{"id":300,"date":"2005-11-08T20:08:40","date_gmt":"2005-11-08T12:08:40","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.fakedevil.com\/angeldreamz\/wp\/?p=300"},"modified":"2005-11-08T20:08:40","modified_gmt":"2005-11-08T12:08:40","slug":"me-alone-and-i","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/secret.6eptember.com\/?p=300","title":{"rendered":"me, alone and I"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>i really do not know how to describe my love for being <strong>ALONE<\/strong>. it&#8217;s just something which i suddenly fell in love with&#8230; everything is faster when you r alone&#8230; like&#8230; you can walk faster, you can buy things faster, you can have everything to urself.. <\/p>\n<p>HOWEVER, lunch can be a little boring and weird&#8230;. and nobody is able to answer your questions when i encounter problem with my work&#8230; <\/p>\n<p>my obsession of being ALONE had resulted in not appearing on msn&#8230; what-so-ever&#8230; maybe my only online appearance is my blog&#8230; and my offline appearance is my handphone<\/p>\n<p>and i dun like to talk on my handphone&#8230;. if i tend to raise my voice when i ans my phone&#8230; tt&#8217;s coz i am irritated with my work and you happened to call at the wrong time&#8230;. even worst&#8230;. <strong>NEVER CALL TO ASK ME ABOUT SCHOOL WORK ON MY HANDPHONE<\/strong>.. i dun like it<\/p>\n<p>so regarding my &#8216;friends&#8217; in NIE&#8230;. they did all the wrong things&#8230; or rather &#8216;SHE&#8221;&#8230; we had a confrontation today&#8230;. and she was telling me how unhappy she was with me&#8230;. like <strong>i rolled my eyes at her<\/strong>!!! i was shocked&#8230;. i didn&#8217;t know such a small gesture wld cause her to be so unhappy&#8230;. <\/p>\n<p>the reason why i rolled my eyes is&#8230;&#8230;. i came all the way to school to consult my tutor.. and she was asking all the questions.. of corrs i am sooooo frustrated&#8230;. BUT then again&#8230;. 4 person with different questions consulting <strong>ONE<\/strong> tutor&#8230; is a BAD idea&#8230;&#8230;. argh&#8230;&#8230; and 1 thing leads to another&#8230;. like my raising my voice&#8230; oh man&#8230;.. juz kill me&#8230; and leave me ALONE&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>i thnk i&#8217;m getting more and more unlikable nowadays&#8230;. dunno what these pple want&#8230;. <\/p>\n<p>and you know what&#8230; she said tt i used too many &#8216;damn&#8217; and &#8216;shit&#8217;&#8230;&#8230;.. i really got nothing to say can&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>still say i keep pushing them away&#8230; when they wanna help&#8230;. sorry&#8230; it&#8217;s juz a ego problem&#8230;. i&#8217;m trying to change<\/p>\n<p>above all&#8230;when i apologised for all the <em>bad<\/em> things i did.. she said &#8221; can you not be so practical, i dun want ur apology!&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>WHAT DOES SHE WANT!!!! come on&#8230; i deflate my ego to say &#8216;SORRY&#8217; to you can&#8230; <\/p>\n<p>anyway, all is well now&#8230; coz.. what i needed to do is to keep my mouth shut and not say anything&#8230;&#8230; and i soooo HATE this&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>maybe i&#8217;m really sooo difficult to get along&#8230;. alright&#8230; most of you reading my blog wld haf known me since JC or rather pri or sec school days&#8230;. i think i have changed&#8230;sooner or later everyone will leave me.. <\/p>\n<p>i&#8217;m so detestable&#8230;. and i use the words &#8216;damn&#8217; and &#8216;shit&#8217;, and i rolled my eyes when i&#8217;m frustrated and i do not like to teach pple how to do maths&#8230; and i&#8217;m selfish&#8230;and i&#8217;ll be all by myself&#8230;.<\/p>\n<p>to top all these up&#8230;. if my NIE friends think tt i&#8217;m like this, i&#8217;m sure BH, who&#8217;s much closer to me than them.. will feel this way too&#8230;.<\/p>\n<p>i hate to say this here&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;..  BUT&#8230;&#8230;. i&#8217;m sure BH doesn&#8217;t like me as much as before :pout1<\/p>\n<p>i&#8217;m ok&#8230; juz treat this post as junk&#8230; needed a place to write down my thoughts<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>i really do not know how to describe my love for being ALONE. it&#8217;s just something which i suddenly fell in love with&#8230; everything is faster when you r alone&#8230; like&#8230; you can walk faster, you can buy things faster, you can have everything to urself.. HOWEVER, lunch can be a little boring and weird&#8230;. 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