{"id":211,"date":"2005-05-09T23:03:18","date_gmt":"2005-05-09T17:33:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.fakedevil.com\/angeldreamz\/wp\/?p=211"},"modified":"2005-05-09T23:03:18","modified_gmt":"2005-05-09T17:33:18","slug":"the-keys-to-my-heart","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/secret.6eptember.com\/?p=211","title":{"rendered":"the keys to my heart"},"content":{"rendered":"

Caution: VERY long entry… Read when you have nothing better to do<\/b><\/p>\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n
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The Keys to Your Heart<\/h3>\n<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n

\nYou are attracted to those who have a split personality – cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
\nIn love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
\nYou’d like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything!<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
\nYou would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
\nYour ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything… no secrets.<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
\nYour risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
\nYou think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
\nIn this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/table>\n
\nWhat Are The Keys To Your Heart?<\/a>\n<\/div>\n

got it from caryn’s and zhihui’s blogs… :beam1 oh well… somehow.. it’s quite accurate… haha.. though i dun look like the type that will remain commited to my partner…i admit i look at guys and lust after them.. and i’m always on the look-out for better guys… BUT Looking and doing are very different things<\/b>..:blush1 haha… <\/p>\n

today i started the day by meeting BH in the morning… coz it’s my baby’s 1st day of work.. and seriously speaking.. i feel so nervous and anxious for him… yupz… waited awhile for him at serangoon station.. and i was soooooooo scared tt he’ll look sucky… luckily, he didn’t.. i thought he looked delicious:yum1 you know.. those normal l\/s shirt and pants… not bad lar… heeez… i like guys when they wear formally…<\/p>\n

kill me… coz i thot of ‘love at dolphin bay’ — yi tian bian<\/i> and zeya<\/i>.. except BH was the skinny version of zeya w\/o the blazer… and not good looking….haha… soooo i wanted to do the hug from the back thingy from the show.. BUT the train was tooooo crowded… and the time is not right… geeeeeeez…. i shld put my fantasy aside 1st… haha…. later he not responsive… i’ll feel sooo rejected… heeeez…. dun get what i’m talking abt?? nvm.. it’s not impt… it’s a little gal fantasy kinda thingy…. :grin1<\/p>\n

sooo.. i was alone after BH alighted at commonwealth.. really alone… alone in the bug LT when i reached school… my only comfort was the book — The Family Way by Tony Parsons<\/i>.. by now u cld have figured out that i love this author… anyway…. i didn’t dare to eat much during the tea reception though i was hungry… argh… coz i muz watch my diet<\/b>.. i think i shld bring a fruit to school like a pear <\/b>which is 1 serving<\/b>.. it’s healthier than other food… haha… my mum will be sooo encouraging to hear my healthy food plan… haha<\/p>\n

the talk at NIE ended earlier than expected… which was good…coz i was bored sitting alone and i’m hungry and i was afraid that my tummy will be growling out loud… :blush1<\/p>\n

after the talk… i realised that all my hope abt getting a crossover is diminished… coz… i’m definitely not good enough to get a DISTINCTION<\/b> for my diploma.. and i see myself having no choice BUT to go into teaching this coming july…and probably tk up the advanced dip course… hoping to get into degree program with that… <\/p>\n

oh well… i felt abit disapted… and once again.. i felt that i won’t have to face such sh*t if i were to do better in my A-levels… <-- is this the 1000th times that i've said this.... juz let me rant...\n\ni guess BH was right that something was obviously stopping me from doing better... i dunno why... BUT there's a barrier and i can't go over it.... it muz be afraid of FAILURE...afraid of what other pple might think.. or even being too dependent on BH? hmmm... i dunno...\n\n________________________________________________\n\ntoday is one of those days that i decided to be nice to BH... since talk ended early... i went to bukit merah thinking of lunching with BH...it was meant to be a surprise<\/b> BUT on my way there… he msg and said that he’s lunching with his collegues… i was disapted… BUT i comforted myself “iyah.. nvm.. u go Ikea and walk walk lor… and buy some sauages for my little sis…” … “maybe i’ll drop when i see a nearest MRT station and mk my way home..”<\/p>\n

but i went all the way to bukit merah in the end… heeez…. luckily when i was almost reaching.. BH called and told me his collegues all went their seperate ways… haha… luckily i didn’t alight from the bus…<\/p>\n

ate lunch at his sucky canteen… with lots of ‘cheena-pe-ang’ coz of the james cooks university? did i get the name right? :eek1<\/p>\n

oh well… told BH abt the crossover thingy and he was like … “after ur bond we can go australia.. you get ur degree.. i go work then we dun come back liaoz”.. <\/i>i didn’t tell him this… BUT i was really glad to hear that… wahaha… i like the idea of starting a NEW life together and OUT of Singapore… :blush1 hmmm… it’s juz a dream… BUT back to reality.. it might not be possible? even after my bond.. BH proabaly have job commitments.. and he won’t leave S’pore then… tt’s what i think…<\/p>\n

after lunch… i went off to Ikea alone.. walked around alone… and being alone nv felt sooooooo good… coz i was talking to myself in my head… and for a moment i wish my head is a typewriter.. so all my thots will be written out….. haha….maybe i was in a better mood today… i even wanted to go to bukit timah to look for the German Supermarket<\/b> shiuan was talking about… juz that i dunno which part of bukit timah it’s located at…<\/p>\n

Shiuan or anyone else who knows: Can you tell me where the german supermarket is located at?? thanks!<\/b>:smile1<\/p>\n

back to the part when i was alone…. i love to see the furnitures and i dream of how my future house will look like… haha… and i was thinking of a retro<\/b> theme.. with a retro fridge <\/b>and a retro clock<\/b>… with retro chairs<\/b>.. and our house will look sooo cool… did i say OUR? geeez… coz i was in a good mood… so surprising… whatever i was thinking got to do with ‘OUR’ = BH and me… wahaha… i’m sure BH will be cool abt this idea!
\n*mood subject to changes*<\/i><\/p>\n

and… i realised that at the end of the day… a degree isn’t that impt… isn’t it? and i really appreciate Caryn’s MSN msg to me last night…. thanks.. :heart1<\/p>\n

i shall end here… i think BH will say “Finally she stopped thinking for the day…”<\/i> :zip1<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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