numbers!!!

heeez… prime numbers are special… and so am i!! :tongue1 hahaha…
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saw BH’s wonderful game which he created with his frens…was quite impressed… BUT i didn’t show it… so i was like “you sure you did this? you got so power meh… iyah… must be your fren do lar… dun believe you soooo good…” hahaha… but secretly i was like… “BH soooo talented ah!!!”

haha… but then, if he doesn’t have good teammates, i dun think their work will be sooo well-done! :thumbup: so he was telling me tt the tutor said they got maximum marks! and they are selcted to present for other students next yr!! happy for him…. then he said something which sounded pretty nice at that point of time ” Thank you.. if you were not understanding i dun think i cld complete this” something along this line… heeez… nice… though i was like so not understanding.. and i gave him HELL when he’s soooooo stressed… hahaha… v impressed tt BH can cope with the work and me… haha…. not bad… not bad…

was listening to the new Sun Yanzi song..

隐形人

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没有途中的灰尘
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不许我迷信我们
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多想化成隐形的人
掩饰我伤痕
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看不见也能感受心疼
我想化成隐形的人
隐藏我的泪在翻滚
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留下的指纹
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朋友都于心不忍
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但他们都回避我
执着的眼神
可知我对爱的虔诚
可知我迷信我们
可知我难得放任

多想化成隐形的人
掩饰我伤痕
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看不见也能感受心疼
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隐藏我的泪在翻滚
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留下的指纹
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多想化成隐形的人
掩饰我伤痕
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看不见也能感受心疼
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隐藏我的泪在翻滚
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留下的指纹
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BH.. can u be 隐形人 .. haha.. so i dun need to study for exam… then u come for exam with me… heeee

i can’t believe how accurate this is… got it from a friend’s blog :blush1 haha… and YOU know who… hahaha….

those in BOLD is true or interesting!

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Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don’t judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren’t necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people’s eyes.

i am attractive can!!!!

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren’t interested in wasting time with people you don’t really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

i have not found the right person.. so i am so not deeply and beautifully in love

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You’re a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you’ll be set for life.

tt’s y teaching is good!

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don’t succeed. Don’t give up when you haven’t yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It’s time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve

the last sentence is sooooooooooo true!!!! i have been using my head too much…. i lost my heart…

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try the quiz here!!

i really do not know how to describe my love for being ALONE. it’s just something which i suddenly fell in love with… everything is faster when you r alone… like… you can walk faster, you can buy things faster, you can have everything to urself..

HOWEVER, lunch can be a little boring and weird…. and nobody is able to answer your questions when i encounter problem with my work…

my obsession of being ALONE had resulted in not appearing on msn… what-so-ever… maybe my only online appearance is my blog… and my offline appearance is my handphone

and i dun like to talk on my handphone…. if i tend to raise my voice when i ans my phone… tt’s coz i am irritated with my work and you happened to call at the wrong time…. even worst…. NEVER CALL TO ASK ME ABOUT SCHOOL WORK ON MY HANDPHONE.. i dun like it

so regarding my ‘friends’ in NIE…. they did all the wrong things… or rather ‘SHE”… we had a confrontation today…. and she was telling me how unhappy she was with me…. like i rolled my eyes at her!!! i was shocked…. i didn’t know such a small gesture wld cause her to be so unhappy….

the reason why i rolled my eyes is……. i came all the way to school to consult my tutor.. and she was asking all the questions.. of corrs i am sooooo frustrated…. BUT then again…. 4 person with different questions consulting ONE tutor… is a BAD idea……. argh…… and 1 thing leads to another…. like my raising my voice… oh man….. juz kill me… and leave me ALONE…

i thnk i’m getting more and more unlikable nowadays…. dunno what these pple want….

and you know what… she said tt i used too many ‘damn’ and ‘shit’…….. i really got nothing to say can…

still say i keep pushing them away… when they wanna help…. sorry… it’s juz a ego problem…. i’m trying to change

above all…when i apologised for all the bad things i did.. she said ” can you not be so practical, i dun want ur apology!”

