{"id":425,"date":"2006-06-30T17:45:16","date_gmt":"2006-06-30T09:45:16","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/loveactually.fakedevil.com\/?p=425"},"modified":"2006-06-30T17:45:16","modified_gmt":"2006-06-30T09:45:16","slug":"reflection-negative-thoughts-of-an-optimist","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/secret.6eptember.com\/?p=425","title":{"rendered":"Reflection: Negative thoughts of an optimist"},"content":{"rendered":"

i am a visual person… <\/p>\n

i have a picture in my mind… a picture of what i want…be it family, personal goals or even my future kids! haha<\/p>\n

i guess this picture acts as a mental checklist.. because of this picture i have high expectations of myself… and i guess the person who suffered the most is BH?? haha<\/p>\n

in the picture, the person who’s gonna be with me till i’m old doesn’t look a tiny bit like BH you know!!! and i wonder why!!! <\/p>\n

maybe my picture isn’t accurate? or the ‘one’ has not appeared? <\/p>\n

so.. i told BH bt how the ‘one’ is supposed to be… (haha… nope… not Keanu Reeves) and he thrives hard to be him…<\/p>\n

i wonder.. if i shld keep looking out for the ‘one’? <\/p>\n

haha… somehow.. i think Fel’s right… i won’t be able to find the person..<\/p>\n

i’m juz too idealistic…<\/p>\n

and BH pls don’t take this negatively..<\/p>\n

i made a rough timeline <\/a>for myself :beam1<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

i am a visual person… i have a picture in my mind… a picture of what i want…be it family, personal goals or even my future kids! haha i guess this picture acts as a mental checklist.. because of this picture i have high expectations of myself… and i guess the person who suffered the […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/secret.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/425"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/secret.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/secret.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/secret.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/secret.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=425"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/secret.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/425\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/secret.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=425"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/secret.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=425"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/secret.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=425"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}