{"id":452,"date":"2006-08-13T11:23:53","date_gmt":"2006-08-13T03:23:53","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/loveactually.fakedevil.com\/?p=452"},"modified":"2006-08-13T11:23:53","modified_gmt":"2006-08-13T03:23:53","slug":"reflection-looking-beyond","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/secret.6eptember.com\/?p=452","title":{"rendered":"Reflection: Looking beyond"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>for me, with regards to BGR, the biggest lesson i shld learn is <strong>&#8221; Loving an imperfect person perfectly &#8220;<\/strong> and being able to be <strong>&#8221; satisfied &#8220;<\/strong> or rather what Darrell wld say &#8221; Zhi Zu &#8221; with my partner.<\/p>\n<p>like i blogged b4 or like how you noe me&#8230; i am very idealistic&#8230; i noe what i want in life&#8230;. the sad thing is&#8230; BGR are very complicated&#8230; i tried to use logic and to be practical like what i did in any other things&#8230;. it juz doesn&#8217;t work the same way&#8230; it&#8217;s very complex&#8230; and tt&#8217;s why i always  dunno what i want in a relationship&#8230;  juz say tt i&#8217;ve got a big ego.. or i have difficulty trusting some1 who&#8217;s close to me.. i can&#8217;t be confident if the person with me wld give me the type of ideal life i want..<\/p>\n<p>i&#8217;m envious of others&#8230; and i have doubts bt BH&#8230; or rather i simply look down on him&#8230; saying things like &#8221; we&#8217;ll nv get there &#8221; , &#8221; tt&#8217;s something which we&#8217;ll only dream about &#8220;&#8230; and BH gets really angry and annoyed when i&#8217;m like this&#8230; so the arguement starts.. &#8221; y do you always look down on me &#8220;, well.. i was being practical&#8230; how cld owning a hse, owning a car be possible! nah.. it&#8217;s not possible to me&#8230; maybe financially possible&#8230;BUT it&#8217;s juz my heart feeling insecure and confused..<\/p>\n<p>amazingly, BH is some1 who loves an imperfect person perfectly&#8230; i dunno how cld he look beyond my flaws, forgive n forget each time i hurt\/humiliate\/insult him badly&#8230; it cld mean 2 things i guess: 1) he really likes me alot 2) he realise tt he can&#8217;t find any1 better&#8230; hahaha<\/p>\n<p>i wish i have 2 hearts&#8230; like how i have a left brain and a right brain&#8230;  then my heart and my brain wld b balanced.. :grin1<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>for me, with regards to BGR, the biggest lesson i shld learn is &#8221; Loving an imperfect person perfectly &#8220; and being able to be &#8221; satisfied &#8220; or rather what Darrell wld say &#8221; Zhi Zu &#8221; with my partner. like i blogged b4 or like how you noe me&#8230; i am very idealistic&#8230; [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/secret.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/452"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/secret.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/secret.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/secret.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/secret.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=452"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/secret.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/452\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/secret.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=452"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/secret.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=452"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/secret.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=452"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}