WHAT DOES SHE WANT!!!! come on… i deflate my ego to say ‘SORRY’ to you can…

anyway, all is well now… coz.. what i needed to do is to keep my mouth shut and not say anything…… and i soooo HATE this…

maybe i’m really sooo difficult to get along…. alright… most of you reading my blog wld haf known me since JC or rather pri or sec school days…. i think i have changed…sooner or later everyone will leave me..

i’m so detestable…. and i use the words ‘damn’ and ‘shit’, and i rolled my eyes when i’m frustrated and i do not like to teach pple how to do maths… and i’m selfish…and i’ll be all by myself….

to top all these up…. if my NIE friends think tt i’m like this, i’m sure BH, who’s much closer to me than them.. will feel this way too….

i hate to say this here……….. BUT……. i’m sure BH doesn’t like me as much as before :pout1

i’m ok… juz treat this post as junk… needed a place to write down my thoughts

oh man… sorry for talking abt this again and again… hahaha…. oh well.. being such a princess… i can’t help it… heeeeeez… i predict tt by next yr.. i’ll get my princess fit!!! yeah!!! heeeeeeeez… view this site my fairy Godmother told me so….. wahaha :beam1

eyeing for a blazer like this… for a super long time…. i rem telling YM tt i like it at bugis village… and it’s like $28?? heeezz… hope to mk a trip there and get a good bargain!! :beam1 *ignore the ‘clothes in style’ … got it from a webby tt’s y.. *

and i finally bought my soooooo cool BIG BUCKLE belt for $18 at forever21!!! :wink1 the prob is….. the holes are not suitable for my waist… need to think of a way to mk a hole…

met up with fel’s fren, Evon for lunch today… oh man…. ate like Mac… which is unhealthy food…. Evon is really funny… and entertaining to talk to… BUT she muz be thinking tt i’m such a nerd or a bore to be with… coz i dun club.. or watever… she seem soooo happening can! :mad1

back to unhealthy food….haiz….i ate like fried kway teow and hokkien prawn mee for dinner!!!! tt’s it…. :sad1 to think tt i have been abstaining frm these food for months!!!! luckily i force myself not to finish everything….. hope the side-effects not too bad…

hols coming… muzt try to exercise 3X a week now…

my xmas wishlist… this post is dedicated to Santa Claus!

heeez….

No. 1:
Levis Jeans!!! was trying out the levis website… nice nice nice!!! tt’s how i got the screenshot below! haha…

hmmm… is there a imitatiuon for this??? i dun mind… coz the REAL one is far tooo ex… okok.. anyone with discount??? share ok!!

No. 2:
Belt with BIG buckle!!! (no skeleton skull pls.. heee) this kind of belt is good!!! can waer with jeans and boho skirts!

this pic is from Hollister… BUT i don’t want a branded belt… juz a belt with nice buckles! hee

No. 3:
this is for BH… i feel that a nice blazer will be good for him…. then he can waer with jeans… sooooo… he won’t look soo sloppy or rather kiddish in t-shirts!! dun you feel tt it gives a more mature yet fun and stylo look? heeez…i’ll hunt for this kinda jacket for him….

yar lar… s’pore so hot… so i’ll get those thinner materials…. in shopping centres or sometimes go nice resturant eat can waer or if we happened to go watch play or musical, he can waer it with jeans, semi-formal…. and dun look sooooo skinny! heeez

guess what i did on the FIRST day of my study week? heez.. i dedicated one day to read a book which i always wanna read….

The Unbearable Lightness of being by Milan Kundera

well… i finished reading 300+ pages of the book in 1 day… heeez… this goes to show how interesting this book is… yes..it’s a thinking book…. very philosophical.. it gives me new perspectives on life… love and sex…. yes… SEX…. in fact, the 1st half of the book talks abt sleeping together vs making love…. the lightness of being single vs the burden (or heaviness) of being with someone…. infidelity of man…. oh well… was quite disturbed with the ‘love-mking’ part…. hmm… i shall not dwell upon it….

i think the good part of the book is.. how it answers some of my questions on life…. like… i do think ALOT and i always wonder what i utimately want in my life ….then this quotes explains my uncertainty…

” we can never know what we want, coz, living only 1 life, we can either compare it with our previous lives nor perfect it in our lives to come”

remember how i blogged about loving some1 with the head instead of the heart, there’s a quote from the book which contradicts my theorem completely

“When the heart speaks, the mind finds it indecent to object”

being a typical philosophical book… every event in the book is quite symbolic…i havent really analysed the events yet…. heeez… so whatever here is solely my opinion…

go read the book.. then we can discuss… :wink1

tml is studying day… sianz…